I feel lonely
as you take off without me.
in the beginning of this
very competitive race,
we were neck-and-neck.
but the instant I pause
and turn around,
you’re gone. oh, I can see you
but it’s not the same.
you’re not the same.
not the person I knew.
will you be waiting at the finish line
when I drag myself there?
my feet feel heavy when I try to catch up,
as does my heart.
I can no longer hold onto you
you won’t let me.
oh, please let me!
I chide myself for thinking this,
but I want you to fall.
trip, and fall flat on the ground,
and watch the other runners leave
except me.
I will carry you when no one else will.
but deep in my heart I know
that won’t happen.
you’re too far now
I can’t catch you.
how I wish I could...
but if I can’t be happy,
I want you to be.