EnsTren: (dragon likes it's tail being pet)
Edmondia: (yeah, I remember all that, but... ;_; )
EnsTren: (sheets are ratty, evil monster under the bed and a plushie that's a good and bad memory in the bed)
Edmondia: (damn thee, smiley!)
EnsTren: (that hurts you even as it lets you hug it)
EnsTren: (sewn up cracks on the ceiling)
Edmondia: (and Kaibaboi's religion is Mokuba-ism)
EnsTren: (I think the cracks that are sewn up aren't from Seto ripping into himself but from the batsu game from Yami)
Edmondia: (yeah, we decided that already, didn't we?)
EnsTren: (Jou thought it was from Seto ripping into himself from what Seth said)
Edmondia: (but he did also mention that he was afraid of Yami)
EnsTren: (everyone is except Yamimalikthing and Bakura and Seth and Yugi)
EnsTren: (the first two are crazy)
EnsTren: (Seth is sometimes frightened of him)
EnsTren: (and Yugi's his hikari)
EnsTren: (Seth's in my head hugging Atemu and saying trying to figure out the whole disturbing bloody fuck he did with Seto)
Edmondia: (yeah, that is something to think about)
EnsTren: (the physical pain blotted out the soul pain and the physical pain he's delt with before)
EnsTren: (and it was violent, near the same violence that hurts and hides his and kills his heart)
Edmondia: (but also quite enjoyable)
EnsTren: (yeah, but because it was that kind of darkness it could go though the hurting darkness and become with it and nearly touch his real heart without hurting him)
Edmondia: (...Kaibaboi's fucked uuuuuuuuuuuup)
EnsTren: Seth laid his head on Atemu's lap and drew spirals in the sheets. "I had sex with my hikari two days ago," he said.
Edmondia: Atemu blinked. "And this is of note because...?"
EnsTren: "Because we were fired with the shadows and we... I soaked the sheets with his blood and he enjoyed it."
Edmondia: "...I see."
EnsTren: "No condoms, no preparation, just... If I wasn't in his head at the time I would have killed myself for raping him."
Edmondia: "..."
EnsTren: "But he liked it, because he said "It doesn't hurt, not like how it usually hurts, you can heal this." And I did, and he wants to do it again."
Edmondia: "...you're upset about this?"
EnsTren: "I'm not talking about a little bit of blood Atemu, and... he... he didn't say he liked it, he said it hurt less!"
Edmondia: Atemu rested a gentle hand on his shoulder and eased him back down. "Did it?"
EnsTren: Seth calmed but his eyes were hunted, "He said so."
Edmondia: He ran his fingers lightly through his hair. "And you believe him?"
EnsTren: He nodded slightly, "Yes."
Edmondia: "So why are you so unsure?"
EnsTren: "Because... I know... that really really really hurts, it would hurt even if you were wraped in shadows. So what must my kisses be like to him if that's preferable?"
Edmondia: "Cousin... how much was he enjoying himself?"
EnsTren: "As much as me, for once."
Edmondia: "...and this is bad?"
EnsTren: "Call it my squick."
Edmondia: "Did you bother to lick any blood off of him?"
EnsTren: "Just a little, but it might have been mine."
Edmondia: "I'm guessing from your disgust that this was a... 'heat of the moment' encounter?"
EnsTren: Seth sighed heavily, "Yes."
Edmondia: "Mmm." Long lashes draped heavily over his eyes as he watched some recent memory. "These things can't be controlled, cousin."
EnsTren: "He wants to, he wants to do it again."
Edmondia: "Did you enjoy it?"
EnsTren: "Yes, and no."
Edmondia: "While you were at it, then. Did you enjoy it?"
EnsTren: "Yes. He was soft and sweet and wanting and giving and all mine forever."
Edmondia: "If he wants to do it again, he will, and you won't have a choice in the matter."
EnsTren: Seth was quiet. "But is my touch really that horrible to him?"
Edmondia: Atemu sighed. "I honestly don't know, cousin... he's yours, not mine to deal with. And, I think... if he can want you enough even then... that says something about your relationship."
Edmondia: He was quiet for a moment. "...you won't be able to keep from touching him."
EnsTren: "I can't."
Edmondia: "I know." He was silent for a moment, eyes lowered and distant, hands still slipping steadily through his hair. "...he will heal..."
EnsTren: "Are you sure?"
Edmondia: "Why are you uncertain?"
EnsTren: "He's so hurt..."
Edmondia: "So are you."
EnsTren: "He's hurt worse. He can't even feel his own light."
Edmondia: "Then you must help him."
EnsTren: "How can I?"
Edmondia: "Teach him, show him, love him... do whatever feels right. You can convince him of his own beauty... but it will take time."
EnsTren: "He still won't play."
Edmondia: "Seduce him."
EnsTren: "No, he won't play games, he says nothing is fair. How is it that a hikari, who is as tied to games as we are, can refuse to play?"
Edmondia: "He's tired."
EnsTren: "Of what?"
Edmondia: "Losing."
EnsTren: "He says he's won everything that he can win that matters."
Edmondia: "...you must find him something new to strive for."
EnsTren: "What does he have to strive for that he can achive?"
Edmondia: "That's what you have to figure out, sweet cousin."
EnsTren: "What ever could he want that I could provide? He can even get his own vengance, he has already, without need of me."
Edmondia: "Do you think he doesn't need you?"
EnsTren: "He has me."
Edmondia: "The question then, dear cousin, is what he is going to do with you."
EnsTren: "I don't know."
Edmondia: He leaned over to peer into his eyes. "Then... shall I tell you what to do?
EnsTren: "Please?"
Edmondia: He smiled softly. "Save him from himself."
EnsTren: "But how?"
Edmondia: He tapped his nose. "That's what you have to find out for yourself, cousin."
EnsTren: "I can offer him nothing but myself, Atemu. I have nothing but that to offer him. But my very essence gives him agony to the point where he prefers rape to lovemaking."
Edmondia: Atemu slapped him.
EnsTren: Seth was still, quiet and depressed. Passive, just as Seto had a tendency to be when he had nothing to fight for or with.
Edmondia: "He loves you, and he made love to you that night. Do not delude yourself into thinking otherwise."
EnsTren: Seth hit back. "Shut up! What do you know?! I remember! No female bleeds like that for her first time, nor do they shed that much blood a night when their time comes! No! We only bleed like that when we're raped! I remember it! All of it, those girls, the only time they bled more is when they tried to cut the babies out! I know what rape is Cousin so don't try to tell me if you don't know it."
Edmondia: "Don't you try and tell me you would ever be capable of such an act against him," Atemu hissed back, eyes slitted.
EnsTren: He shoved himself up from his laying position, standing looming over him with an expression on his face that was frightened and enraged and disgusted and pleading.
EnsTren: "It's the only word I have for what I did to him!"
Edmondia: "He loves you!"
EnsTren: "It does not change the act!"
Edmondia: "The fact that he wanted it does!"
EnsTren: "If it weren't for the shadows he wouldn't have wanted it. If it weren't for my failure to reach him I he wouldn't have been twisted enough to touch them!"
Edmondia: "...selfish, cousin."
EnsTren: Atemu was stronger in the ways of shadow magic, but he lacked the more common magic that did every day things. He was the antithesis of Light magic, and Seth himself had access to a spark of it for healing. But over all, Atemu's magical strength bested Seth's almost completely. Seth however, was taller, older, and broader of shoulder than Atemu--so he backhanded him and left.
Edmondia: "Think of him first, and not your own fears!"
EnsTren: He ignored him. He feared for his hikari, his hikari came first even if he did tease him from time to time.
Edmondia: But... then... why... why did his hikari want... more?
EnsTren: Because it hurt so much it was the same darkness that hide and protected and peirced his heart. Because his hikari could barely understand love so he needed rape to feel good.
Edmondia: ...he needed to vomit.
EnsTren: Preferably on Atemu and his perfect perfect hikari.
Edmondia: ...and why the hell was he crying?
EnsTren: Because he did the unforgivable to his hikari.
Edmondia: Because he... he...
EnsTren: He...
EnsTren: He was no better than those bandits, if not worse.
Edmondia: He collapsed.
EnsTren: He vomited.
Edmondia: And he cried.