| July 21, 2001 Why do fools fall in love? Hmmm, ok I decided. It was all going to be about me. No more boys. Dating ok. But no boyfriends. So why are they still causing problems?! People say you should take chances. Well how do you know when and when not to (cause if I'm going to take a chance it's not going to be a stupid one)? <sigh> So much pressure. I believed that everyone should get a chance. Everyone deserves a chance right? But it's easy to give them a chance when their chance is slim. Now, I have someone who has a good chance. What am I going to do? I can't can I? After all this hard work? You remind of a girl (ergh this case boy neh?) That I once knew See her face whenever (his) I, I look at you You won't believe all of The things she put me through (he) This is why I just Can't get with you That among other things. . . . . . . So much hardwork. Would it go to waste? Will I become inefficient? Weak like Akari? Stupid. Ok, I'll admit how good it could be. Ok, I'll smile at the thought. Ok, I'll even dream of you But, no, can I have you? I feel pressure. From parents Don't do it From friends You know you like him From myself I say self, how do you know? but no pressure from him hi. he smiles i am elated this is so retarded!!!! What if I hurt him What if he hurts me wait, why am i thinking of this? I don't even need to start something What if I start something I can't finish? What if he turns out to be like . . . . .. Edward says that if you love someone you are willing to overlook their flaws and just try to understand them Will I love him? Can I love him? Do I know? No, you never know. No one is helping either Can't really talk to anyone about it Try Nope tried Where is the one? Salaam? No sound Lost Where is the voice? It's talking to itself it's talking to You but You can't hear it This is so screwed up. Who even says it will be? Maybe you will be the one who won't take the chance. Then again what if you do? What do I do? What do I do now? Just wait and see I guess. |
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