My limbs feel numb

I am moving through an underwater dream

Where nothing is as it seems

And all I can see
Is your little face

Would you look like me?
Think like me?
Act like me?
Would you learn from me?
My accomplishments, my mistakes?
Come to me with your problems
Keep me up at night

Tall & thin, short and round
Beauty queen tomboy
Daddy's little girl?

I think I would have named you Lilly
A soft feminine name for a strong young woman
I would have been proud

Instead there's this vacancy in my heart
Where endless questions reside
Was it my fault?
Did I hurt you?
What if?
What if?
What if?
You were just not meant for me?

~empressrouge 3/01
Drowning
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