| August 16, 2001 I really hate boys. As of now I hate 7 specific ones. Mental Toughness. . . . . . That's what it's all about right? They can't break you. You have to break them. And if you give just a little They're all over it. And it's over. "One word we never could learn Good-bye " I see how it is now. Why do people make things so hard? Why are we constantly hurting each other? I forget what movie it was but something about in the far future they can tell you your whole life just by looking at your DNA. What your job will be, How you'll look, and Who you're going to marry. Is that so bad? I mean if you already had the perfect match pre-set when you're born then you don't hurt anyone. Then again, you won't have these expieriences to help you to learn what is right and wrong. But if it is true love because the one you marry is your true love then wouldn't you learn as you go along? Wouldn't everything just be perfect? I think people now days obcess over finding "THE ONE". Why can't they just live and let live? "Let the music flow". And when they do get into a relationship they always say the 3 words too quickly (I love you). Why is that? Why the hell do people move too fast? Why can't they just enjoy what's there? What's the rush? Why the hell are these 7 guy bothering me?!!!!! Can I just kill them all and be done with it? "I'm going crazy crazy crazy just thinking about you lately" I wonder if music has a lot to do with it. I wonder if i just promotes feelings that people don't have that they wish they did so they think they do and do something too soon. "I'm sorry didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it I guess weak couldn't even hide it And so I surrender just to hear your voice <just to hear your voice> I know how many times I said I'm gonna live without you And maybe there's someone else standing there beside you But there is something baby that you need to know That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying I have to see you It's all that I'm asking. Baby, give me back my fantasy The courage that I need to live The air that I breathe Living without you My world has become so empty My days are so cold and lonely Each night taste The Purest Of Pain" Pretty lyrics But they are irrelevent to my life. So why put it up? Pain. How do you say goodbye? "Another turning point a fork stuck in the road Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go So make the best of this test and don't ask why It's not a question but a lesson learned in time It's something unpredictable but in the end there's right I hope you had the time of your life." For what it's worth it was worth all the while Why can't things end when they are supposed to? Then again, do you always want to? Sometimes Moderation. |
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