', I'm taking you on a date, so get ready!' shouted up the stairs. 'Where we going?' yelled back.'I'm not telling you' was the answer. 'But I need to know how to dress' She said coming out of her room in the clothes she had been wearing all day, a pair of casual jeans and a brown shirt saying I love chocolate. 'What you're wearing now is just perfect' 'Is it?' asked not sure whether he had meant it or had said it to make her feel good 'Yes it is, now come we don't wanna be late' said taking 's hand, leading her outside and into the car

'Did you know that I love you?' asked , looking at her cheekily. 'Yes I did, but would you mind paying attention to the road, last week a terrible accident happened somewhere over here, it is a very dangerous road. You can't see any car from the side-roads' 'But darling, nothing will happen to us as long as I'm driving' answered, knowing would react in her typical "don't-think-you're-any-better-than-me-way" which always made him laugh. 'So now you're saying that you drive better than I do? Basically meaning I can't drive at all, since you're not any good either HMPFH' laughed 'I still love you babe' 'You do?' 'Yes I do' 'Good, cuz I love you too' said kissing him on the cheek. At that moment she heared screeching tyres, shocked she saw how a car was about to hit them, a loud bang and then it went black

Beep...beep...beep...beep, was waking up. Her head was killing her and it was difficult to open her eyes, but after a struggle with her own body she managed to open them and have a look around. On a chair beside her bed was her brother , he was looking at the floor so she couldn't see his face, next to him was , her best friend with his arm round 's shoulder. saw that had opened her eyes and immediatly stood up. now looked up and saw that he'd been crying. '!' said now getting a smile on his face. He stood up and took her right hand, walked to the other side of her bed and took her left hand. 'What...where' stuttered very slowly because speaking hurt. 'Sssh' sushed 'Don't speak if it hurts' 'You've been in a car crash sweetie, and you're now in hospital.' explained to her. '?' asked, she saw her brothers face turn white, the smile that had lied upon it just a second ago had faded away. 'Uhm, , there's no easy way of saying this, but uhm......he...he didn't make it' said, he was obviously having a hard time telling her this. started crying. No matter how much she loved both boys that were with her, the one she loved and needed most would never be with her again

The next months were very hard for . She was in hospital for another 2 weeks. And all she did was crying. and tried to fill the hole in her heart, but the hole that had left couldn't be filled. Not by anyone. She promised herself never to fall in love again, it hurt too much. Little did she know what was about to happen

', I brought someone with me, hope you don't mind' said when he entered 's house, closely followed by an other boy 'Who is it?' asked from the room which had became hers when died and she'd moved in with . 'Just a friend of mine, he's staying over at mine for a week' 'O' 'Is it okay?' 'Sure, come in' said quitely. and the boy came in. 'Hey , this is ' said 'Hey' said to . looked up to be surprised by a pair of big eyes. 'Hey' she said. sat down next to her on the bed. 'What you listening?' 'Lost from Anouk' answered 'If roses are meant to be red and violets to be blue, why isn't my heart meant to be with you?' she sang 'Something I keep wondering, every day, over and over again, but I can find the answer , I just can't' started crying and put his arm round her shoulder saying comfoting words. was still standing in the doorway, not sure what to do. signalled him to sit down

After a while stopped crying. ' told me what happened and well...it sucks. I feel really bad for you' said trying to break the silence. 'Thanks but you didn't know him so you don't know how I'm feeling.' couldn't be grateful, she just couldn't. The pain stopped her from feeling any postive emotion. 'I know that you feel that way and I understand, but I really do know how you feel''How come?' was all that could say, maybe she had been wrong, maybe this boy wasn't so bad after all, it certainly wouldn't hurt hearing what he had to say. 'Well, it happened four years ago, I was only 15 years old' started to explain. stood up and walked out of the room. He knew this was something between and , eventhough he knew 's story, those two shared something he dind't have. 'I was staying over at a friends place when I got a call...' told his story about how he'd come home to find out his parents and sister had died, how he felt afterwards and how his friends had helped him. 'Eventhough I'm alone in this world, I don't feel alone, my friends and family are here for me.' He ended his story. For some time it was quiet in the room. 'Wow' managed to say 'You seem so cool about it' 'Well yeah, but I've learned to deal with the pain of the loss, I could help you deal with yours' 'Would you?' 'Yes, a friend of is a friend of me, and I know you could use some friends right now' ' and have been there for me, they're so sweet' 'Yes, but they've tried to replace , and nothing can fill the hole in your heart. You only have to give it a place.' 'Can I hug you, I need a hug' asked 'Sure you can' they hugged 'I've only known you for an hour or so, but it feels like I've known you forever' confessed. 'I'd say that's a compliment. Now come, let's go to the livingroom, I bet is waiting for me to leave and your brother will be there as well' said, taking her hand and leading her to the livingroom.

In the next few weeks came over almost every day. They sat in 's room and talked. In those hours became more and more a special person to . She felt something for him that she didn't feel for , and he was her best friend. What she felt was more like what she had felt for . And one day she knew it for sure. She had broken her promise to herself, she had fallen in love... That same day she asked to come with her to 's grave. And he was willing to take her there, happy as he was that his lil sister had cheered up.

When they'd arrived at the graveyard went straight to 's grave and sat down next to it. came a little bit later and heard talking, therefore he decided to give her some space. 'Dear , it feels strange to talk to you like this, but I know that you can hear me. I'm sorry for not visiting your grave earlier, but it hurt too much, but now I've found the strength to come and tell you this. , don't be angry but I've fallen in love with someone else, this guy is so special. He's always there for me, he's cheered me up. His name is , . my love, you were the love of my life, and I will never forget you. You'll get a special place in my heart, but I feel it's now time to get over you...'