Forbidden Hearts
Part 2/?
By Elisabeth James
ejames000@ameritech.net
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Disclaimer: I don’t own Sailor Moon, OR the song Serenity
is singing in the beginning, that belongs to the nice people who
made Lunar Silver Star Story. Gee I love that game!
The bombs erupted through the still air, breaking apart the
peaceful tranquillity that surrounded the castle. They were
fighting again and they were slowly bringing the war closer and
closer toward the castle boundaries. At the rate it was going
now,
not even a wedding set in two weeks would save the kingdom.
Serenity sang softly under her breath, “Wishing on a dream
that seems far off. Hoping it will come today...” she kicked
her
feet gently along the top of the water. Droplets caught the sun
and
sparkled down around her. Besides the gardens, the lake was her
favorite place to visit when she was feeling down.
“Into the starlit night, hopeless dreamers turn their gaze,
wishing on a shooting star.” she continued on even as she heard
footstep approaching her from behind.
“Serenity, there you are! Mother has been searching for
you all morning long, have you been here the whole time?” Raina
asked her when she got close enough for her sister to hear.
“No, I spent a few hours in the gardens as well. What does
she want this time?” she didn’t even turn around to acknowledge
her sister’s presence. She had mixed feelings about Raina, even
though she loved her sister, she felt she was watching a little
Queen
Serenity grow up right before her eyes. Raina would always be
nice to Serenity in private but in front of their mother,
Serenity
was simply an annoyance, a being not worthy of the attention of
a
future queen.
“She needed to speak to you about something important,
that’s all she told me. You can’t keep running off like this,
your
flightiness only makes mother mistrust you more.” she took a
seat
next to her sister on the dock and waited for an answer.
“I don’t run off, I simply don’t inform you or mother of
where I am going. If you knew where I was going, I would not
get
any peace at all.” Serenity finally faced her sister, “Mother
can not
keep trying to control me. I am not you Raina, I will never be
queen, I will always be second best no matter what I do. I am
trying not to let that bother me anymore.”
“Serenity, your are so over dramatic. Mother loves you just
as she does me, we are equals in her eyes.”
“Equals?” Serenity turned sharply toward her sister, “What
is your definition of equals dear sister?” Raina wrinkled her
brow
and gave Serenity an worried look at the outburst.
“You are blowing this out of proportion Serenity. You are
reading into mother’s behavior too much. In her own little way,
she does love you.” Raina didn’t believe a word she was saying,
she knew how mother really felt about Serenity. She just didn’t
have the heart to tell her.
“She has an extremely humorous way of expressing it.”
Serenity mumbled under her breath as she slipped her legs back
into the cool water again. A lull of silence hung over them and
Raina jumped on it to change the subject.
“So do you like Prince Adonis? He seems like a perfectly
lovely gentleman.” Serenity said nothing in return. Raina let
out a
soft sigh, why did everything have to be so complicated between
her and Serenity.
“Do you like Endymion?” Serenity asked her finally,
sending another spray of water over the both of them.
“Stop trying to change the subject Serenity, I asked you
first.” Serenity started to counter back when the thundering of
hoofs began echoing across the grounds. Someone was coming
toward them on horseback.
A royal guard pulled up to the two princesses and smiled
“Your highnesses, your mother requests your company for dinner
this evening. She seemed very put off by your sudden
disappearances after breakfast this morning. She wants you back
to the castle, ready for supper in 30 minutes time.”
Raina nodded, “Thank you, we will be sure to make it back
there in time.” the guard nodded and took off back toward the
castle. “Serenity let’s go, we can’t be late for dinner or
mother
will murder us.”
“You go, I’ll be right behind you, I just want to be by
myself for a few more minutes.” she cut Raina off before she
could
open her mouth, “I’m fine, I just have a lot on my mind right
now
that needs to be taken care of.”
“Okay but be careful, I know you Serenity, better than you
think I do.” with that Raina turned and started walking quickly
toward the house.
Serenity turned her attention back to the water. The clear
blue color seemed to disappear, something was brewing just below
the surface. She pulled her legs from the icy depths and
shivered
slightly as the soft breeze grew harsher. The bomb blasts
seemed
only feet away from the tiny lake now, fear seized her heart.
A soft hand suddenly touched her shoulder and she shot to
her feet.
“Endymion! You frightened me!”
“That was not my intent princess. You looked absolutely
terrified there for a moment when that explosion went off. I
was
only checking to make sure you were all right. Your sister
informed me that you were down here by yourself so I thought I
might join you for a few minutes.” his expression was concerned
and automatically felt a little more at ease. The world didn’t
seem
so bad when he was around.
“I am fine, just not used to war surrounding me like that. I
thought that the rebel forces had broken through our defenses
along the outer rim.” she closed her eyes and willed her heart
to
slow itself down. The war was getting so close, it would not be
long now before the castle was taken. The castle would be
turned to ruins, a former shell of a once great kingdom.
“We should be getting back to the castle now, dinner is in
20 minutes.” he placed a strong arm around her waist and started
leading her toward her home. She stopped and looked at him, a
puzzled expression crossed her features and his arm fell from
her
side. “Sorry.” he mumbled softly to her. He quickened his pace
and she had to run to keep up.
She slipped silently into her seat, praying to Kami-sama
that her mother would not notice her rather tardy entrance.
“So good of you to join us Serenity, we are deeply honored
that you chose to grace us with your presence. Especially after
the
little disappearing act you pulled this afternoon.” Queen
Serenity
placed her hands together and rested them upon the table, “Would
you care to tell us where you disappeared off to?”
“I am sorry mother, I did not mean to be late. Please
forgive me your majesties, my tardiness is not a good example of
the way a princess should act.”
“It is all right my dear, things do come up that often
prohibit promptness. Not even a great ruler can be on time all
the
time.” Rhea smiled warmly at her and Serenity felt a little more
at
ease.
“Where exactly were you this afternoon my dear
daughter?” the queen narrowed her eyes at the petite girl. Why
was it always so hard to keep Serenity in line? Didn’t that
girl
know that all she wanted was for her to grow up proper and
princess-like?
“I was in the garden reading for a little while then I went
down to the lake. I was looking for inspiration.” she was
trying to
stay calm, her mother would soon start with the accusations and
the horrible putdowns she always resorted to when Serenity did
something the queen didn’t care for.
“Inspiration? For what? One of your stupid paintings you
are always wasting your time on? Honestly Serenity, I don’t
know
what to do with you. I try to raise you correctly so you are
ready to
face the world and here you are still living in a dream,
painting and
reading the days away. You should be attending royal meetings,
learning how to be a ruler of a kingdom.” the queen sniffed and
took a sip of water. The meal was barely on the table and
already
the bickering had started.
Serenity looked at Endymion, he was silent, concentrating
on pushing his food around his plate. He wouldn’t look her in
the
eyes, and his face held no comfort. Adonis’s eyes were staring
at
her, waiting for her next move. Raina remained quiet as well,
just
trying to tune the entire thing out, like she did every night at
suppertime.
Serenity took a deep breath, “Why should I have to attend
those boring meeting when I will not even be queen! Raina is
next
in line mother, you tell me that everyday. Raina this and Raina
that, that’s all you ever say to me.” tears rushed to her eyes
and she
forcefully choked them back, “I am not Raina, I am Serenity. I
will never be Raina, nor would I ever want to be. Can’t you
just
accept me for who I am?” no one said a word as they waited for
Queen Serenity to reply.
“I can not accept you Serenity because if I do not do
something you will become more of a failure than you already
are.” Serenity’s mouth fell open as the words sunk in. She drew
in
a shaky breath and tried not to just get up and run from the
table.
“That is how you see me? As a failure? Am I that bad of a
daughter? Do I disgrace you so much that you do not even love
me
anymore?”
The queen said nothing in return, the silence hurt more
than words ever could. Serenity closed her eyes and nodded,
“Well I’m going to my chambers now, this failure is not hungry
anymore.” she stood up gracefully and pushed her chair in.
“Good
night your majesties, Endymion, Adonis.” she walked quickly
from the dining room, slamming the doors behind her.
Endymion stood in the front of her chamber door, his fist
was poised to knock. He gripped her repaired painting in his
other
hand, you could hardly tell it was torn at all.
What if she didn’t wish to see him? What if she got mad
that he came to see her after that horrible display at dinner?
Oh
how he wanted to talk to her, he wanted to hug her and tell her
that
she wasn’t a failure to him. But she barely knew him, and vice
versa. She would never be open to such affections from him,
would she?
*Knock knock knock*
A gentle rapping at her door startled her from her light
sleep.
“Who is it?” she called sleepily, she did not want to get up
to answer the door. She wanted to stay in bed forever and let
the
world swallow her whole.
“It’s Endymion, can I talk to you?” joy suddenly overtook
the despair. Her heart longed for his touch, but he belonged to
Raina, just as the crown and all of mother’s affections did.
“Of course.” she walked to the door and calmly pulled it
open. There he stood, looking ashamed enough for the both of
them. She said nothing, waiting for him to speak first. The
silence
was comfortable and painful at the same time, neither of them
knew just what to say.
“Can I talk to you inside your room perhaps?” he inquired
quietly.
“Oh, right. Come in, come in.” she led him to a pair of
chairs situated in the corner and they sat down.
“I fixed your painting, just like I said I would.” he handed
her the canvas and her eyes filled with tears.
“Don’t give that to me, please. I only want to tear it up like
I did before. You keep it, since you like it so much.” he only
nodded and took the painting back from her hands. He stared at
it
harder than he did before and realized something.
“You know what I see when I look at this painting
Serenity?” she turned to look at him, her eyes probed his. She
leaned closer to him, hoping maybe to see what he saw. Her own
miserable flaws stood out even more than before.
“I know what I see, a horrible painting, the colors are
wrong, the shape is off. There are too many clouds floating on
the
surface, you can’t see the land below them.” she ticked off a
few
things but stopped when Endymion started to shake his head. She
crossed her arms across her chest, “Enlighten me Endymion. What
do you see that I can not?”
“I see a beautiful piece of art that I will hang up as soon as
I get home. You know what else I see Serenity? I see you. In
every brush stroke you are there, I can see your happiness, your
personality is etched in every color. You pour yourself into
your
work, every painting is a piece of you. A little piece of your
feelings at that moment in time. That’s why I will treasure
this
always, because every time I look at it I will think of you
Serenity.”
“You barely know me, you are engaged to my sister.” she
whispered.
“We can still be friends, can’t we?” he grabbed for her
hand but she pulled away. If he touched her now she would lose
it.
Everything inside of her would crumble into a million pieces.
“No Endymion we can not, every time I look at you...” she
trailed off helplessly, “You are the nicest man I have ever met.
You treat me like a person, you have no idea how much that means
to me, but I can’t. I can’t put myself through this, I would
rather
you hate me like everyone else, then it would not make this so
hard.” she couldn’t even look him in the eye any longer. She
turned away from him and prayed that he wouldn’t question what
she had just told him.
His heart broke, he had hoped that at least they could be
friends. That would ease the pain of never being able to touch
her
soft skin, or kiss her sweet lips. “Good night Serenity, thank
you
for the painting.” he stood up to leave, maintaining his
composure
with all of his strength.
“Wait!” his eyes went wide with her touch and it sent his
senses reeling. When did any girl get such a power over him?
Serenity wasn’t a normal girl though, she was perfect, an angel.
An angel that would never be his.
“Yes Serenity?” his voice shook with apprehension. She
was so close, he could smell the soft scent of her lilac
perfume.
“Thank you for caring Endymion.” she should have just let
him leave, things were about to get out of control. The
painting
fell from his hand and landed softly on the carpet. He ran his
hand
through her silver hair and she let out a soft sigh. His lips
neared
hers and she closed her eyes. She wanted to be kissed, she
wanted
the feeling of Endymion’s lips upon her own.
Suddenly he knew the reason why Serenity had wanted to
push him away. They couldn’t resist one another, there was just
something between them. He stopped mere centimeters from her
lips and pulled away.
“I can not do it Serenity, your sister...” he stopped talking
as she started to nod.
“I know, this is not fair to her.” she looked down at her feet
and he planted a soft kiss on her forehead.
“I should go before this gets out of hand even more than it
already has.” she nodded again, she couldn’t find the words to
make him stay. His hands pulled gently away from her shoulders,
leaving a cold nothingness surrounding her.
“Endymion, I did not mean what I said earlier. I was
thinking too hard about everything. I do want to be your
friend, if
you still want me to be.”
He smiled at her, “Of course Serenity. I will talk to you
tomorrow, perhaps we can do something together?” he picked up
the forgotten painting and cluched it tightly in his hands.
“I would like that very much.” she walked him to the
chamber door and slowly shut the door behind him when he left.
“I love you Endymion.”
Raina stood completely still behind the plant, watching
Endymion leave Serenity’s room with a painting in his hand. His
eyes lingered slightly on the door before he walked to his own
bedroom. Her blood boiled in her veins, that little snipe was
trying to steal her man. Well she would inform mother, someone
must put a stop to this treachery.
~ To be continued... ~
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