EnsTren (11:50:32 AM): (Seto's soul rooms is evolving in my head, becoming a bit more in-depth)
EnsTren (11:50:39 AM): (and I think there's a monster under his bead)
EnsTren (11:51:08 AM): (hidden in darkness)
EnsTren (11:51:51 AM): (little childlike cot, with child's bedding casting a too dark shadow where something moves beneath with only an album of happy memories as protection)
EnsTren (11:52:33 AM): (draw a star of david, and that's the shape of his room)
EnsTren (11:53:02 AM): (opposites are, Pegasus Goz, Heart Closet, Dragon Mokuba.)
EnsTren (11:54:47 AM): (opposite points of the star)
EnsTren (11:55:18 AM): (closet and dragon on either side of Goz)
EnsTren (11:55:30 AM): (facing Goz and turning left it goes)
EnsTren (11:56:30 AM): (Goz, Closet, Mokuba, Pegasus, Heart, BEWD)
EnsTren (11:56:44 AM): (or turning to the right, either way)
EnsTren (11:57:41 AM): (now then, there's lines, thick ones about the thickness of your palm)
EnsTren (11:58:05 AM): (a black one on the wall from Goz to closet, with > pointing to the closet)
EnsTren (11:58:25 AM): (and a light one from Mokuba to the closet, but dark <'s to it)
EnsTren (11:58:54 AM): (on the floor there's a black line from Goz to Peg <>'s)
EnsTren (11:59:53 AM): (Mokuba and the BEWD has a light line with silver <>'s, but the GozPeg line keeps it from meeting)
EnsTren (12:00:43 PM): (and a line that starts to go from Goz to Mokuba (dark with dark arrows to Mokuba) but the MokubaBEWD keeps it from getting there)
EnsTren (12:01:00 PM): (there's a matching Pegasus to Mokuba line but it gets to Mokuba)

EnsTren (12:01:51 PM): (Closet and Heart have dark on dark <> lines on the floor going to each other, creating a node of dark on dark right under Seto's bed)
EnsTren (12:02:53 PM): (Dark on Dark Peg to Heart line. Dark on Dark Goz to BEWD line, and Goz to Closet and heart)
EnsTren (12:03:06 PM): (you see how the relationships are in the room?)
EnsTren (12:04:40 PM): (dark means bad relationship, dark arrows mean adding darkness. Which is why there's a line from Mokuba to the closet that's white but has dark arrows. Protecting Mokuba hurts)
EnsTren (12:04:57 PM): (the BEWD is a representation of Seto himself) EnsTren (12:05:34 PM): (and he doesn't really connect with his brother, too much bad shit)
EnsTren (12:06:20 PM): (he equates Pegasus and Gozaburo)
EnsTren (12:07:42 PM): (the heart and the closet are actually kinda the same room, because his heart is in darkness and he just keeps most of the crap in the darkness in the closet)
EnsTren (12:08:14 PM): (the heart is sealed up so it looks like a blank wall. the only way to get to it is though the closet or beat though the wall)
EnsTren (12:08:32 PM): (the closet gave him a heart attack, breaking down the wall from the outside would break him)
EnsTren (12:10:20 PM): (Goz tried to hurt Mokuba, but the connection between Mokuba and himself prevented that. Pegasus broke the connection because Seto "failed" to protect him)
EnsTren (12:11:26 PM): (line on the floor from BEWD, neutral color with da'rk arrows, going to the closet, Pegsus Dark on Dark to closet)
EnsTren (12:11:47 PM): (all the bad crap gets shunted to the closet, which in turn protects and damages his heart)
EnsTren (12:13:30 PM): (Pegasus line to Seto, dark on dark, but the returning line has tarnished and dark arrows to Peg. Signifying that he used to trust him, that he used to think it was a good relationship)
EnsTren (12:13:56 PM): (it also has some red in it I think, to show that there was a betrayal)
EnsTren (12:15:10 PM): (Seto's a complicated person. and there are only two reasons why you can tell his heart is there)
EnsTren (12:15:32 PM): (one, it doesn't look right to have a wall where there should be a point, two, there are lines going past that wall)
EnsTren (12:16:33 PM): (I wonder what the monster under the bed is?)
Edmondia (12:17:32 PM): (suspect it to be something horribly narsty)
EnsTren (12:18:08 PM): (I'm seeing Seto himself but older and Goz like and Death-T Seto like)
EnsTren (12:18:20 PM): (and maybe a hole to the shadow realm)
Edmondia (12:18:37 PM): (definitely an embodiment of his self-loathing)
EnsTren (12:19:31 PM): (and he has his album of happy memories hidden under his matress to protect him)
EnsTren (12:19:49 PM): (and he can't take them out often because then they could be tarnished and the monster could get him)
Edmondia (12:20:56 PM): (mmhmm)
EnsTren (12:21:13 PM): (the only ones he has out as it were, is his plushie dragon, and the same picture he has in his locket)
EnsTren (12:22:21 PM): (which is on the ceiling where the main strings come together (the threads holding his soul together from the penalty Atemu did) and there as an ofuda/kekai so he doesn't fal apart)
EnsTren (12:23:03 PM): (I wonder what Shadi would make of Seto's soul room) Edmondia (12:23:27 PM): ("...this boy... is fucked-up...") EnsTren (12:23:48 PM): (it's very complicated, if he tried to do too much he'd ruin the barely-there balance)
EnsTren (12:24:34 PM): (it's only a few very tenous strands that keep the darkness in check. and if he tried to "remove" the memory of Mokuba his soul would fly apart)
EnsTren (12:25:07 PM): (heh, funny. Even his plushie has fangs and claws)
EnsTren (12:25:15 PM): (a killer child)
EnsTren (12:26:11 PM): (he invites his self disgust into bed with him, sad)
EnsTren (12:27:25 PM): (and if you look close the trappings of childhood, the bedding is tattered and threadbare, the cot is tarnished, rusting and squeaking)
EnsTren (12:27:30 PM): (it's the only comfort he has)
EnsTren (12:28:23 PM): (this symbol of his hateful transformation is all he has to comfort and protect him)
EnsTren (12:29:04 PM): (and the orbiting door, no set connection to the outside world)
Edmondia (12:32:33 PM): (not a very happy place, that soul room)
EnsTren (12:36:40 PM): at first glance it looks balanced light and dark
EnsTren (12:37:37 PM): (but it's not)
Edmondia (12:38:21 PM): (hopefully the introduction of his yami can balance him a bit more)
EnsTren (12:38:52 PM): (his yami shrine is supposed to be either under his bed or the closet)
EnsTren (12:39:17 PM): (ooh. creepy, *makes the GozSeto under the bed look a bit like Seth*)
Edmondia (12:40:02 PM): (yeah, I know)
Edmondia (12:40:13 PM): (weird amalgamation of all he doesn't like/fears)
EnsTren (12:40:38 PM): (*puts a tuft of Atemu hair in then*)
Edmondia (12:42:22 PM): (*sweatdrops* this thing looks really funky)
Edmondia (12:42:43 PM): (mostly kaiba-ish, with goz-ish clothes, seth's hair, and blonde bangs)
Edmondia (12:42:57 PM): (...actually, more death-t clothes)
Edmondia (12:43:06 PM): (that odd white suit with the gold collar)
EnsTren (12:43:14 PM): (*gets rid of the bangs and makes one eye atemu's eye*)
Edmondia (12:43:33 PM): (...eeew, creepy.)
EnsTren (12:43:57 PM): (that's what I'm going for)
EnsTren (12:44:03 PM): *Goz sideburns*
Edmondia (12:45:08 PM): (this thing is very demented in appearance)
EnsTren (12:45:46 PM): (*more Goz-ish jaw*)
EnsTren (12:46:14 PM): (*puts tha hair peg style*)
Edmondia (12:47:13 PM): (...so it's got a blue eye, a red eye, sideburns, and really long cinnamon hair)
EnsTren (12:48:04 PM): (*puts hair normally and grumps*)
EnsTren (12:48:16 PM): (and it's early Atemu eye, the crazy one)
Edmondia (12:48:39 PM): (frankly, his eyes are always crazy, especially if he's pissed off)
EnsTren (12:48:39 PM): (*little Pegasus cuffs*)
Edmondia (12:48:48 PM): (Pegasus cuffs and the death-t suit)
EnsTren (12:48:52 PM): (the uber crazy I'm thinks)
EnsTren (12:48:57 PM): (what think?)
Edmondia (12:49:11 PM): (I think Seto's messed-up in the head)
Edmondia (12:49:27 PM): (but I think his inner him looks about right)
EnsTren (12:49:36 PM): (soulroom or monster?)
Edmondia (12:50:30 PM): (monster - soulroom is right too, of course)
EnsTren (12:51:53 PM): (I can see Seth sitting outside Seto's soul room, and has his permission to have the door open and is drawing it as it rotates)
Edmondia (12:52:31 PM): (very quiet Seto cuddled up next to him, dozing)
EnsTren (12:53:11 PM): (he's putting together a model of Seto's soul room, so he can figure out what's going on in there evn if he can't enter)
Edmondia (12:54:23 PM): (mmhmm - and Seto's wrapped up in an expensive wool blanket he snitched from Seth's room)
EnsTren (12:55:04 PM): (it slowly gets dirty though, and tattered just like his other bedding, but not as much)
EnsTren (12:55:49 PM): (he brings seth some of the things in there for Seth to see and draw, like his plushie and normal blanket)
Edmondia (12:56:22 PM): (Seth is a bit surprised when the plushie jumps in his lap and cuddles him)
EnsTren (12:56:54 PM): (and a bit surprised when he nicks himself on the claws)
EnsTren (12:57:33 PM): ("Don't let it taste your blood," Seto warned him gently, he knows what that plushie is and he's ashamed of it.)
Edmondia (12:58:07 PM): ("Hm.")
EnsTren (12:59:16 PM): (Seto gently took it from Seth's lap, not minding how it occasionally scratched him, licked the wounds and nipped to draw blood even as it hugged him. He took it back and put it on his bed.)
EnsTren (1:00:08 PM): (When he came back he showed Seth the thin, too-worn comforter with little Blue Eyes White Dragon print on it on a background that tried to mimic the color of his hikari's eyes.)
Edmondia (1:01:05 PM): (He wrapped it around his hikari, and settled him down onto the other blanket, eyes dark.)
EnsTren (1:01:49 PM): (Seto curled up in it, shivering. It was obvious such a thing could barely keep him warm, could barely offer him comfort.)
EnsTren (1:04:04 PM): (He could see from here that the sheets were in much the same condition, and the cot was rusted and the paint chipped. He had thought it was a reminant of his hikari's childhood, happy and pure and clean and right and light.)
Edmondia (1:04:45 PM): (He frowned. The he returned to his own room, coming out again with thick pillows and heavy blankets, still warm with desert heat, and wrapped up his hikari more tightly, propping him up so he could watch his eyes.)
EnsTren (1:06:37 PM): (His hikari's comforter protected him from the pain of things from his yami's soul room, letting him absorb the heat without discomfort. Seth looked at the other blanket he had given Seto a while ago for his soul room and saw that it was becoming worn and dirty--just like the comforter.)
EnsTren (1:07:12 PM): (Seto's eyes were not directed towards him or anything in paticular, unfocused and shaded. He read shame in them.)
Edmondia (1:09:10 PM): (He willed another blanket to him, light but warm, and wrapped it around his own shoulders, then settled against his omote, gently tugging it down so it rested over them both, spilling out onto the stone behind him in all directions.)
EnsTren (1:10:48 PM): (Seto curled against him, his soul room was terribly cold, and the coldness wafted out around them, espically Seto. Bitterly cold.)
EnsTren (1:11:30 PM): (They watched the ever turning scape of his soulroom, Seto's eyes were dead. "I'm sorry I'm so messed up")
Edmondia (1:13:03 PM): (He pushed away the cold with the fierce memory of the searing Egyptian sun, eyes smoldering in fury. "It is not your fault, my light," he murmured tenderly, pressing a gentle hand to his cheek, wrapped up in a bit of the comforter so as not to hurt him.)
EnsTren (1:14:34 PM): (Seto blinked slowly, Seth could tell he was holding back tears, not sobs, just tears that wanted to fall and be known. He had seen them freeze on his hikari's cheeks and even in his eyes once or twice. "There's a monster under my bed.")
Edmondia (1:15:48 PM): (Gently, carefully, he threaded his free hand through his hikari's hair. "What is your monster like?" he asked quietly, willing more heat into the air around them.)
EnsTren (1:17:24 PM): (He sunk into the comforters, hitching them up until they were around his ears, "It looks like you, but it has his hair style and one of Atemu's eyes. Dresses a bit like Pegasus but like I used to. It's...")
Edmondia (1:18:07 PM): (He kept up the gentle motions, stroking his pale cheek tenderly. "Mmhmm?")
EnsTren (1:18:29 PM): ("'s me, what I might be...It's you too.")
Edmondia (1:18:54 PM): (He tilted his head and blinked down at him. "Oh?")
EnsTren (1:19:27 PM): ("Yes. Death-T but older... and like Atemu in the eyes. How he used to be when the puzzle was just assembled.")
Edmondia (1:20:17 PM): (He closed his eyes and briefly, quickly, nuzzled his cheek. "Mmmhmm...")
EnsTren (1:21:08 PM): ("And I have happy memories under my mattress to protect me, but I can't look at them. Only happy memory I can look at is Mokuba," he pointed up at the small picture on the ceiling right over his bed, "But I can't touch it. And the plushie," which tries to kill people and eat him and turn into a monster.)
Edmondia (1:22:40 PM): (He looked into his eyes, expression gentle. "...may I kiss you?")
EnsTren (1:23:39 PM): (A mildly surprised blink,"Why?" Why do you want to kiss someone like me? Why are you asking? Why aren't you disgusted?)
Edmondia (1:24:30 PM): (A soft, sad smile. "Because I love you, and because I need you, and because I like touching you. You make me feel good.")
EnsTren (1:25:19 PM): ("Okay." And he tilted his face up and closed his eyes and thought about how warm it was now and how their little Egyptian room looked and pretended that it wouldn't hurt.)
Edmondia (1:26:24 PM): (And his yami leaned down and kissed him, soft and lingering, purring a soft, "love you..." against his lips.)
EnsTren (1:27:15 PM): (And he pretended, and his tears froze in his eyes from a sudden gust. And he kissed.)
Edmondia (1:28:16 PM): (His yami held him carefully, carefully, like he was a porcelain doll about to shatter, and heat thawed the edges of his ice.)
EnsTren (1:28:57 PM): (He melted and lightly reached up to touch his yami's cheek lightly, and flick away the tears so he wouldn't know.)
Edmondia (1:30:44 PM): (Seth's hands were very gentle against his hair, against his cheek, and he never pressed, never pushed, and his mouth was just soft and soft and soft.)
EnsTren (1:31:36 PM): (And fire, and pain, and sweet. It was even more painful like this, without flesh to buffer the stuff of souls.)
Edmondia (1:32:40 PM): (He wondered how much it would hurt to join. He wondered if he cared.)
EnsTren (1:33:29 PM): (He wondered if it felt more pleasurable for his yami like this, would it make him happy? He'd do it then.)
Edmondia (1:34:18 PM): (But his yami wouldn't let him know. His yami wouldn't want him to hurt.)
Edmondia (1:34:45 PM): (No matter that he was hurting now.)
EnsTren (1:35:06 PM): (His yami didn't know how much, he made sure of that.)
Edmondia (1:35:42 PM): (He was good at hiding.)
EnsTren (1:37:04 PM): (Even his soul room showed it, it looked normal until you really looked. You might even think he was a normal person, with a mildly troubled past. Until you looked.)
Edmondia (1:38:01 PM): (He didn't want to think about it anymore.)
Edmondia (1:38:36 PM): (He didn't want to think.)
EnsTren (1:39:19 PM): (Yami was good at not making him think, he just had to get him to do it. His fingers settled and fluttered against Seth's stomach.)
Edmondia (1:40:14 PM): (Seth made a soft noise of surprise, pulling away and looking at him, curiosity and wariness in his eyes.)
EnsTren (1:40:53 PM): (Seto composed his face and smiled for him while lightly stroking Seth's knee, "What's wrong?")