Dear ,
I'm writing you this letter from the hotel. I just got of the phone with you but realised there's so much more I want to tell you. , and keep saying it's not forever and we'll be back soon enough, but I see it differently. Every minute without you is like an eternity, let alone a whole day, or week or month! 5 months seems to be impossible. But the picture of you in my head reminds me that you're worth waiting all those minutes, days, weeks and months. Let's just look at it from the bright side: 1 down, only 152 days to go!
Your beloved

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Sweet ,
I've decided to wait for your first letter before I'd start writing to you. I had to wait for over a week and as you said, that week seemed like an eternity. But I conquered it, telling me that we will be okay. I knew we would, but I just needed a prove of it.
Not much has happened since we last called eachother, not much could've happened in 6 hours. I don't think we'll be happy with the phonecompany, all those calls cost a fortune! Please, let's just call once a week as we won't be able to afford the bill otherwise.
Heya, keep in mine 11 days down, 142 to go. I love you loads and always will.
-xxx-

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My ,
Your letter cheered me up. I know we'll be okay and the assurance you know too was what I needed. I'm sooo homesick. Yesterday told me he was getting bored of my whining. I know it must be annyoing for them to hear me talk about you all the time, but I can't help myself. is just as bad. Only and aren't that homesick. But that's obviously because they're single and don't have anyone waiting for them back home.
Perhaps you should go visit some day, she knows what you're going through as she's obvioulsy experiencing it herself. So yeah...you could like, support eachother. Oh is calling. Something about being picked up so I'll stop writing now. Oh and before I forget...I agree with you on the phonethingy.
21 days down, just 132 to go (A) Love you forever,

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,
The most amazing thing happened today. I feel bad telling you this in a letter, but I can't wait any longer. , our family is going to get bigger! I'm pregnant! I kept throwing up in the morning so I did a pregnancytest and it was positive! I just came home from an appointment at the doctor's and he confirmed it, said I'm about 3 months gone!
I'm so happy ! My dream's come true and I just don't know what to say. I hope you're as happy as I am. I wish you could be here with me now. I'm already thinking about names, you got any suggestions? Oh...I gotta run or I'll throw up all over this letter. 31 down, 122 to go!
Yours forever,

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!
OMG, OMG, OMG!!!! That's like soooooooooooooooooo coool! I'm gonna be a dad! yaaaaay, omg! I still can't believe it! When I read your letter I ran to the guys and told them the news. They told me to congratulate you. So there you go. The guys say congratulations. Oh and they also had some suggestions for names, what about , or ? No way I'll ever call my child after one of them. Nahhhh that would just be...I dunno...just not right. I'd love to have a baby boy called . Yeah, that's a cool name. And for a girl...I dunno really, you come up with suggestions
I'm so sorry I can't be there for you at this moment. I wish I could just fly back and be with you, but you know I can't really. They won't let me go. And ofcourse it's important for our baby's future that I earn a lot of money so yeah...I gotta stay here. Imagine me coming back and you'll be like...7 months gone, that would be brilliant! You'll be really showing than. I can't picture you with a blown up tummy, it'll take me some time to get used to that. DAMN, I'll have to miss like all the good stuff of you being pregnant. Feeling the kid kick and stuff like that...
You make sure you hang in there sweetie, I hope you and the baby will be okay, that there won't be any problems during your pregnancy. Remember, 41 down, 112 to go. A month has gone by so quick, the other 4 will be over ever quicker.
A proud father to be (who loves you really really bad!)

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YOOO !
Your letter made me smile. I'm sooo glad you're as happy with our baby as I am. But it has made being here without you even harder. I know you can't be here, and that's not what I'm asking from you. You know I was thinking about going to visit you guys with , but I don't suppose that's a good idea when I'm in this state. Hmph, hear me (or read me, though that sounds a bit weird) state...I'm not just in a state! I'm pregnant! And I'm soo happy.
I went to visit today, told her the news. She was so happy for us too and congratulates you. You know, we're really getting along now. We're becoming best friends, as we both know what the other person's going through. When one of us is down and misses her boyfriend the other one exactly knows what to say or do. It's cool, something good has come from you and the guys being away.
We went out shopping and looking for baby stuff. there's soo much you need for a baby. And I've seen so much cute stuff. I loved it all. My parents offered to help us out a bit, you know financially but also being babysitters and stuff. So did your parents. You don't mind me calling them do you? Nah...don't think you do. But the bell's ringing so I'll go answer the door. 51 down, only 102 to go!
Your mummy to be =P

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Hey hunny,
Of course I don't mind you calling them. I was sort of hoping you would. Not that I didn't want to do it, but you know...saves money and...well you get the point.
It's soo good to hear you and are getting along really well. It makes both me and very happy. We were discussing the you guys coming over bit and he & decided that if you wouldn't go, than neither would . So yeah...she's not coming either. I think it's really sweet of them.
Oh and about the help from our parents, tell them we really appreciate it, but we don't want their money. I'm making enough of it over here and would feel really bad if I took theirs.
Aarrgh... is being his annoying self, probably no need to explain that further, you know what he's like. He's jumping all over the place and playing pranks on people. He's met a girl and we think he's hopelessly in love. That would explain why he's so happy all of a sudden (Not that he really needs a reason, but still) Oh yeah sure...now 's joined the team. They keep running down the corridor screaming weird stuff. Ah, I suppose that's just them 'ey.
Anyways 61 (!) down, only 92 to go! I love you and miss you,

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Hey ,
Awww, give those two a break, they're just being bored and uh...lonely? They can't help being like that...though it sounds like fun what they're doing (A) And yeah...it could be because of meeting this girl. What's she like? I think it's sweet he's happy because he's in love. You were like that as well I remember. When I came to visit the guys for the first time they were like: Ohh you're the one that makes him so annoyingly happy. And yeah I was that one, or so I hope...
Today I just went crazy because of the morning sickness. It's getting sooo annoying, but I know it's all for the right cause. Tomorrow I'll have my first scan! I'll ask them to make a picture of it that I can send you! I'm so exicted to see our child for the very first time. Yesterday me and Michelle bought some baby clothes. Yeah I know that's like way too early as I'm only 4 months pregnant yet, but we couldn't help ourselves. It looked soo cute. told me she wants to try for a baby as well when you guys get back. But I promised not to tell anyone, so shhh, don't tell . And I agree with you when it comes to them being so sweet. I mean I would've been so jealous if she'd been with you guys while I would've been stuck here with a big tummy. I'm already showing now. People come up to me and go like: OMG, you're pregnant! Congratulations! When are you due? It's sweet really but sometimes I just don't feel like telling all those people. But I'll stop writing now as I gotta run to make it to the postoffice in time. 71 down, 82 to go.
Ciaoo,

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Darling,
Of course it's okay you bought some babyclothes already. I mean once the kid's born it needs something to wear. Me and the guys bought something as well, but you'll see that when I get back.
Ohhh I can't wait for your next letter with the scan. I can't imagine what it's like seeing your unborn child for the very first time. I guess I'm bound to find out soon ain't I? Anyways the guys are getting pretty exicted too, it's really funny. They're like, if you ever need a babysitter...I don't think I'll ever trust one of them with our kid. They'd manage to lose it or something like that. Shhh, don't let them hear I said that. They'd bite my head of, though I suppose you could trust with it, as it seems like he's going to be a daddy not long after me. Ever since your news came he's been going on about wanting to try for a baby with . He's just not too sure how she feels about it. Well...there's no need to worry for him. It's really funny seeing him wondering how would react if he told her he wanted to try for a baby. Especially because I know that is going to ask him as well...hehe *goes into daydream*
I did the most amazing thing today, summit I'd never ever thought I'd do, but I did! I went bungeejumping. The guys said I shouldn't go with them as I'm going to be a daddy soon so I'd have to miss out on all the fun things. Something to do with responsibility. I told them it was the last time I'd do something like that. And I'm making that same promise to you too now. In the future I'll think with everything I do about you and our baby. I'll never do anything to leave you guys alone. Now I'm going to go to bed, I almost fall asleep. Jeez these letters are getting longer and longer don't ya think? 81 down, 72 to go!
Love you forever,

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Hey babe,
WOW! I can't believe you honestly went bungeejumping! That must've been so...scary! I know I would've never done that. You don't have to give up all the funthings only because I'm pregnant...I don't mind you going bungeejumping and doing the things you like. It's not like it'll be different for me because I'm pregnant if something happened to you. But nothing will happen I know that, though I still think it's really good of you to take responsibility. Our parents agree with me on that. I told them you went bungeejumping and they were like no way! not with you being pregnant right? So I said I don't care really and that you promised you were going to take responsibility and they said it's good for you. You're really growing up and stuff like that. So you, boring stuff really
You on the other hand seem to have a much more interesting live...I can imagine it must be really funny to hear going on about him and trying about a baby. And it must be really hard not to tell him what you know. But they'll find out soon enough and that really will be funny =P
You know I just realised we're like over halfway already. YAAAY, it went really quickly and all. Who thought when you left that we'd been happy to welcome a new member to our family only 2 months after you're back? Not me...it still seems so unreal. I guess I'll get used to it soon, I'm going to have to get used to it. And so do you!
I'm listening to now. Their new album is just brilliant! I'm soo loving it. *starts singing * *boogies* I'm happy you probably noticed that. hehe, had too much sugar I think.
Wait, our letters are getting longer, and more random. You mind? Cuz in that case just say and I won't write that long random letters anymore. It's up to you hunny. I don't wanna make you tired so I'll stop writing now. 91 down, 62 to go. Love you hunny,

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Heya,
Don't get me wrong please. It's not like I think your letters are too long! No no no, no way! I just meant that when you're tired those letters seem to get longer and longer...nothing special! I love to read your long letters, they remind me of our conversations together...they're long and random as well.
Anyways I wasn't really planning on writing a long letter now as I gotta go in a sec. But meh...I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE!!!! Uhhh everything is going just fine here, can't wait to get home though, to be with you and stuff...but I suppose you can't always get what you want. I'm so homesick at the moment...I bought a new list for that picture of us I brought with me. It's really lovely and I think you'll like it. It's not really manly, but that doesn't matter. It's like a bear holding a little heart, and in their is the picture. The woman in the shop asked me if she had to wrap it up, when I said no she was like omg, you bought that for yourself? I talked myself out of it saying it was for my girlfriend but I was first going to put a picture in it so she didn't have to wrap it up yet. Than she smiled and said she actually thought I'd bought if for myself =p like I would!
Jeez, can't they look after themselves for like 5 minutes? and got themself in trouble again so I'll go help them out. Take care! 101 down, 52 to go (like OMG!)

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SORRY ,
I didn't mean to sound so angry...it's the hormones I think. For the strangest reasons I get mad. Really weird that is...but I suppose that's all part of being pregnant. It's getting really boring now. Pregnancy I mean. 5 and a half months pregnant and yes I'm really showing there's nothing I can't do without being tired and stuff. And I keep eating pickles. I hate pickles, well not anymore, but still. It's weird. I eat so much more than I usually do...
Me and bought a cot for the little one. She paid for it, said it was a present from her and . So thank for me would you? It's just brilliant what they do for us. I love them soo much right now. Not that I didn't before, but meh...doesn't matter.
I can't wait to see the new list for the picture. I remember it was an awesome picture, you look so sexy in it. Eurrghhh....phone...gotta go answer that...ciaoo 111 down, 42 to go!

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Hey ,
It doesn't matter, I figured it must've been something to do with hormones. And yeah...it's all part pregnancy. It might take some getting used to, but remember you're already 6 months gone, so you've had most of it already. I just realised I'm gone for 4 months so far, so I'll be back in just 1 month! Finnally I can be there for you and help you out. I just can't wait. *starts singing* I'm so excited, and I just can't hide iiiit! I know I know, I know and I think I like it!
Hehe, 's shouting I have to shut up as he's trying to sleep. Talking about , I thanked him for the cot. He said they'd planned to buy something for us for the baby and when the opportunity came, bought the cot. Now and feel the need to buy something as well. I told them there's no need to, but they wouldn't listen. I wonder what they come up with...
Oh...I just heard this amazing name for a girl: and than shortened to . That's brilliant. I think I want our daughter to be called that way and with your middlename. That would make . Wow, loving it already. Hope you like it too.
Hey I gotta go now. See ya 121 down, only 32 to go!

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Yo ,
Wow! I can't believe you're coming home in 3 weeks! It's all gone so quickly. Not that I mind, cuz I can't wait for you to get home. I've missed you so much...still miss you...This is like the last letter I'll write to you before you come home. That's so amazing!
Anyways, about that girls name, I heard it too, and I was thinking exactly the same thing. I'm liking it! So yeah...names are sorted than. If it's a boy he'll get your middlename, so he'll be called and if it's a girl she'll be called . I told our parents and they were excited too...
is staying over tonight, we're having a little party. Don't worry, we won't smash the house (A). But a lot of people are invited, so we actually gotta go and sort that party out in a sec. We still have to do the shoppings as we don't have any alcohol and stuff here. Why would we, I can't drink it anyways. Oh, just arrived so I'll quit writing now, than I can post this letter on our way to the supermarket. Love you forever!
131 down, only 22 to go! Woohooooo *boogies*

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Dear ,
Just a quick note before I have to go out. This'll be the last note I'll write to you. I'm excited, it's good that it's gone by so quickly because it was getting boring without you here. The guys are fun to be around, but it's not the same without you. Besides you get bored of them after a while and they smell. They can't help it, but I suggest they use some deodorant. Hehe, okay I probably should use more of it too cuz 4 guys together just is a smelly mess and it's not just them...
I'm sorry this letter is so short, but I'll tell you all about our adventures when I get home. For now I gotta love you and leave you! Remember we conquered this together 141 days down which means only 12 to go!
Yours forever,

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12 days later.
I was so excited. Finally would come home again. Me and had left extra early so that we wouldn't miss them. After waiting for like one and a half our they called out that the plane they were supposed to be on had landed. I looked at and just smiled. She smiled back, we were both so nervous, we'd been waiting for this moment to arrive for 5 whole months and finally it was really happening. We stood up and went to the area where the boys would be soon. We waited...and waited...we'd seen all the other passengers, but and weren't amongst them. Neither were and for that matter. After a while no more passengers came from the plane. and I looked at eachother worried. We waited a bit longer and than decided to go ask one of the air hostesses if they were still on the plane. 'Excuse me miss, we're looking for our boyfriends, are they still on the plane?' I heard ask. I looked at the airhostess. She smiled. 'What are their names?' ' and ' answered. The airhostess typed something in the computer that was in front of her. 'I'm sorry, but they never made it on the flight. Perhaps they just missed it, so I wouldn't worry too much.' 'When's the next plane landing?' I asked. 'In 2 hours, so perhaps you could wait?' And that's what we did. We waited, but they weren't on the next plane, or on the one after that. Late that night we decided to head home. Tired and with red puffy eyes from the crying. We'd been looking forward to them coming home for so long, and now they didn't come home. stayed the night over at mine and 's place. We decided we needed eachother.

8 days later.
The past week me and went to the airport every single day. Every day we had less hope that they were gonna be on the plane. 'I know I complained about the bill from the phonecompany, but this would be the perfect time to call' I moaned. nodded. 'You don't suppose something happened to them, do you?' She asked. I shaked my head. No nothing could've happened to them, nothing was supposed to happen to them, I wouldn't allow it! At that moment the mail came. I counted on my fingers. Today would be the day would've gotten my letter if I'd written one to him, and today would be the day that he would've written a letter to me. Thinking about this I walked to the hallway to collect the post. To my great surprise there was a letter there with a familiar handwriting. It was a letter from . I ran back to the livingroom where was. 'There's a letter here from !' I called. I opened it with shaking hands, hoping that there would be some kind of clue in it why they never made it to the plane. Once I'd opened the letter I read it, out loud.

,
I know I'm not supposed to write you a letter now, but I just needed to. I had such a weird dream last night. It was about , , and myself getting lost or summit. Anyways, you and Michelle were left at home, alone, not knowing what happened to us. And it gave me such a strange feeling. I just needed to write you this letter. I told the guys about my dream. They laughed about it and said I shouldn't worry too much. Nothing could go wrong. But it felt so real. I think something bad really could happen to us. And I don't want to leave you without you knowing I love you loads and what could've happened to us. So therefore I'm now telling you how exactly we're gonna travel.
Today we're going by boat to some island where we'll have to perform. Than tomorrow we'll go back here and than catch a plane home. And than we'll be with you again! So there you go. I know that if...no when...we get home and you'll receive this letter we'll laugh about it. Stupid instincts of mine. Let's just hope that is what'll happen. But just in case that's not what happens I want you to know that I love you loads and our unborn baby as well. And tell that loves her as well. He can't stop going on about her and him wanting a baby as well. Oh and he says he gives her a big kiss and a hug, so give that as well from him.
, I love you forever and I'll always be right there, whenever you need me. I've lived 151 days without you and there are only 2 more days to go untill we will be reunited. See you than,


Once I finished reading it I looked at . had known what was about to happen. Something his guts told him wasn't right. I was so happy he'd decided to write us a letter telling how much he and loved us, but on the other hand I was so worried. Upto that point I'd been wondering what could've happened, but my brains wouldn't admit something must be wrong. Now it finally sank in. I started crying. This couldn't be happening, not now...not now I was pregnant and I needed him there. pulled me into a hug crying too. Than the phone rang. I picked up, again with shaking hands, hoping it would be , telling me that they'd had some delay but that they could be picked up from airport.
'Hello?'
'Hello, is this ?'
'I wish it was , but yes, that's me'
'Oh, I'm sorry. My name is Jim and I'm from the police department. I don't really know how to bring this...but it's about your boyfriend.'
'?'
'Yeah , we're sorry to tell you but the boat they were on went missing.'
'Missing?'
'Yes, and so is everyone that was on it. I'm sorry we waited so long to let you know, but first we had to find out who was on that boat'
'What about ?'
'He was on that boat too, and so he's missing too.'
'Oh...oh...thank you'
'I'm really sorry, I wish I had better news'
'No...no...it's okay...I understand. You don't have a clue what could've happened?'
' 'No, I can't tell you, we don't know, but I promise you we'll keep looking for them'
'Oh...thanks and...uh... ' girlfriend is here, so you don't have to call her'
'Okay, thanks. Once again I'm sorry'
'Yes...bye...'
I hung up. looked at me questioning. She'd understood that something was wrong. I started crying. 'They... wrote...the boat...' came up to me and pulled me in a hug once again. 'Shh...it's okay...tell me what's wrong...' 'O...okay...' I sniffed. I took a deep breath and finally managed to speak without stuttering ' wrote they'd go by boat to some island and back and well...the boat went missing with everyone on it. They don't have a clue what could've happened. But they will keep looking for them' Now started crying as well. 'They can't leave us...they can't...not with you pregnant and me wanting a baby as well' ' wanted one too, I've known that for ages but never was allowed to tell you. Wait I got the letter here somewhere' So I went searching for the letter. Eventhough I felt really bad myself I knew I had to look after . 'Here I have it' And I started reading the letter out to her 'though I suppose you could trust with it, as it seems like he's going to be a daddy not long after me. Ever since your news came he's been going on about wanting to try for a baby with . He's just not too sure how she feels about it. Well...there's no need to worry for him. It's really funny seeing him wondering how would react if he told her he wanted to try for a baby. Especially because I know that is going to ask him as well...hehe *goes into daydream*' I stopped reading and smiled at . She smiled back imagening how would be moaning about wanting a baby too. It made her really happy, I could tell. 'We'll be alright. They'll be found soon' I said. She nodded. All we could do was have faith. 'It might look bad but whatever anyone says, we are not gonna give up on our boys!' said and I nodded.

2 years and like 7 months later...

The boat and its passengers were never found back. moved in with me and . Yeah you guessed right...I got a baby girl and gave her the name loved so much. She was now 2 years old and looked a lot like . It was amazing how her eyes were just like his and their nose was the same. Everyone always told me she reminded them of her father. At first it was really hard to look at my daughter and to see my boyfriend who'd never returned. But I got used to it and now I was happy that she looked so much like him.
and I were sitting in the livingroom watching a bit of tv whilst was sleeping. 'You know I've been counting and in 2 days it's been 3 years since we last saw them' said. I nodded, I'd been counting too and I'd been thinking what to tell . She was bound to go ask soon where her father was. And I couldn't tell her. Just when I was about to ask for advice the phone rang. I looked at the clock: 10 pm. Who'd call at this time of the day? I went to answer it.
'Hello?'
'Hello, is this ?' The person on the other end of the line asked. I swallowed trying to keep my tears inside, this phonecall reminded my so much of the one I got when and had been missing for about a week.
'Yes that would be me' I answered, not feeling like telling the person that in fact we weren't married, not even engaged.
'I got great news for you!'
'You do?' I asked, thinking this was one of those phonecalls where they tell you you've been selected for this special offer.
'Yes I do, I have the privilegde to tell you we've found your husband!' She said.
'WHAT?!?! You're joking right?!' I yelled, I didn't even notice she said he was my husband. looked at me and I mouthed they've found them! to her. She definetly got the message because she jumped up and stood next to me, trying to hear what the person on the other end was saying.
'No mrs, I'm not joking. We have found them! I would put on the phone for you, but he's being treated in hospital as we speak.'
'Is he alright?'
'Yes mrs, he is. He's underfed but he'll be okay' I sighed with relief.
'What about the persons that were with him?'
'What are their names?' She asked
' , and '
'Actually I'm not allowed to tell you anything about a passenger other than your husband, but I think I can tell you all of them are okay' I sighed with relief once again. was signalling that she wanted the phone
'Okay, thank you. ' girlfriend is standing here right next to me and I think she'd like to hear that from you personally.' I gave the horn to and ran upstairs to who had awoken by our yelling and was now crying' When I came back downstairs was about to hang up. 'WAIT!' I yelled. 'What?' She asked immediatly continued by 'no I'm sorry, but my friend here is yelling to me that I have to wait.' 'When are they coming home?' I asked 'And she's asking a darn good question. When are they coming home?' asked smiling. 'Okay, thank you, we will be there. 10.30? Okay, yes...will do. Thank you soo much! Yes...okay! Bye!' And she hang up. 'And...' I asked. '2 days, 10.30 at the airport' '2 days? Than it's exactly 3 years ago they left!' I said. smiled and nodded 'About bloody time they came back' We both laughed and sat down and the sofa...

2 days later

It still hadn't sunk in that we were actually going to pick up the 2 guys we'd been waiting for for over 2 and a half years. I'd told we were going to pick daddy up. She'd looked at me and repeated me. 'Daddy?' From that moment on I knew everything was going to be alright.
On our way to the airport kept saying 'Daddy?' It made me and laugh. We got there a bit too early so we had to wait. We were both very nervous and couldn't sit still. Half an hour later the plane they were on had landed. We went to the area they would arrive in, just like we did the first time they were supposed to come home, and the days after that hoping they would come home. Very nervous we watched the passengers walk by, untill we saw a familiar face. It was . I was shocked how skinny he looked. I ran up to him, leaving with , hugged him and than dragged him towards who gave him a hug as well. 'Where are the others?' I asked. 'They'll be here in a sec' He answered. At that moment came walking towards us. He looked just as bad as . He gave and me a hug. Then and came in our direction. I couldn't hold my tears anymore when I looked in 's eyes. I saw that next to me had the same problem. She ran up to and hugged him. I grabbed and ran after her. Just before I reached I stopped and put down. Slowly I walked towards . When we finnaly were reunited we hugged and cried for ages. Nikki just stood there looking at us 'Daddy?' She said. looked up and looked at . I turned around 'Yes hunny, daddy' cried even more. 'Oh my gosh, she's so beautiful. What you called her?' ' ' I answered. He smiled. 'Wow, this is amazing' He kneeled down next to and smiled at her 'Hey hunny, I'm your daddy.' 'Daddy?' She asked again 'Yes that's me' smiled proudly knowing she'd guessed right. She wasn't too sure what it ment, but she liked having a daddy. She opened her arms and threw herself around 's neck. He smiled, put his arms round her and stood up. Carrying her towards the other guys. I followed him and saw that he didn't have any more fat on his bones than and had had. The guys smiled at and and stroked her hair. I walked to and gave her a hug as well. Than I went back to and took from his arms, giving her to . 'Could you hold her for a second. I need to hug my boyfriend' Everyone laughed and I hugged once again. 'I'm so glad I'm finally home...the past 2 years have been a disaster.' he whispered in my ear. 'I'm so glad you're home. I've had to survive 1095 days without you...'