Still I Will Trust Him

"Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him."
- Job 13:15 (NKJV) -

I know that the Bible says "Those who hopefully wait for Me will not be put to shame" (Is 49:23) and "Whoever believes in Him will not be disappointed" (Rom 10:11), but can my faith withstand the test?  Each time I say to myself, "I have asked in God's will.  He has heard me.  He will surely do it for me." there comes that sinister voice, "But what if..."  "What if he does not answer you, or if you don't see the results of your faith?  Are you sure you can still trust him?" It is easy to believe wholeheartedly if I have seen or can see the results of my own faith.  For example, if I trusted Christ to lead me to someone share the gospel with and that He will convict his heart, and he does and the person responds, it is easy for me to believe He will repeat it again.  But what if I do not see the results of my faith, and do not seem to get what I ask even though I ask in faith?  Will I be able to say the next time with similar confidence, "He will do as I asked."?  Or will I stumble and wonder, "Will he give me what I asked?"?  Will I find myself saying, "But Lord, didn't you say..."?  But that would be unbelief already, for it would be charging God with unfaithfulness. "Though he slay me, I will hope in him."  Job was one who trusted the Lord despite all hopelessness.  The Lord was silent and distant while he suffered and his faith was battered by his wife and friends.  He saw no result of his faith, but "yet will I trust Him".  Faith is not based on results or past experiences.  It is based solely on the character and the Word of God.  Even if I may only see the fruit of my faith when I get to heaven, Lord, help me trust you, and help me still wholeheartedly and confidently say, "Lord, you said."