My Poetry

In this part of my site, I would like to share with you my poetry.

Whisper of Death	Between Dreams and Reality
The Boy	Silent, Moonless Night
Anything	Why I Write What I Write
Tell Me You'll Stay	Untitled
Untitled 2	Butterfly Wings
I...	Untitled 3
Untitled 4	Just Like Me...
Love's Past

Whisper of Death by Erin Elisabeth Baker
The velvety darkness encircles me like a morning fog It kisses my cheeks It feels like tiny pins moving across my face, the faint aroma of roses rises to my nose, the sweet flavor of honey is on my lips, a whisper in the darkness draws my attention The voice was soft as the sand on a Hawaiian beach He whispered into the night surrounding the little town of Bigfork The darkness left me I am walking through a field of daisies Their scent makes my nose burn and I say "What the Hell?" the sun rose and created rain The raindrops taste like tears without the pain The black cloud of despair covers me like a quilt I am as sad as a ray of sunshine I walk to the cliff and fly high above the city I suddenly start to drop Tomorrow it will all be different the glowing darkness encircles me once again I have to listen to the whisper to be alone El chico es muerte the rock repeats His whisper "Come with me, Come with me" I follow the whisper to my death
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	The Boy By Erin Elisabeth Baker
	Why must he treat me this way? Ridiculing everything I say. Does he know how much he is causing me to suffer? Having teachers play the buffer? What makes him think I am less than he? When all I'm trying to be is me? How would he like to feel, the pain that for me is so real? One day he'll push me to far and he'll have to deal with the moral scar That day has come, Cutting deep to the bone Staring at the blade I've thrown I hope he regrets what he has done, fearing the tangled web that has been spun As they lower me to the ground He doesn't utter a sound. A single tears rolling down his cheek, feeling sort of shaky and rather weak. He makes his way to the car Trying to forget the scar Thin and Pink His heart beginning to sink I haunt him in his sleep showing him my scar, thin, but deep He'll wake from this horrific dream forever lost in silent screams Afraid to face up to the blame scared he'll never feel the same He'll go insane hearing, feeling, seeing my pain My dirty dead is done but one one has won. For, I am not better than he doing to him, what he has done to me.....
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Anything
By Erin Elisabeth Baker

To get lost in your warm blue eyes,
find safety in your arms,
and feel your kiss upon my lips.
I would give anything...

To feel your love wash over me
like an ocean breeze,
cool and tingly,
I would give anything...

I finally got lost,
and felt your kiss.
But the safety was not to be found

To end the pain
and free myself from your fiery glare
I'll give....anything.

Hiding in the dark and dreary shadows
cutting deep, to the bone
the fear escapes, a vermillion red river...
           I gave my life to be free from you

	Between Dreams and Reality By Erin Elisabeth Baker
	Crouching in the shadows Between dreams and reality Is where you'll find me Hiding from the tears and heartbreak reality holds And yet, I shy away from the butterflies and rainbows of that all to perfect dream world Reality bled into my dream world once.. making me scream as I awoke Then dreams blended with reality... creating you Once again I awoke with screams upon my lips
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Silent, Moonless Night By Erin Elisabeth Baker
His words were gentle, yet hurtful His hand brushed away my tears On a silent, moonless night... He broke my heart My Room was of no comfort pictures of us together covered the walls On a silent, moonless night... I cried myself to sleep Memories flooded my mind he stalked me in my dreams On a silent, moonless night... I gave into despair The blade gimmered in my hand the blood ran down my fingers On a silent, moonless night... I took my life A velvety darkness encircled me On a silent, moonless night...
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	Why I Write What I Write By Erin Elisabeth Baker
	You say, "Can't you write about love or flowers?" How can I when I don't feel it deep within, those feelings and urges, making my head spin Would you rather not I act upon them, hiding behind phony smiles and creating false hopes? Or, would you rather I pour my soul onto the pages of my notebook? To write things of love, I have to know how love feels... But to write about death, and despair are the things I feel. Cutting my wrists or taking to many pills aren't things I would like to do, so instead.. I fill the pages with my fears They always ask, "Why do you feel this way?" The answer no one can know, for it is an answer I can not give. How can I when I don't even know. So leave me be and let me write the things I feel inside.
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Tell Me You'll Stay..
By Erin Elisabeth Baker

Touch my cheek
Kiss my lips
and tell me you love me.

Run your fingers through my hair
Whisper sweet nothings in my ear.
Tell me you'll stay this time

Let me wrap myself in your arms
Keep me safe from myself
from the pain within

Tell me I'm beautiful
and that you care.
Say you want me near.

Tell me lies, make me believe
Just say you'll stay,
that you'll never leave.

Please tell me things will be different
this time around.
Don't drag me in
only to push me away when I start to fall.

Wrap me in your arms,
hold me close, kiss me
and tell me that you'll stay.

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Untitled

By Erin Elisabeth Baker

In the dead of night,

I hear it calling to me.

It's been weeks since I've reached for it,

since I've needed to.

Now, it's calling to me again.

Whispering sweet promises of relief

into the dark shadows of the night

Slowly,

I uncover it from it's hiding place

Bringing it into the light,

I long to get lost in it's cool comfort again.

I told myself I would be stronger than it..

Something whispers "wrong....again"

I watch as the blade sparkles in the light of the full moon.

I steady my hand as I draw it across my wrist.

The ache is exciting,

as I feel the blood, stress, and sadness

free flowing from my skin.

I am lost in the feeling.

The world is getting blurry

as the darkness embraces me,

luring me into its depths.

Lost in this desolate place,

I float away...

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Untitled 2
By Erin Elisabeth Baker

You put me on a shelf,
like a pretty porcelain doll.
Keep me there when new toys come along
cast me aside, push me away.
When your new toy grows old,
tattered and torn,
You take me off the shelf,
blow the dust from my skin.
Very best friends again.
I'm your safety net
ready to catch you if you fall.
You never make sure I'm really there,
just assume.
Like any friend,
you never needed to ask
I was just there.

Not this time hunnie
when you fall
I won't be there to catch you
You're going to hit the ground
As I have so many times.

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	Butterfly Wings By Erin Elisabeth Baker
	My heart is as empty as an abandoned mine shaft My tears fall like rain on a hot summer night The days are endless periods of stopped time My love is as lost as a child on a busy New York street never to be found again My brain is a jar of white noise My life is nothing but a hot whirlpool spiraling to an end The knife is like a hot needle The blood is a dark river My death is like a movie in slow motion My eyes shut quickly like a butterflies wing I look down on my family who are ants scurrying around I look up as I receive my own soft butterfly wings I join my friends and family like an invisible mist With one slight gust I am gone with the wind
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I...
By Erin Elisabeth Baker

I am a person of many contradictions... I want to fall in love, but I am scared to death of it..
I used to dream of having a pink house, but my favorite color is black..
I hate the "in crowd" yet long to be a part of them
I love my family, but long to be away from them
I miss my family when I am away from them for long
I don't study and wonder why I failed the test
I want to kill myself, but I'm too scared too actually do it
I scare people with my poetry, tell them it's not a cry for help....when really it is
I cry myself to sleep most nights, and on the nights I don't...I wonder what made that day any different.
I fall head over heels in love with guys I can never be with
I long to be noticed, praised, complimented...yet I hate when it actually happens
I love to sing, but never do it in front of people
I want to be held, yet I pull away from those who try
I am undecisive, yet I know what I want
I am emotional, yet emotionless
I am not a freak, but I am not normal
I say I don't care, when really I do
I cry when bad things happen to those around me
I don't believe in God, but I pray for things to happen
I dream of a great future, but do nothing to make that dream come true
I fear rejection
I don't trust others easily
I let people walk all over me
I'm just talk most of the time
I have trouble expressing myself
I am a bitch, but people call me a sweetheart
I am nothing special
I'm scared I'll never know what true love is
I love myself, but hate myself at the same time

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Untitled 3

by Erin Elisabeth Baker

(with the help of The Goo Goo Dolls)

And she wonders where these dreams go

'Cause the world got in her way

What's the point in ever trying

Nothing's changing anyway

And angels fall without you there

And I go on as you get colder

And the love you never know

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I somehow doubt

We'll ever be the same

Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And scars are souvenirs you never lose

How could you believe in someone sorry sad like me

I guess that's just the way you are

I thought about you while the radio played

Should have got loaded but for some reason I stayed

I realized I was falling off the face of the world

And there was nothing there to bring us back

I'm looking for a way out now

Peace of mind is all I need

You say you love me, but you don't know

Untitled 4
By Erin Elisabeth Baker
(with the help of Lennon Murphy)

False smiles so no one can see
Everything they hate is every part of me
I just want to live my life
They just want to hear they're right

It's funny how you destroyed the better part of me
There's nothing left so there's nothing anybody can see

Some how I've asked all the wrong questions
Cause you've had none of the answers
That these blinded eyes were looking for in you

And I don't want to be the one you're not thinking of
And I don't want to be anywhere not near you
I'm sorry if I'm a little confused if you're leaving
Did you ever think that was the wrong thing to do?

It's over, we both know, we're both tired of playing the parts
I said goodbye, you said oh well nothing's really lost

	Just Like Me... By Erin Elisabeth Baker You turn your back on everyone I feel your doors slam in my face I'm just like you, my spirit's broken too You're just a screwed up kid who doesn't know who he is fighting the words in his head it only hurts a while, then it's gone again no need to ask yourself where or when you'll find yourself again you're only here awhile, then you're gone again. it's time to put away your pain you want to disappear from here you picked the place, came closer and whispered in my ear.... "Anywhere but here" I found you dead inside your room, barely breathing... your soul screaming

Love's Past by Erin Elisabeth Baker Her eyes are shadowed by love's past Her nights speak of promises unfulfilled Sitting alone in her bedroom she counts the scars Twenty so far, small and light singing songs of pain hidden deep within her hands tremble pulling the blade across her wrist Pictures of him flash in her mind of memories of days spend hand in hand remembering the way his eyes looked into her soul she presses the blade deeper and deeper in the darkness creeps upon her whispering it's sweet promises of escape she wraps herself in it's arms giving in to it's velvety depths a small smile playing across her lips as she takes in her last breath

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