acid words burn into my skin
but one girl's poison is another's
candy
one rejoices in another's demise
as i get whiplash from her hair
he's reading this
and i get shoved into the spotlight
i lost my crystalline eye shadow
too bad, cuz i need it now
trying to be better and
trying to suffice
gets painful when it doesn't work
like climbing a mountain with suction
cups
he breathes on me but he shines
on her
what are we doing, this is confusing
my mind more than my heart can't
take rejection
is this what i'm worth
now she's laughing sweetly
but i'm immune to the sugar
we all want something beautiful
but all i see is a manufactured
doll
where is the divinity?
sometimes he lets me know i'm in
his head
and not on the ground
but he always makes sure i know
that i'm just another girl
my confusion is contagious
he leaves the antidote on my answering
machine
i had found comfort in the rainbow
people
they shed light from their pores
you know
so where did she come in?
probably when i was scraping my
dignity
off the walls of his locker
oh well.
it's odd how people twist eachother
kind of like twizzlers
whatever makes mouths happy..
that's what they wanna be
do i want to be that?
thinking about him leaves me breathless
thats what its like being at the
right hand
of a capricious lover
but love's so much more beautiful
when it's complicated
i imagine the divinity in him...
and the evil in her.
poetic comments:
i bet you can't guess what this is about! it's quite simple really. another
poem about nick and his gal, but this time with a twist. the acid words
were things like when basically told me that he didn't wanna be around
me. that should have made her happy, so it was my poison and her candy.
2nd stanza doesn't really make
sense. i knew he'd read it though, and i was surprised he didn't get all
weird about it..maybe he didn't know it was about him lol.
3rd stanza...i always felt like
i was trying to be something for him but it was never good enough. it got
annoying.
4th stanza, can't tell you exactly,
basically he wants one thing from me and everything else from her..kinda
sucks. i felt rejected again. worthless. yeah i know, cry me a river, right?
5th stanza happens to be my favorite,
she laughs a lot but i don't see what's so great about it. all i see is
another girl. who replaces me all the time. where's the divinity in her,
y' know?
6th stanza...yeah sometimes nicks
acts like i'm his friend, and he can be so fun. but something always happens
to change that.
7th...um...i get confused, he doesn't
ever call me so the answering machine was just a poetic thought. i had
gay friends who make me feel better.
8th, i was wondering where she
came in cuz she used to not be that important.
9th...people change eachother..they
wanna be whatever makes other people happy. that's what i want to be at
least. or do i?
10th stanza...i'm stuck on him,
it bothers me, but that's just what it's like, can't really do anything
about it. and i do think love is better when it has a twist. :-)
so, i imagine that he is the best
thing ever
and that she is the evil of the
universe.
hehe...'nuff said. :-)