Our Littlest Angel - Zachary Bryan Baker



March 27,1999

Zachary "God hath remembered"

Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. Job 1:21

Fear thou not; For I am with the: Be not dismayed; For I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; Yea, I will help thee. Isaiah 41:10

Your short life was one which brought our greatest joys and fears...Never again will our lives be the same without you...You took but one thing when you had to depart...And that dear son was our hearts.....

My story is not a unique one...around the world there are women who loose thier children almost daily...It is one of the most heartbreaking expierences that I have ever had to endure. My thoughts and prayers go out to each and every family who has ever know the pain caused by the death of a child...This page is more than just a dedication to my son...I would like to dedicate this page to all the playmates that my son has in heaven..
Now before I go any further let me tell you about Zach's short life...You see Zach never had the chance to live in this world...My pregnancy for the most part was uneventful. Keith and I were extatic to be pregnant again after a miscarraig only 2 months earlier. Of course I was sick for the first 4 months. Then just when I felt really good. I had to take my son Dustin for a bone scan. The doctor thought he had cancer in his leg bones. Luckily the pain he was having turned out to be only growing pains. So as soon as we were able to get our lives back to normal then my OB/GYN called and told me that they thought Zach had spina bifida and wanted us to go to the nearest high risk pregnancy center and have a high resolution ultra sound. The ultrasound showed that Zachary was a health baby boy. In my third trimester his movements began to slow so I was put on a kick count. If he didn't move 10 times in 2 hours I was to call the doctor. We went for several non stress test all the while being ashured that our son was fine...just a little cramped. The angels took him to heaven 5 weeks before he was due to be born..I remember that day like it was yesterday...It was rainy and sad...I was getting ready to go to my grandmother's funeral at which I was supposed to sing. When I felt a gush of fluid. I automaticlly assumed that my water had broken. But when I stood up there was blood everywhere. We rushed to the hospital only to find out that our son had died due to a complete placental abruption. Zachary was born three hours later at 3:58Pm on the 27 day of March 1999. We buried him beside my grandmother.
There are some days when the feelings of loss overwhelm me. Sometimes I don't know how to cope. But through it all God and my family have stood by me and held me up when I couldn't stand alone. I know that Jesus has a rocking chair in heaven and is rocking my precious Zach until I can get there and do it myself....My son truly has the best parent a child could ever want.

I love you my little angel.....I am eagerly awaiting our reunion in heaven....I know your face will be the first one that I see....be patient little Zach....Mommy will be there soon.....I love you.....

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am the gentle summer rain;
I am the sunlight on the ripened grain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet geese in circled flight.
I am the bright star that shines at night.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints on snow.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there I did not die.

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