My life runs away
And slips through my hands
I fade paler day by day
My life is not my own
I can make no plans
Now that my heart
Has been filled
I see nothing here for me
Is it so wrong to say
I'm afraid?
Others push me, you pull
But I stand still
My own fears blinding me
Why can't I find
Happiness in my heart
I do want to enjoy
The path in front of me
But my happiness makes me afraid
That it will be taken away
Find my heart lets me slip through
Sometimes I just want to cry
Curl up in a ball, and maybe die
Doubt will always hide
In the back of my mind
Will it last?
Whispers in my ears
Telling me to go forward
My vulnerability
Always showing
And scared away
My heart yearns for bright sun
I have found no light
All for me is dark
And no on is here
No one will guide me
I feel myself shouting
At the top of my lungs
No one notices
I feel like I'm trapped
Caught in a nightmare
The world fades from view
My heart shrinks from pain
That I know I have lost control
And will never regain
My life
Yet now no one guides me
I can't find my way
They desert me
Now that I wish they were here
I'm deserted, alone, against my deepest fears