EnsTren: (well, he earned major brownie points by
cutting off the collar)
Edmondia: (yes, he's a good boy)
EnsTren: (and the fact he was relatively gentle pushing
him around)
Edmondia: (as he said, he's wary of scaring him again)
EnsTren: (yes, also the fact he didn't try to screw him
while Seto was sitting in his lap)
Edmondia: (yes, that was showing some good sense)
EnsTren: (Seto has informed me that he is willing to
play this game with his yami again)
EnsTren: (but he also wants to be the one in the priest
outfit sometimes... Seth can be the concubine next time)
EnsTren: (*whispers in seto's ear*)
EnsTren: /*Snifflesniff,*/ came coursing along their
bond and the impression of holding tears back. And a
further, deeper impression, begging to any being that
he's not doing this again.
Edmondia: //No.//
EnsTren: /Y-you said,/ he stammered, valiently trying
not to be hurt.
EnsTren: /You said... when I asked... when we
first... you said "Maybe!" If I could then I could!/
Edmondia: //Yes, I said maybe. That means that there is a
possibility for yes, and a possibility for no. The answer is
no.//
EnsTren: /Why? Don't you think... I'll be good
enough? I-I give you and gift you and I just... this... and
it's the first time I asked of you and-and.../
Edmondia: //I said no.//
EnsTren: Miserable sadness, blaming himself, /B-but.
I'm yours, aren't I? An-and.../ A whimper, tears, and a
hushed whisper, /You'rebeautiful.../
EnsTren: /Want... be mine too... want to have you,
because you have me./
Edmondia: //Fine then! Do whatever you want! I won't
complain.//
EnsTren: A mental flinch, recoiling from him at his outburst and then slowly extending a tendril of
thought as he goes to find his Yami.
Edmondia: Dead silence on the other end of the link.
EnsTren: He went to him though anyways, crawled
into his lap and kissed his face, "You don't have... to
dress like I do," he murmered as he kissed him. "But
you're... so beautiful... I want.... to see you in gold... and
wet, and I want to look at you... how you looked at me,
that awe..."
Edmondia: "Do whatever you want," he said flatly, "I don't
care."
EnsTren: He pulled back and hugged himself, "I'm
sorry," he said, "I-I..." Want to be like you, know you,
love you, maybe pretend I am you. Have you just like you have me.
Edmondia: "...so take me."
EnsTren: Very quietly, very quickly, leaning away
from him, "Butthatwouldberape."
Edmondia: "That's only if it's nonconsensual. I consent.
Go ahead, I won't stop you."
EnsTren: "But you won't like it, you're angry now and
tense and upset."
Edmondia: Flatly, "I'm fine."
EnsTren: "...Is this what it's like," sounding so lost and
sad.
Edmondia: "...like what?"
EnsTren: "When I offered myself to you, saying you
could touch me all over."
Edmondia: ("I don't know. Maybe.")
EnsTren: ("Does it feel like your heart if being stabbed
and pulled out? But it's a phantom stab, like with a
blade that's not there, as if you dreamed it.")
Edmondia: ("I guess.")
EnsTren: ("I-I'm sorry... I'll leave you alone now," and
he slipped off his lap and quickly left.)
Edmondia: (//Why are you leaving?//)
EnsTren: (/Because it hurts and you're not happy./)
Edmondia: (//I can make you feel better. Come back.//)
EnsTren: (/No. Because you'd be doing it for me and
not because you wanted to for yourself. And I don't
deserve to feel better./)
Edmondia: (//I can make you change your mind. And why
can I not do for you what you did for me? Come back.//)
EnsTren: (He only stopped. /It's different. You don't
want it, I wanted it even though it would hurt./)
Edmondia: (//I hurt you. Consider it reparation. Come
back.//)
EnsTren: (/...You're not business though./)
Edmondia: (//Doesn't matter. Come back.//)
EnsTren: (/Yes, it does. And you're just feeling guilty,
don't. Not your fault./)
Edmondia: (//It is. I can make it up to you. Come back.//)
EnsTren: (/You were just making your feelings known
on the subject of how well you think I can seme. There
is nothing to make up./)
Edmondia: (//It has nothing to do with you. Come back, I'll
make you feel better.//)
EnsTren: (/You don't have to make me feel better, and
if not me then what?/)
Edmondia: (//...I hurt your feelings. Come back.//)
EnsTren: (/You didn't answer the question, I will come
back and you will answer the question,/ and he started
coming back.)
Edmondia: (//...//)
EnsTren: (He came back and sat down next to him,
looking at his face and then scooted a little away. He
tugged on his yami's shoulder.)
Edmondia: (Seth looked at him, no expression on his face.
//What do you want me to do?//)
EnsTren: (/Lay down,/ he said and tugged on him
again.)
Edmondia: (He followed the motion docilely, lying down and
staring up at the ceiling.)
EnsTren: (Seto squirmed and lifted up his yami,
scooting and laying his Yami's head on his lap, then
started to brush his fingers though the cinnimon hair. /Be
comfortable./)
Edmondia: (His blank gaze remained fixed on the ceiling.
//Whatever you want is fine.//)
EnsTren: (/No, you're going to answer my question. I
don't want to make love to a doll, yami./)
Edmondia: (//I won't be a doll.//)
EnsTren: /Your heart won't be in it. Tell me, please?
If it has nothing to do with me then it must have
something to do with something./
Edmondia: //It'll be fine. You can pretend, I can too - I can
change your mind for you.//
EnsTren: /You tell me I shouldn't have to pretend./
Edmondia: //You shouldn't.// And he pressed a hand
against his stomach.
EnsTren: /So why the double standard, Seth?/
EnsTren: And he continued to slowly run his fingers
though his Yami's hair soothingly, fingers sometimes
coming down and lightly massaging his neck.
Edmondia: //...doesn't matter,// he mumbled, and slipped his
hands beneath his shirt.
EnsTren: /Tell me./
Edmondia: //Tell you what?//
EnsTren: /Why./
Edmondia: //Why what?// And his mouth took the place of
his hands.
EnsTren: Seto resisted the temptation the same way he
resisted pain. It was harder but he could do it. /Why
you went so... stony when I asked you to... mnn... let me
seme./
Edmondia: //No reason.// And he unbuckled his belt.
EnsTren: /Don't you tell me not to lie?/ He questioned
as he stroked his Yami's pretty hair. Oh but how did
he want to let him continue.
Edmondia: //Fine. There's a reason.// And he unzipped his
pants.
EnsTren: /Tell me, please, Yami,/ he asked very
quietly as he ran his fingers though the hair at the nape
of his neck.
Edmondia: //It doesn't matter,// he repeated, //It was
millennia ago.//
EnsTren: /Tell me? You take away my pain so let me
take away yours./
Edmondia: //...it doesn't matter.//
Edmondia: And he resumed his affections.
EnsTren: He tugged on his hair and lowered his head
so their eyes could meet and he smiled a little, sad and
loving. /It matters to me, my love./
Edmondia: //...when I was ten I was stolen out of the palace
by bandits and forced into prostitution,// he stated flatly, voice
and eyes completely devoid of emotion. //Then I got out
again. End of story.//
EnsTren: He shifted his grip and pressed a kiss fully to
his mouth, /I am NOT!/ And Seth witnessed his hikari
going into a full and rightous rage over it, curses and
endearments and the illogical practice of checking him
over to see if he was wounded.
Edmondia: He blinked at him slowly. //What's the matter?//
EnsTren: /If they weren't already dead I'd KILL
THEM!/ An impotently raging hikari is a frightening
and cute thing--even Seto resembles a fluff ball kitten
showing it's fangs. /I want to find their graves and
deficate on them! I'll drop their carcasses into the Mariana trench! I'd feed them to piranahs!/
Edmondia: //...we didn't leave any bodies behind.//
EnsTren: /YAY!/ He nuzzled him and kissed him and radiated
sparkly hikari happiness.
Edmondia: //Atemu killed most of them for me,// he
explained, //Because I couldn't walk, he had to.//
EnsTren: He had been about to launch into a happy
jabber of questioning how they were tortured but
stopped cold and embraced him. He touched his skin
to give him all the light he could.
Edmondia: Seth blinked curiously at him. //What are you
doing?//
EnsTren: He knew very well that Yugi could choose to
push his light into people, as he had done it to him,
sending a pulse when he touched him those few times,
trying to light up his soul. So he tried to push the meager
light he didn't see in himself to his Yami. /Being sad and
happy all at once. I'm sorry I'm sorry, I love you
I'm sorry./
Edmondia: A soft hand landed on his cheek, the expression
in his eyes faintly puzzled. //What do you have to be sorry
for?//
EnsTren: /I am sorry that it happened to you./
EnsTren: /That I tried to push myself on you./
Edmondia: //You can, if you want. I won't fight you.//
EnsTren: /You should want it though./
Edmondia: //...although I understand if you don't want to
touch me now,// he said hastily, swiftly looking away..
EnsTren: His hikari's response was rather odd, first he
slapped him and then he kissed him. /Never ever ever
imply that again you stupid idiotic wonderful Yami!/
EnsTren: /I love you, you stupid idiot! I'm not going to
hold against you something that wasn't your fault./
Edmondia: //My fault,// he said blandly, raising a finger and
tapping himself on the cheek. //Cursed blue eyes.//
EnsTren: /Oh yes, so you just decided to have blue
eyes? Besides, Anzu has blue eyes and she doesn't
have to deal with the shit we have to./
Edmondia: //I looked funny, so they took me. They
would've taken Atemu, but he was too well guarded. I
wouldn't have let them take him, though.// He looked up into
his eyes, a bit of pleading there. //I wouldn't have ever let
them take him, I wouldn't, they said I would but I'd never ever
ever let anyone take him away.//
EnsTren: /I believe you, because you are strong like
me and would have been strong for him just like I was
strong for Mokuba./ He said, cupping his face and
resting his forehead on his.
Edmondia: He smiled back, a tiny, pained expression.
//They were wrong - he knew it. He was the only one who
looked for me...//
EnsTren: /Because the rest of the world is scum and
sometimes you can't even trust your own blood./ It
wasn't the uplifting thing that hikaris should have said,
but it was what Seto knew. /I love youloveyouforever./
Edmondia: He reached up and cupped his cheek, voice soft
with wonder. //...pretty hikari...//
EnsTren: And he smiled, a slowly glowing smile, just
for his yami. /I love you./
Edmondia: //Love you, pretty ankh. Love you so much...//
EnsTren: /Can I do anything for you to make you feel
better? I won't ever insist on semeing you again, I
promise./
Edmondia: //You can if you want - I remember how to do it
right...//
EnsTren: /There isn't a right or a wrong, I love you and
I don't want to hurt you./
Edmondia: //...but if you don't squirm or struggle, it's over
quicker...// His voice was childish and puzzled.
EnsTren: He closed his eyes and looked as if he was
about to cry, /Yami, yami mine, I love you. Why do
you think I squirm when you take me?/
Edmondia: //...I don't know why - I never understood why
you did... so many things that you did.//
EnsTren: /Because it's not rape, pretty Yami. Because
you make me feel good./
EnsTren: /You... hurt me,/ he admitted, /But it feels
good too. It's your skin that hurts, not what you do./
Edmondia: //...oh.// And he looked troubled, as if the
thought had never occured to him before.
EnsTren: /Why do you think I showed my pleasure if I
did not like it? How could I have came if not for
pleasure?/
Edmondia: //Extensive stimulation of the prostate gland,//
Seth said flatly. //I didn't know the name, but I knew it
existed.//
EnsTren: /It feels good, Anx,/ he murmured, /Really
really good because you are good to me. And I like
the friction and how I feel full when you are in me./
Edmondia: //...oh.// And he looked thoughtful.
EnsTren: /We are the right sizes too, and you are
careful so you don't tear me inside. And I am old
enough to enjoy it,/ he said soothingly and he rubbed
his Yami's arms.
Edmondia: Seth reached for him imploringly.
EnsTren: And he went to him.
Edmondia: //...why were you so angry, pretty light?//
EnsTren: /Because they hurt you,/ he said as they
embraced, /Because you thought so little of yourself
that I would not want to touch you for it./
Edmondia: //...but nobody else did - nobody else but him.//
EnsTren: /Because they are stupid idiots./
Edmondia: //...I guess...//
EnsTren: /Repeat after me, "They are stupid idiots." If
you do I'll do the sexy bitch line./
Edmondia: He managed a smile. //They are stupid idiots.//
EnsTren: /Good! Now my turn, I am a sexy bitch./
Edmondia: The smile grew a bit bigger. //Silly-pretty
hikari-mine.//
EnsTren: /Yes, yours. Now let's go take a shower
and I'll pleasure you with my mouth, that should cheer
you up./
Edmondia: //...okay.//
EnsTren: He was mildly displeased with the lack of good
cheer in his yami, and so sent him an image of them in the
shower and Seto, glistening wet on his knees sucking
him off.
Edmondia: //...can we go now?//
EnsTren: He giggled and pulled his Yami with him to
have some fun in the shower.
Edmondia: And his yami smiled for him.
EnsTren: And they had much fun in the shower, which
included their first exchange of oral pleasures and Seto
introducing his Yami to his prostrate with his finger.
Edmondia: And afterwards they tumbled into bed together,
sleepy and content.
EnsTren: And much much happier.
EnsTren: (so Seto wasn't Seth's first)
Edmondia: (he likes to think of it as it is - he wasn't really
lying)
Edmondia: (first time enjoying himself at it)
EnsTren: (I think Seto likes playing the slave game for
the same reason dare devils to crazy stunts, for the
rush. And it reafirms his trust in Seth, strengthens it)
EnsTren: (it's a bit messed up, but he kinda likes it)
EnsTren: (I also am assuming that Seth will... drag out
the sex more, now that he knows that it doesn't hurt)
EnsTren: (well hurts like he thought it did, and that
Seto likes drawn out love making)
PM)-->: (*pokes him though* so you thought you
were hurting him even when he was lying and you still
wanted to have sex?)
Edmondia: ("...he's pretty.")
EnsTren: (so you wanted to take your pleasure at the
expense of his?)
Edmondia: ("...I could tell he liked it.")
EnsTren: (Really?)
Edmondia: (*polite cough* "Yes.")
EnsTren: (so why didn't you think you'd like it?)
Edmondia: ("Traumatic memories.")
EnsTren: (*pets him* he loves you)
Edmondia: ("...I know.")
EnsTren: (he loves sex)
Edmondia: ("...I know.")
EnsTren: (he really really really loves sex)
Edmondia: ("...yeah.")
EnsTren: (he wants to take two days off and have sex
all day and recover and cuddle all the next)
Edmondia: ("...YEAH!")
EnsTren: (*giggles* there's our exuberant Seth)
EnsTren: (and you can feed him food from your fingers
because he'd be too sore to move much and you could
kiss him drinks into his mouth)
EnsTren: (did Seth tell Atemu-chan about the room?
not the cloaths or what they do, but the room)
Edmondia: (yeah, I think he did a while ago, maybe when he
snuck over the beer?)
EnsTren: (I can see Seth being kid like in "Look at the
present my hikari gave me!")
EnsTren: (it's kinda weird. Seth pays in angst and
making Seto feel better and Seto repays him with gifts)
EnsTren: (Seto: *climbs into Seth's lap* Pet me.)
Edmondia: (Seth: *pets him*)
EnsTren: (Seto: *happi*)
EnsTren: (I am seeing Mokuba making comments he
could become a billionare just like oniisama if he taped
them and put it on a pay site)