March 9, 2002 2:56AM: It's been a while since I've done my last entry. Lots of things have gone on. I'm in an Ethnic Studies documentary class where we're doing our project on "Racialization through Comedy". We've been checking out various stand up shows. We'll have a screening of our videos at the end of the semester. I'll try to post that somewhere soon.
I'm also directing a few scenes for the Pilipino Cultural Night show which will be occuring on April 19. I'm pretty excited about the show. Rehearsals are going very well so far.
Two days ago I almost got hit by a car while I was walking. I was legally crossing the street on a cross walk, when this stupid as girl speeds up around a corner. Who the hell speeds up on a corner. Effin whore. I yelled and cursed at her. Motherf*ckin b*tch @ss. Don't know how to drive. I felt like running to her window and knocking yelling at her. I should have thrown my helmet at her windshield. She really made me angry. If I had a good enough look at her face, I would walk up to her and insert a sharp object in her back. Violent aren't I. Heed to you people: Don't get me mad!
I'm tutoring for O.A.S.E.S. on Mondays. My kid is fun. He's quite hyper. Last Monday he threw up chunks of hot dog. So I wasn't able to tutor him that day. Some of those kids can be mean. The nerd kids are mean and stingy with their work. Not really willing to help their fellow students. Well that's enough talk. Hopefully I'll write another entry soon.
December 3, 2002 12:39AM: I don't want to write too much but I figured I'd write something new. There seems to be an increase in the people who visit this site. Great!
Well good things have happened over the past few week. Thanksgiving was fun. My sister had a birthday last Saturday and we were going to go see Harry Potter but the car kept breaking down, 3 times. The third time was after we got it fixed at Pep Boys. I don't trust auto mechanics. $260 for an alternator? I'm not too sure about that. Then they asked for another $250 for a water pump. It seemed a little suspicious to me. We didn't take it. They said we could get home with the work they did but we got stuck in the dark 5 miles from home. Liars!! I guess we'll see you another time Harry Potter.
Ma gave us 4 buckets worth of Almond Roca's. mmmm...Almonds
Happiness and confidence levels are 97% and 95% respectively.
November 26, 2002 11:30 PM: In an earlier entry it said that I would definitely stay in Theatre Rice. However, since then, we've had elections and a lot of decisions made that have a major effect on the status of Theatre Rice. I disagree with a lot of these decisions and am at the point of hating the group, not disliking but HATING. Strong words huh? But that's just how I feel. For the record, I am ABSOLUTELY NOT RETURNING to Theatre Rice as an active member for the Spring 2003 semester. Your loss Theatre Rice.
First I don't trust or have strong confidence of the new committee members. You can tell from the ballot already who's going to be on the committee. I just don't have confidence in their skills. I'm mainly speaking of those in the quadumvirate positions (ie the top four governing bodies of producer, assistant producer, comedy troupe director, and course coordinator). I’m feel so strongly about this that if the course coordinator asks for my help, I will be unwilling to contribute to any of the notes I’ve prepared. I know that may sound mean but I don’t want to support that which I oppose or disagree with. I will however give some suggestive books and readings so I won’t be a total jerk.
Second I think that Theatre Rice is lacking in the Theatre aspect and that the leadership now is composed of no one who has had theatre experience other than Theatre Rice. I feel that this can pose serious problems for this group. Do people in Theatre Rice actually want to pursue a career in theatre or are they all just there to have fun. It's okay to want to have fun but people need to be able to contribute to the group and it's purpose of promoting Asian American theatre. Performing just in 155 Dwinelle for three nights is just a small step but we really need people who actively want to pursue this career. If not theatre possibly other performing arts or films. I find this is lacking in our current group.
I just hope that what I've helped to build as the current Theatre Rice doesn't get ruined. I know I may sound self centered but I had a huge hand in making Theatre Rice what it presently is. Compare my last semester as Producer (Spring 2002) to the first semester I joined Theatre Rice (Fall 1999). There have been some dramatic changes in not only the content and shows we put up but the audience has increased in numbers and we contribute money to a charity. I don't know if that was my idea or not but I think it was. I just don't want all of that to go to waste.
My prediction is that with the way I see Theatre Rice is going, it will lose cohesiveness and will be dissolved in the next few semesters. I hear Jimmy won't study abroad next school year so there won't be an old Producer to help guide the new one in the Fall of 2003. The new Producer won't be able to ask Jimmy, "Can you give me a hand with this job?" That's too bad. I wouldn't want Theatre Rice to go down but that's where I see it going.
For those interested in what I will be doing with all the free time I have next semester, I will try to focus on making films. These films will be short 3-5 minute films. Some will be 10 minute films. I may possibly recruit Ricers new and old for roles. I am currently in the works of writing a sequel to Dwinelle Hall Legend. It’s tentative title is Dwinelle Hall Legend Revisited. I also plan on taking some documentary film classes and will be planning the rest of my career. Wish me luck and I will wish you good luck Theatre Rice. Thanks for reading and share me your thoughts at briancorpuz@aol.com if you want.
November 10, 2002: The Theatre Rice show just finished up. It went very well. The audience was never packed like the previous other shows but it's okay. You could blame the three day weekend or the weather or possibly the lacking interest in the group. There's been talk of possibly charging for the shows. Since these shows are free and we aren't packing the house, I'm sure attendance will decrease but who cares, more money for Rice. The only people who will be paying for the show are the ones who are interested and want to support Theatre Rice and those are the people we want at our shows, not the jerks.
A lot of people were taking pictures at the end of the show. I hate it when people take these big group pictures and they say, "Hey Brian, can you take a picture?" It's like "Hey, I want to have all these people in the picture with me and not you so you take the picture." You may not see it that way but I do. I've taken quite a few of people's group pictures and I don't really get in any. That just makes me sad. I say to those people FUCK YOU 'cause I hardly get in any pictures cause I'm always doing behind the scenes stuff or cleaning up.
I've been thinking about leaving Theatre Rice next semester or staying and I made the decision to STAY. I guess that once I leave Berkeley, I wouldn't be able to be involved in such a group like Theatre Rice or do projects we are able to do. So I might as well spend the time I have now with the one and only student group that I got involved with the beginning of my Freshman year. As a side note, it kind of sucks that I wasn't able to be involved in other groups because I joined Theatre Rice. I know that many other members in the group throughout the years were able to be in other groups and in Theatre Rice but I just wasn't able to do it. I would have liked to do some volunteer work or other things that benefit the community but I just haven't had the time since my work day usually consisted of school and work. Well I guess I have participated in Berkeley's Pilipino Cultural Nights as an additional activity but it would have been nice to venture of campus to do some volunteering.
Don't you hate when you realize you hurt someone's feelings and didn't realize you did? I do. Earler today I called a friend of mine to say "What's up?" and I later found out I made him upset and this started a few weeks ago and he was still a little upset. I haven't seen him for a while because I've been really busy but I found out the he was upset because of me. I was working on a video project and I was getting help from him. He let me use his computer and camera. Along the way of the project, the camera wasn't able to function anymore. I told him the problem and we were able to finish the project but the camera was still messed up. I really couldn't do anything about the camera because I didn't know what was wrong. So I guess it's been a few weeks since the project and he tells me that he was a little upset that I didn't really show concern for the camera, when I was the one it was with when it started malfunctioning.
In addition to the camera malfunctioning, my friend tells me that I've been a little mean and offensive in my conversations with him. It may have been in a joking manner but he still took offense. I feel really bad about the whole situation. I would in no way try to offend anyone purposefully. If anyone feels that I'm being to offensive, please tell me. I really don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I do realize that the things I say can be OFFENSIVE and I don't realize that they are. So Luis I'm sorry.
I know this entry may have been long but I appreciate your reading it.
October 30, 2002: We just finished our group presentation for Asian Am. It went great. I spent quite a while editing the video for class but it was well worth it. Thanks to those who helped although I doubt you'd be reading this.
The Theatre Rice show is coming up soon. I'm excited. I'm going to be in the Comedy Troupe. This will be number 8 for me. I tell ya, I do love the comedy, it's so fun. Yay for those skits I suggested and were able to be put up. I've got some pretty good characters for that show. I like all the people we're working with. We're having so much fun. Come and check out the show if you're interested. Happiness and confidence levels are 89% and 85% respectively.
October 16, 2002: So it's been a few days since my last input into this little page. As of then, I'm a little happier now. A few things that have contributed to my happiness have been that Theatre Rice party on Saturday. Hanging out with people is fun. The way I was acting seemed like I was drunk but I don't drink. I guess I was acting all cynical but I didn't care. I had fun. We were at Sara's place until around 5am! Sara was already sleeping by then. j/k.
Then on Sunday I met with my group for a Presentation in my Asian Am class. I like my group. We've been meeting so often that we're becoming really good friends. We had a potluck at our last meeting. Group presentations don't usually have this effect. Some of us will be interviewing Rhoda Gravador of the 18 Mighty Mountain Warriors this Saturday which should be fun.
I'm going to be in the next Comedy Troupe for Theatre Rice. YAY! I guess I'll be appearing on stage this semester. I was a little afraid I wouldn't get into the Comedy Troupe.
Some bad news: My lymph nodes are all swollen. Maybe I'm going to get sick sometime soon. I hope not.
Thanks to the people who read this. To those who don't know, sometimes I have low self-esteem. That why I sometimes talk like I'm trying to increase my ego. I don't think I'm important so I try to reinforce my importance by sounding all egotistical. That is all.
October 11, 2002: Here's a new thoughts page. I just put this new page up because for some reason, I feel a little sad and uncaring about people right now, except for my immediate family. I don't know why. For some reason I feel that people don't care about me and when these episodes (yes these episodes have occurred before) happen, I tend to be in a depressed type of mode.I start evaluating my life and putting things into perspective. I don't know if I'm content with how my life is going right now. So if you're reading this, it probably means you care and I appreciate that even though I don't know who you are.
In other news, my camera broke so I don't know how many new pictures I would be putting up on this site.