MAY 6, 2006 (4:12PM)
Last night, me, Shahram, Joe and Thomas were walking back from the gym when we passed by two completely wasted girls. One of them was sitting on a bench next to the rose garden puking all over the grass, and the other one was staggering about. She told us in a very disoriented voice that she was ok, she and her friend were just really drunk, they'll sit until they feel better and go home. Now it's like around 11pm at night in the middle of campus, so we ask them where they lived and if we could help them home. The "less" drunk girl said something about Mustang Village, which was right next to where we lived, but then actually they were just at a party there and were trying to make it back to the dorms, but they wanted to go to this frat party first (as if they couldn't get any more drunk). She keeps insisting that they're ok but of course, we weren't very convinced. Finally we just leave them alone and kept walking for a little bit. But then I felt really bad, like we really needed to do something to help. Shahram agreed so me and Shahram go back and see if we can help them. While I was going back with Shahram I just had a little silent prayer that God will look out for me.
When we got back to the rose garden the first girl was still puking all over the grass and the other girl was lying down on the ground trying to find her flip-flops but saying in slurred speech, "wheeeere the F*CK is my phonnnne?" So me and Shahram help her up and to the bench next to her friend, who's not puking anymore and just passed out. We ask her if there's a sober friend of hers we can call to come and pick her up. She rambles something about "noobody sober, everyone's f*cking druuuunk babyy" but later she says her friend "Chelsea Big Momma" can come and pick her and her friend up. So Shahram takes her phone and finds Chelsea's number (it actually says "Chelsea Big Momma" on her phonebook) and calls her. Her friend is sober so we tell her where her two friends are and she tells us she's coming to pick them up. Me and Shahram decide to wait with the two girls since it's almost midnight and it's kinda unsafe for them to be just out here alone and drunk. The less drunk girl claims to be sober enough to "f*cking punch the lights out of whoever tries to rape them", but me and Shahram stay anyway. Then she was all like "thank yoou Sean (she couldn't really pronounce Shahram's name when she asked us our names), yoooure like soo nice, I looove you" and she tries to 'thank' Shahram while Shahram's trying to push her away becuase she smelled really badly of alcohol and vomit. She laid down on the bench and later passed out too.
After waiting for about 20 minutes her friend Chelsea and another sober friend, and two semi-drunk friends come to pick the two girls up. Chelsea thanks us profusely for being "the nicest guys ever for doing this" and asks us for our numbers so that she can buy us "the biggest keg of beer" ever. We kindly decline and say we just didn't want the two girls to get in trouble. We head back to Stenner and we were still a little worried, but at least the girls had some sober friends to take care of them now.

College life...

APRIL 26, 2006 (10:55PM)
I will wait.
Spiritual lesson in progress. I'll share more later.

APRIL 25, 2006 (7:13PM)
Feeling lost...
No internships. No idea what will happen this summer. No idea if I should take summer school. No idea if I should go for a masters. No idea what I want to do with my career...

Should I still join the Army ROTC? They have a two year program still. I just hafta pass a physical exam, and then go into training camp for 5 weeks in June... meaning I might miss the SC. But then they pay for the rest of my university education, I get benefits, I get in shape, and also a guaranteed career as an officer in either the Army or National Guard for two years after I graduate. Stationed wherever I want. Looks good on my resume for future jobs. It'll help financially since Caleb's starting Cal Poly and none of us have scholarships. But the Army is a pretty large committment...

I just don't know right now. Maybe I'm just not thinking right because everything seems so uncertain...

APRIL 3, 2006 (7:39PM)
RAIN. 
Homework. 

Depressed. 

APRIL 1, 2006 (3:44PM)
Happy belated to Ruth!  (3/25)

Spring Break was good. I ate a lot. 

Here's my Spring Schedule. A pretty light load this quarter.

Thanks to the bros and sis that asked how I was doing. I can't really think of anything to say right now, but you guys mean a LOT to me. 

MARCH 12, 2006 (2:28PM)
Happy 21st birthday Hannah biu-jie!  (3/11)

MARCH 11, 2006 (8:40PM)
Happy 22nd wedding anniversary, Mom and Dad! (3/10)

You know when you have some homework you hafta do? and then you just end up procrastinating on it, and during the whole time that you're procrastinating you're really stressed out cuz you have that assignment hanging over your head, but then you don't want to do it Then finally at almost the last minute you finally get down and work on it and you finish it faster than you thought you would take becuase the homework actually turned out to be easy. Then you feel really stupid that you stressed out so much in the first place, and perhaps maybe if you had just done the homework in the first place without procrastinating you would have finished it quickly and relaxed without losing any brain cells.
Welcome to finals week, Enoch. 

MARCH 9, 2006 (2:16PM)
Happy 19th birthday to Becky! (3/9) 

FEBRUARY 28, 2006 (9:53PM)
Haapy 20th Birthdays to Heman and Robert! Happy 8th(?) birthday to my cousin Paxton! (2/27) 

Been feeling kinda overwhelmed the past week or so. I can't believe it's actually two more weeks until finals week!  It's like I all but just finished midterms last week! Not really results to be proud of either.
IME 301 Operations Research: B
IME 314 Engineering Economics: B
PHIL 231 Philosophical Classics: B- (That multiple-choice was harder than I thought )
STAT 312 Statistical Methods for Engineers: D (the final became just THAT much more important now...)

Feeling kinda... mix of unsatisfied/regretful/bored right now. There's a ton of things I want to do, a ton of things I need to do, and a ton of things I wish I did better in the past. A ton of people I want to talk to, and vise versa too. It's gonna take a while to sort out. Until I do... expect few journal entries . If you really wanna know.... just ask me how i'm doin sometime. If I'm in the mood...

CONGRATS CALEB!!!!!

FEBRUARY 13, 2006 (7:54PM)
Happy Birthday to Andrea! (2/13) 

We lost 53-60 yesterday.

I have 3 midterms in two days this week. I can't wait to go home...

Feeling... frustrated for some reason. Like, locked up. Helpless. I want to vent on something...
I sound so emo...

I miss you guys.

I wanna play tennis.

FEBRUARY 8, 2006 (2:19PM)
Happy Belated to Joycie and Joelie (2/3) 
Happy Birthday to Josh and Dan Wai! (2/8) 

I'm sick again.... I can't wait to go home next Thursday. That's right people!  I'm going home next Thursday, from Feb 16-20. Make plans! ... provided I'm healthy.

FEBRUARY 2, 2006 (6:01PM)
We lost in our intramural b-ball game last week, 37-54. Got into foul trouble and didn't get the calls our way. Still, it sucks losing to only a 6-man roster .

So it's official: I won't have an internship this summer. I'm beginning to resign to the fact that God probably does not want me to have this internship. I'm trying to accept God's will for me in my heart but I can't help but be a little disappointed . It's just that this year I've really wanted to get some kind of internship or job, so that I can begin to take steps to support myself...  I dunno now. Sometimes I just feel like I'm totally inadequate to do or make anything of myself. But I got a very encouraging email this week:
"Remember to always guard your heart, let not the weight of past failures bring you down. Put into practice what you know is good and worthwhile. You are not fighting this battle alone."
You know who you are. Thanks. 

I have a sore throat again. Bleh. For a week pretty light on work, I sure am tired .
I wanna go home.

JANUARY 22, 2006 (10:35PM)
We had our first intramural basketball game today. Won in OT, 45-42. Our buddy Devin with the 3-pointer at the buzzer to send it to OT!. My stats: 0 points, 0 rebounds, maybe 1 steal. Haha. Still glad we won though.

On Friday night at dinner a certain friend of ours was making comments on the accuracy of the Bible again. He's an ardent athiest, and whenever we eat together he likes to go rambling on how much he hates Christians, doesn't believe in God, and brags about how he supposedly knows more about the Christian and Catholic religion than believers do. He does have a habit of thinking he knows everything, so nobody really likes to get into a debate with him. Anyway it was just really discouraging.  I just didnt say anything and kinda left the table shortly afterward. It's so frustrating sometimes. But I think God is also telling me how important it is for each and every one of us believers to know His Word better. I mean, the point is not us trying to win arguments with people. But knowledge of God's Word helps us to know God better, defend our faith better, and live a more pure witness in our lives. Maybe so many people, like this guy, think that Christians are hypocrites becuase we claim to belong to God, yet don't even personally know Him that well. I think there's still so much I need to know about Jesus. If someone is your best friend, wouldn't you know all about them? Wouldn't you not only need to know that person well, but want to know that person well? Lord, give me that longing to know you better... 

JANUARY 16, 2006 (10:44AM)
So yesterday evening me and Devin were watching the Austrailian Open on tv, and then these four seriously, stone drunk girls dressed in their pajamas and reeking of alchohol come stumbling into our suite. Apparently they were looking for Kyle (Lu's roomate), but he had gone home for the weekend. (You could so tell they were Kyle's friends). So we told them Kyle was not here, and I guess they were a little confused , so they went into Lu's room and looked for Kyle. Of course he wasnt there, so they just started staggering around in our suite, introducing themselves in really slurred speech, making wierd noices and saying stuff like "you're cute" and squealing me, Devin, Lu and Alex's names in really high pitched noises. I guess they eventually got the cue to leave, and so they staggered out, blowing kisses and squealing "I love you!" on their way out. They started dancing outside our window for a while after before we closed the blinds and they got bored an left.
...  Drunk girls are possibly the most disgusting females I've ever met in my life...

To end on a more positive note, I finally found the quote I was thinking of in WC!

JANUARY 15, 2006 (9:37PM)
HAPPY BIRTHDAYS!
Uncle Amos! (1/4)
Kitty! (1/5)
Ivan! (1/13)
Ying! (Today!)

JANUARY 4, 2006 (3:23PM)
A winter of hymns:

"Just as I am, though tossed about
With many a conflict, many a doubt;
Fightings within, and fears without,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come!"

"Fresh as the dew of the morning, Bringing a sweet rest unheard,
Christ, in the gentle anointing, Whispers His comforting word;
Stand till the trial is over, Stand till the tempest is gone,
Stand for the glory of Jesus, Stand till the kingdom is won.

Lord of all hope, O how sweet is Thy voice!
Making my heart in Thy presence rejoice!"

"Thou remainest, Thou remainest,
Thou remainest Christ my all;
Peace of conflict, joy or sorrow,
Thou remainest Christ my all!"

"Take up the borken threads of life,
Thy God can weave the strands again;
He will not cast His work aside,
Nor suffer thee to live in vain.

Take up the borken threads of life,
Let God restore the wasted years;
Begin this day to live anew,
And bid farewell to all thy fears!"

"Thanks for pray'rs that Thou hast answered,
Thanks for what Thou dost deny!
Thanks for storms that I have weathered,
Thanks for all Thou dost supply!
Thanks for pain and thanks for pleasure,
Thanks for comfort in despair!
Thanks for grace that none can measure,
Thanks for love beyond compare!"

NOVEMBER 21, 2005 (12:21AM)
-My interview went well, I think. I'm not sure if I have enough experience or classes to be accepted though. Others prolly have waaay better resumes than me... but I guess we'll see what happens.  They let me know in January.
-Harry Potter 4 is out, and I wanted to watch it OH SO BAD . I'm still trying to resist it. It's really astounding how obsessed I really am with movies. It's so crazy. It's so hard...
-I can't wait to go home.  I really feel restless over here... I miss home, miss my parents, miss my friends. But I'm not really showing it. It's as if third years aren't supposed to be as homesick as the second and first years...
-2 more days until Thanksgiving! 2 more weeks until finals... 3 more weeks until winter break 
-Yes, I know what time it is. 

NOVEMBER 11, 2005 (12:08PM)
-Finally updating...
-My best midterm results in Cal Poly EVER! 
EE 201 (Electric Circuit Theory) : A-
IME 239 (Industrial Costs & Controls) : B
IME 144 (Design and Manufacturing) : C
BIO 213 (LIfe Sci for Engineers) : A
ENGL 253 (Romanticism to Modern Lit) : A
- Big news: I have an interview for a summer internship from The Boeing Company  next Wednesday!!! Feeling kinda nervous... pray for me please!

OCTOBER 23, 2005 (8:50PM)
-Away from the mire, and away from the clay, God leads his dear children along,
Away up in heaven, eternity's day, God leads his dear children along.
Some thru' the waters, some thru' the flood,
Some thru' the fire, but all through the blood,
Some thru' great sorrow, but God gives a song,
in the night season, and all the day long...

Farewell, Auntie Karen Tse...

OCTOBER 10, 2005 (10:00AM)
-Happy 19th birthday, Gracious!!! 
-Happy Columbus Day (Canadian Thanksgiving) to everyone else!

OCTOBER 9, 2005 (3:49PM)
-Feeling: Stagnant 
-I really haven't felt like updating my journal recently. Actually, I really haven't felt like doing anything at all. The first three weeks have been ok, but hard to focus. I dunno what's gotten into me right now, I don't feel motivated at all. I can blame everything from worldly distraction to an easier-than-expected 18 units, but in the end it's just me.
-I have two midterms on Tuesday. If I don't wake up and get back in shape soon, things will get bad.
-Pray for Auntie Karen and her family!

OCTOBER 1, 2005 (5:46PM)
-Happy Birthday to our older sister, Mrs. Amy Liu!  (10/1)

SEPTEMBER 25, 2005 (7:54PM)
- Fall SCHEDULE

SEPTEMBER 18, 2005 (1:04PM)
-A new school year, a new journal. I'm not entirely sure what to write here... I think it's a combination of me not having written a journal in so long, and also what I experienced this summer is too much to really put into words. Yeah, I guess you can look in the photo albums, but it's only a glimpse.
-I'm trying to collect myself here. Check back later, everyone.

(10:43PM)
-Dear Lord, I thank you so much for bringing me back here, to have a new school year, and a new beginning. Lord, I pray that this summer's experiences and lessons will not go to waste. I've made many mistakes, and learned so much about how foolish and weak I really am, and how much I am in need of your guiding hand. Lord, I pray that I will have the faith in you to take your hand and be lifted out of the dust once more, and to have trust, to follow you in the journey ahead. Forgive me Lord, for the sins I have commited against you, and against my brothers and sisters, people that I love. Lord, restore them and carry them; do not let them suffer for my mistakes. Remind me always to remember not only myself, but all your children, in different places of the world, but with the same struggles. I thank you again Lord, for watching over us all with love and lasting patience, disciplining us to grow to be more like your precious Son. May your presence be with me and those that I care about, in these upcoming months. In your name I pray...
Amen.