The fact that I'm late to Drusilla's party isn't lost on me. I know I'm late. I want to be late. Everyone in our grade was invited to the end of summer party and I want my summer to end on a late note. I look at my watch and see that it's eight o'clock. I'm officially an hour late. I touch my hair and smooth it down. It's not as blonde as it was last year. I made it darker, like dirty blonde. We turn into Drusilla's neighborhood and I look out the window. I haven't talked to anyone since I left for England over the summer. Haven't responded to any emails, calls, and letters.
We pull up in front of Drusilla's house and it's huge. We have a pretty big house ourselves, but Drusilla's is ginormous or gigantic, whatever. I smile at my dad and tell him that the party ends at 12:00 but I'll call him 'cause I'll probably leave early. And every time I say that I usually end up staying the whole time, if not later. I look at him for a moment before I reflect on the thought that I'm staying at my dad's house tonight. My parents separated over the summer. I don't think I've told them yet how much it broke my heart. Not that I want to. I barely saw it coming either. All I knew was that one-day we're that happy family and the next we weren't. And did I do something? IF I were a better student, would it have helped? The worst part of it all was that I was in England when the whole thing happened. I had to hear it over the phone.
I ring the doorbell and wait as someone comes and answers it. I know almost everyone is there already. People are never late to parties that are thrown, maybe just because we don't have so many, parties. The door opens and I smile at Dru's mother as I walk inside. She tells me to go downstairs and I follow the pathway down where everyone is. When I touch the first step, I already hear the music pounding towards my ears.
Have I mentioned how much I hate rap?
I start going down slowly and when I reach the last step, I take a deep breath. Ready or not, here I come. I laugh to myself and open the tingling things that she put in front of the door. When I get in, there is barely anyone inside, and when I look out the window, I see everyone in the pool.
"Buffy! Hey, wow, you look amazing!" Someone says and I smile nicely at them and say it back but then I start walking towards the pool.
As I walk in the music stops suddenly and someone looks over and points. "Look! Buffy! You're here!"
It was Faith.
I smile at her and I can feel everyone's eyes on me. I hear a lot of "Hi's" and "Buffy!'s". I start taking off my jeans and my shirt. I turn back around to face everyone and they have that look on their faces, like they can't believe it.
I go inside the pool towards were Faith and a few other girls are. Faith hugs me real tight and tells me how much she missed me and I tell her the same, and in this instant I really did. We start splashing around and dunking each other when I feel someone's arms come around me and I look up at Spike and a huge grin forms my face.
"Spike!" But before I could say anything else he pulls me up and throws me in the water. As I am about to go deep inside the water, I see someone looking at me and when I connect my eyes with him, I feel a jolt. "Angel."
But I fall deep inside the water and I come up spitting and cursing Spike's name. "You asshole!" I laugh at him as I start trying to dunk him. But suddenly he stops when Drusilla comes over and makes him come her way. I roll my eyes at the puppy Spike looks like and turn towards Faith who seems to pissed but -- omigod!
"Faith..."
"What?"
"Are you okay?" I ask as we move towards a more secure location where no one can hear us.
"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?"
"'Cause Spike is stupid? And Drusilla is dumb?" I say, amusement in my eyes.
"He can do whatever he wants, I'm just his friend."
"His best friend," I correct.
"Buffy, I don't care. Really," she says as she starts to swim away from this conversation and me. She is so stalling. I roll my eyes at her and start to follow her towards the deeper end of the pool but I change my mind and decide to get out of the water. As I get out, I look over to the hot tube and see Angel. He doesn't see me looking at him and that's good thing because now he can't see the hurt I am feeling with the fact that Darla is literally sitting on his lap rubbing herself on him. She is such a fucking piece shit. Stupid slut.
Guess he wanted to make our break or whatever we were on more permanent. I roll my eyes at them as I climbed the stairs to go inside Drusilla's house. I looked over and ignore the stares that Percy and Larry give me and go over to the food table. For the first time this whole night, I noticed how hungry I was. I started snacking on the chips that are sitting there. For a second I wonder where Willow and Xander were and why they didn't come, or if they were just going to be late.
I was just about to go ask if I could borrow someone's cell phone when I felt someone put a towel over my body and hold onto me tightly. I turn around and was about to yell at the person who did this when I was met with the stare into his eyes.
"What are you doing?!" I snap at him as I start to take the towel off.
Angel holds my arms so I couldn't take it off. "You are walking around with nothing on! Anyone can see you!"
I was so shocked that I really couldn't say anything. For a second. "What right do you have to tell me what to wear?!"
"I'm your boyfriend, of course I have a right."
This time I'm speechless. Like really, I swear my mouth has dropped and I cannot think of anything but WHAT! He takes my hand pulls me towards the bathroom and I'm still in shock and all I can think is what. He shuts the door, I'm standing in the middle of the bathroom in a daze, and all Angel is doing is staring at me. Wasn't he going to say something? He still kept staring at me. Why do I have to say something? Why is my boyfriend the one without the brain. (Expect all those A's he has, and double honor classes he is in. Still!)
"What the hell is going on, Angel? Last I checked we were on a 'break'." Saying break with a mocking tone.
He starts to move towards me and I panic and start to move backwards until I hit the shower curtain and I almost fall into it the bathtub. "That was the summer. Now summer is over, and all I want is you."
I move away from his gaze and move to the other side of the bathroom and stare at him with confusion. What does he want from me? "Darla was sitting on your lap like two seconds ago and now you want only me? Angel make your decision already! I'm not a maid that you can call whenever you want! I'm a human being for godsake, I have feelings to!"
"I know that. I was just saying hi to Darla. I don't want her and you know that."
"And even if you didn't want her, you had the ass you wanted over the summer and now that we are back in school you just want mine back again. Angel sorry to break you bubble but it doesn't work that way. You can't bounce me back and forth like a yo-yo."
He looks at me for a second and he gets this really broody looking thing on his face and he just gets so cute when he has it-- but I'm still mad at him. But he is just so cute looking.
"I didn't hook up with anyone at camp."
Wait. What? "What?"
"I didn't hook up with anyone. I almost did but all I could was think about you."
What? Huh? Omigod, this so is not happing. "Are you kidding?"
"No."
My mouth is hanging open and Angel didn't kiss anyone else! Yah! Before I even have another thought in my head I threw myself against him and started kissing him senseless. I feel him wrap his arms tight around me and for the first time I feel how big and muscular his arms got. I melt into his embrace as he probes my mouth and slowly starts exploring my mouth with his tongue.
We must having been making out for a while because the next thing I hear is someone banging on the door. I look up at Angel and we are both panting heavily from the lack of air and our bodies are so wrapped around each other we look like a knot.
"Whatever you guys are doing, open the goddamn door already!" A familiar voice shuts through the door and I giggle. Spike just loves ruining the moment.
I look up at Angel and bite my lip but still smile and he just smiles down at me before standing up, with me in his arms and opens the lock and walks out of the bathroom, ignoring Spike's comments.
He carries me into a empty bedroom and shuts the door. He lays me on the bed, puts his head on my chest, and started to stroke my stomach. After a second, he looked up at me and I just fell, fell into his gaze. Melted.
"I'm sorry."
I touched his cheek softly. "For what?"
He kissed my stomach before looking back up at me. "For what I said before camp."
"Oh."
"At camp, all I did was think about you. I wrote a million letters, I just never had the guts to send any of them. My friends kept saying how whipped I was, and I just wanted to prove to them that I wasn't. So-"
I put my hand on his lip, he looks up to me, and his eyes are so brown, so gentle. "I don't care."
"Let me- I need to tell you."
I nod my head once and expect the fact that he was about to tell me about how he made out with some random girl at camp. This was going to be so much fun.
"When we were finally alone, me and this girl, and she started to come closer to me, I started to hyperventilate. Like freaking out, I nearly jumped across the room when she touched me."
To say my head snapped up and looked at Angel with shock is a bit of an understatement. My mouth started to blossom into a huge smile and I couldn't help but laugh a little. But the experience really seemed to traumatize him. Still, it was funny to watch.
"It wasn't funny Buffy. Really. She thought I was some weirdo. But all the while all I could think about was you, the way you looked at me before I left and how you laughed and smiled and everything about you. All I could think about was you. And I had to accept the fact that my friends would taunt me for the rest of the summer, that was whipped. You have me wrapped around you finger, Buffy. I would do anything for you just to see you happy. I wanted to fly all the way to England to see you. But my dad wouldn't let me."
I couldn't help the tears. Stupid tears!
He touched my cheek gently and wiped them away. "I was such a jackass Buffy. I don't know what I would do without you."
So clich, but I gave him a watery smile anyway before I kissed him again. He got his point across. And all the while I was kissing him; feeling his hard, gentle body against mine, the way I felt his heart pound against my chest, all I could think about was how old people said you never find love at such a young age like 15. But this huge feeling that was taking over my heart, all I could do to explain it as love.
10th Grade- Trimester Two- February, 2001
"Girls should most likely know how to use a condom and carry their own if they plan to have sex."
"Are we going to learn how to put one on?"
"Yes."
Wait. WHAT! Ow. Ow. OW. Shit. SHIT. Way to go Buffy, fall out of your chair, you're super smart.
"Buffy Summers, are you alright?"
Stupid Buffy. Dumb blonde-haired person. "Yeah," I mumble as I get up and sit back in my chair, rubbing my head still cursing myself.
The class is looking at me like I am crazy. Well, maybe I am, a bit, but how is everyone else reacting so well to this? We are going to have to touch a condom, let alone put it on something! And I'm the crazy one, they say? I knock my head against the table and suddenly everyone in class is quiet again.
"Buffy Summers, once again are you alright?" are sex education teacher asks.
I glare at him and sit up straight. I she trying to make me look stupid? Suddenly Mr. Brinns pulls out a red plastic square from a bag. And a cucumber. Oh. My. God. We have to put it on that! On a freakin' vegetable! "What the hell is that?!"
"Buffy Summers, watch your tongue, sit down, and be quiet or I will have to send you to the Disciplinary Office."
"Right. Sorry." I look at Willow who is laughing at my behavior and then look at Angel who is just shaking his head. I punch him in his back and he then mock glares at me before taking my hand in his and twining them together.
Mr. Brinns passes a cucumber and a condom to everyone and explains we should practice.
"Right," I say as I stare at my big cucumber and slowly rip the square. "You can do it, Buffy. It's only a condom."
I look over at Angel and he is - "How the hell did you do that so fast?" How, that was like five seconds.
"Buffy, you honestly think I have never put a condom on?"
Angel had sex. When did Angel have sex? Who did Angel have sex with? Where was I? "You uh had sex? With who?" Keep it steady. Maybe he-I can't believe he had sex. I already feel the sob swelling in my throat.
"Buffy, I never have had sex before," Angel said shaking his head.
"Then how the hell can you put on a freaking condom on so fast?"
"I've practiced."
"What with a cucumber?"
"No, on myself."
Oh, right. He does have one of those. Right. "Right. I'm going to go to the bathroom."
I rise quickly from my seat, sign out, and rush down the hall towards the bathroom. I open a stall and knock my head against the wall. This is not happening to me, I mean, me and Angel have gone pretty far but sex?
I sat on the toilet, look at the poster that is on the bathroom door, and crack my knuckles. A few seconds I hear the door open to the bathroom and someone open another stall. I get up, open the door, leave the bathroom, and walk back to class. I pout all the way there. Right, I can do this. I take a deep breath and open the door and see that all the guys have finished already but most of the girls were still having trouble.
I slump into my chair, ignoring the stares Willow and Angel gave me. I puck up the cucumber and then the condom which I left open on the desk and slip the condom on the vegetable. I drop the cucumber quickly and look up at Mr. Brinns. "I'm done! Now what?"
He looks at me a second. "How did you do that so fast?"
Now everyone in the class is staring. "Uh... I just did?" I shrug my shoulders and pick up the 'penis' and start spinning it. I feel someone looking at me and look over at Angel. "What?"
"How did you do that so fast"
"I just did. Why is everyone making such a big deal? Jesus." I roll my eyes at him and wait for everyone else to finish.
Once everyone was done Mr. Brinns starts talking again and of course I start to space out. Maybe I should be tested for ADD or something.
"Has anyone considered sex before?"
What. No. We are in 10th Grade anywa- NO! Omigod, omigod, put your hand down, NOW! I swallow quickly and I feel myself start to hyperventilate. Breathe in out in out.
"Angel would you like to explain this decision?" Yeah, explain this decision.
"I feel like we should be able to show our love towards each other if we feel the need to. Age or no age. It's not a bad thing, and if we use protection then I don't see the problem."
"That's a fair argument, would anyways like to speak against this argument?"
No one raises their hand. So what everyone thinks that they should be able to have sex? What, are they stupid? "Yes, I would." I can't believe Angel just told the whole class he wants to have sex! "Sex is for people who are in love and not for whorny teenagers! Just because we think we are adults and think we 'love' each other doesn't mean its real!"
Everyone is staring at me in shock and I quickly look over at Angel who is not meeting my gaze. Shouldn't it be me who is not looking at him? What do I know? The bell rings and I pick my books up and I am about to go over to Angel but he is out of the room before I can say anything.
"What's with Angel?" I say as me and Willow walk to our lockers.
"Buffy, you are stupid?"
"What? I mean, what?" What did I do? You know those feelings you get when you want to smash your foot to the ground like a kid; I want a moment like that right now.
"Angel said to the whole class he loves you and said you didn't!"
"What? When did this happen, I clearly do not remember a declaration of love! And who said I didn't love Angel?" Is she delusional? Angel does not love me. And why would he say it in front of the whole class. And of course I love Angel. "Anyways, Angel told the whole class he wants to have sex." I grumbled.
"With someone he loves."
"I feel like we should be able to show our love towards each other if we feel the need to."
Oh yeah, he did say that. Oh shit! But still, I don't want to have sex. "It's not like he said it out loud or anything. All he said was that he wanted to have sex with someone he loves."
"Being you?"
Whatever. "If it's true he would have to tell me. What he said is pretty broad anyways."
I slam my locker shut and walk towards French alone. I sit in my desk and wait for Angel to come but when he does and he sits down next to me, he sits as far away, as he can and before I can even say anything the teacher comes in.
Throughout the whole class, I am looking at him and he wouldn't meet my gaze. "Angel," I whisper. He looks at me for a second before putting his hand to his lip, literally telling me not to bother him. Fine, I can be like that too. I cross my arms and ignore him for the rest of class.
2 days later
Two days, and me and Angel have barely spoken. No little, love text messages in the middle of the night, no holding my hand in the hallways. Nothing. And today is Valentine's Day! I sit in my Science class, and listen to my teacher drown on and on about some chemistry thing. I look at the clock when everyone starts getting up. What's going on?
"Hey, where are we going?" I ask Cordelia.
"To the double honors class."
Kay... because suddenly Mrs. Harts decided we are super smart in Science? We walk to the classroom and everyone starts going to their friends. I see Angel talking to Percy and Hogan, who had gone over to him, and ignore me completely. I stand at the front of the room when the Honors kids come in. I move to the back of the room to give them space, and suddenly wish Willow had science 7th period. Why did their have to be so many kids in our grade who are so smart in Science?
Angel knows I have science this period, and he did see me come in. At least he could do is acknowledge me. It is Valentines Day! My lip comes out and I feel my throat start to tighten. I raise my hand and suddenly I notice that the teachers are talking about something. "Yes, Buffy?"
Everyone turns to me and I try not to let the tears that are threatening to fall out. "Can I uh go to the bathroom?"
"Sure." I quickly leave the room, ignoring the stares. Once I get to the bathroom and I'm safe in the bathroom the tears start to flow quickly. Once I feel like I can control myself, I wipe up and leave the bathroom. I walk into the classroom and I slip into the back and once again ignore the stares.
"Miss Summers are you alright? You look pale," Mrs. Harts states.
I give a forced smile. "I'm fine, I'm uh tired."
I look down and ignore the stare that Angel gives me. I wait for the teachers to explain everything and the second the bell is done, I grab my books and briskly walk out the class but I felt someone grab my elbow and I turned around and looked into Angel's eyes.
"What?" I really didn't have time for him.
"What's wrong?" he said, as he tried to pull me away out of the entrance of the Science classroom.
"None of you business," I mutter as I try to pull away but he doesn't let me go. "Let me go."
"What do you mean none of my business? I'm your boyfriend!"
"Some boyfriend," I mumble underneath my breath.
"What do you mean some boyfriend and what is going on with you!" Angel yelled at me.
This whole time we are doing whatever we are doing I was looking at the floor but after what he said my head snapped up. "ME! Me! Have you lost your mind! I'm not the one with the whole attitude! I'm not the one ignoring and avoiding their significant other! So yeah, it is none of your business until you tell me what is up your ass. And because you are so stupid and stubborn I won't find for a while. So go away!"
And with that I march off but once again I get pulled by my elbow by Angel again and this time all my books fell to the floor. "What the he-"
"I'm sorry I get upset when I love you and you don't! So sorry for getting a little upset."
"Maybe if you weren't such an - What? You love me?"
"Yes. I love you," Angel said, but he looked down.
"You love me?"
"Yes!"
"Love," pointing to myself. "Me."
Angel gives me a chuckle before nodding. Oh. Willow was right.
"Me too." I looked up at him and I feel slight tears forming around my eyes but not falling. I feel Angel's hands take mine and twine them slowly.
"You love yourself?" He said with a smirk on his face.
I hit him gently before Angel engulfed me in a hug. I heard the bell ring but I could have cared less. "No, well yeah, but me to. I love you too."
Angel kissed my head gently before tucking me into his neck and we walked slowly towards my locker. I opened my locker and take my books that I need for Study Hall and then once I had done that, Angel had taken them from me held them in one arm, and then them took his other arm and put it around my shoulder.
We walked slowly to class and once we reached the room Angel held onto me and kissed me slowly. When he let go, I felt all the stares from the room but I could care less.
"I love you, Buffy," Angel whispered.
"I love you. But I'm not having sex with you."
Angel laughed at me before turning around and heading towards his locker and his class. I enter the class with my happy daze and everyone is looking at me like I'm crazy but I can't help it. But everyone is still staring.
"What? Is there something on my face?"
10th Grade- Trimester Three- April, 2001
"Why are we going again?"
"Just go! Please don't leave me with all those annoying political people," I beg at Willow.
"I still don't get why you have to go," Willow mumbled as we carried our trays of disgusting food to a classroom.
"Angel asked me to go. He said he wanted me there."
"I didn't know Angel loved politics so much," Willow said.
"Are you kidding?" I said as we go up the ramp towards the hall mumbling to the teacher on guard we are going to JSA. Stupid Junior Statements of America. Everyone goes there, if you need to shout your opinions to each other about how gay marriage is wrong or abortion should be done. Stupid retarded smart people who have nothing else to think about accept that. "It's all he talks about."
"Seriously, he never struck me as the kind," Willow said as she opened the door to the the room.
"Yeah, he is like in love with Sean Hannitey and Bill O'Reily," I say quietly as we enter the room and see already as people are yelling at each other. I see Angel on one side and I'm about to go to him when he stands up and starts yelling at one poor little junior.
"Are you kidding?! Your point is useless, so when they torture people they might force them to lie, but how do you think anyone gets any of their information? We need to do this, its for the safely of our country! Do you want another 9/11?"
I stand still and I think I am in shock. "That was Angel, right?" I murmur towards Willow.
"Yeah," I can tell she is also in shock.
"Let's pretend we don't know him."
"I think that's a good idea."
We sit far away from Angel. People keep arguing with each other and me and Willow are sitting in shock. "I think that's why people don't vote."
"Yup. People are crazy."
Me and Willow start laughing and some dumb junior glares at us. I glare back. "Do you need something?"
He turns his head and me and Willow starts laughing louder. "And people call me crazy. They should come here and rethink their decision."
Willow laughs at my remark and then we both erupt in laughing when someone roared at someone else. "Why did Angel make you come anyways?"
I take one of my Freedom Fries and chew. "He says we never can have lunch together anymore. Which is sort of true. He is never at lunch anymore. He either has an SAT II class, or some kind of club."
"'Cause you guys are having lunch right now together," Willow said with a smile.
We hear Angel's voice snapping at someone and I chuckle. "Yeah well, its better than nothing."
"Are you guys doing something tonight? It is Friday."
"Yup! Angel's dad is taking his clients out to dinner, and I'm coming with," I say happily.
"That's nice, hey did Fred tell you?"
"Tell me what?"
"She met someone."
"No! For real? Who?"
"I don't know him, names Charles or something like that. She seems smitten with him."
"That's great, I'm so happy for her. I really want to meet him."
"Yeah, me too. She said she would bring him around one day."
"That's great."
The bell rings and me and Willow jump out of our seats and dump our trash in the trash can and walk happily out. As we walk out, I feel someone's hands wrap around my waist and I twist around happily and wrap my hands around his neck. "Hey there."
"Hi," Angel murmurs before he bends down and kissed me.
"Now isn't PDA wrong for Mr. Political here?" I question as we walk down the hall towards the 10th Grade hallway. He smirks down at me.
"Really? If it would be I wouldn't be allowed to do this," he says as he swipes me down and kisses me passionately in front of our whole grade. When he lets go I can barely open my eyes. I hear him chuckle and some whistling from our friends and when I open my eyes, I can't help but smile.
"I was never against it."
He puts his hand around my shoulder and he starts walking me to my locker. "So, are you ready for tonight?"
"Yup, I have the perfect dress. It's gorgeous," I say, looking up to him as I dial in my code to my locker.
"We are going to get home pretty late," he says as he starts playing with his hair.
"Okay, I'm sure mom won't mind," as I take my math stuff out of my locker.
"Actually I was thinking, maybe you could sleep over," he says. He stops playing with my hair and I drop my books and stare at him.
"Uh-" What I am I supposed to say?
"Buffy, I don't want to have sex with you." I glare at him and he laughs at me. He cups my cheeks and kisses my nose. "You know what I mean. Of course I want to well you know, but I'm not going to force you into anything you don't want to do."
I bit my lip and smile happily. "Okay, I just need to ask Mom-"
"I already asked her and she said yes."
I stare at him. Is he serious? "Are you kidding?"
"No," he looks at me weirdly. "I called her last night and asked and she said that was a good idea."
I stare opened mouthed at him. "That's amazing! She barely lets me sleep over Xander's house."
He glares at this and I can't help but smile at this. "And you shouldn't. I bet he masturbates to you."
My face turns into disgust. "Angel that is so sick, in so many ways."
"It's true," he mumbles and he looks so cute when he is mad like that. We start walking towards his locker.
I wait a while as he gathers his books and we are the only ones in the hallway now, the bell already ringing. "So... do you masturbate to me?"
He looks at me quickly and then shoves his face quickly behind the locker door but I saw his blush. I smile happily and push the door out of my way and smile up at him. "I hope that blush is because you do."
Angel looks over at me, and I smile. "Yes." He finally says.
He closes his locker and he walks me to my math class, kisses me. "I love you."
"I love you," and I watch as he walks to his own class. People in my class aww at us, but I'm still in my bubble. Angel masturbates to me!
***
Angel holds my hand as we walk out of the restaurant. The dinner was amazing. We enter his car and his parents start taking us to his house. He doesn't live that far from me, but far enough that it takes a distance to get to my house from his. We reach his house and his parents quickly go to bed and me and Angel go to his room. We take off our shoes and I move slowly towards the center of the room.
His room was huge. I always felt so small when I was in it. I feel even smaller when Angel stands next to me and he looks at me with his brown eyes, intense and beautiful. I gulp and he is right in front of me.
"I uh think you should lock your door."
He turns around quickly and he locks his door and he looks so big in suit and mature in his suit. He turns around. He comes closer to me again, and holds me gently in his arms. I tug at his suit jacket and he gets rid of it. I slowly begin unbuttoning his shirt and un-tuck it and let it fall to the floor. I touch my hands to his chest and put my hand over his heart. He takes hold of my hand and kisses it. I bite my lip and smile best I can.
His hand reaches the zipper of my dress, and he slowly pulls it down. It falls to the floor around my feet. I stand in front of him in nothing but my black underwear and I swear I hear his and my heartbeats going faster. He picks me up slowly and lays me down on the bed. He gets rid of his pants. Angel lies on top of me and slowly brings his lips down on mine. I wrap my hands around his neck and bring his whole body against mine. My breasts smash against his chest, and are legs tangle and I hear him moan in my mouth.
I feel his arousal against my thigh and I bring my legs up so that his arousal touches mine through my underwear. "Buffy," he murmurs.
I tug at his boxers and he looks down at me. "What are you doing?"
"Take them off."
He looks at me before he sheds them. I touch him lightly and I feel him moan again. "Buffy."
I start rubbing him lightly. His body is tense and I smile into his neck as I feel him try to stop himself from pounding into my hand. Just as I'm about to roll him over and go down on him, I feel his hand touch my underwear. My eyes snap at him in panic.
"Let me," he whispers as he slowly pulls down my underwear. He comes back up to me, and slowly starts inserting a finger. I can't even move. He moves his finger up and down, and slowly it feels good, feels really good. I close my eyes when I feel him insert another finger and move my head to the side, as he starts kissing my neck. Slowly I start to resume rubbing him. He starts moving faster and I start to moving in a frantic pass. I starts moaning, trying to get somewhere. I come shouting his name and he starts kissing me to keep me quiet. I feel him come against my stomach, and I sigh. We continue to kiss and slowly he lets go. I look up at him and he moves away from me to get the towel that he has against his nightstand. He wipes my stomach and his, all the while looking at me.
He throws the towel in the trash and looks at me. He lies over me and I touch his hair. "I love you, Buffy Summers."
"I love you," I whisper in response.
He rolls over and he pulls me tight against him. I pull the blanket over our shoulders and giggle as our heads our hidden underneath the blanket.
***
"So what you doing today?" Angel asks as I walk out of the shower.
"Studying, working probably," I respond as I quickly pull on my bra and underwear and then pants. "Why wanna do something?"
"Let's go to the Bronze. I want to dance with you," he says as he pulls me into his embrace.
I smile up at him. "Really? And why do you want to?"
"It's Spring Break soon, I want to have you as much as I can before you leave," he says as he traces small circles on my hip bone.
"It's only ten days, Angel. I'll be home before you know it."
"Well I don't like being away from you," he said.
I roll my eyes. "And what happens when you go to Harvard and I'm still in little ole Sunnydale?" I laugh lightly. When he doesn't answer I turn around and stare at him. "Angel?"
He looks up at me and his eyes are so serious. "Would you come with me?"
I snort. "Like I could ever get into Harvard."
"I mean if I went away would you go somewhere near me?"
I stare at him for a second. "Angel-" His eyes are near tears and I don't know what to say. I come up to him and hug him close. He slowly puts his arms around me and hugs me. Why is he so serious all the time? I kiss his chest through his shirt. "Angel, I love you. We are only in 10th grade. Sixteen! When we get there, than we'll deicide were we go okay."
He pulls away from me and his eyes has some kind of innocent hope. "Were we go?"
I smile lightly. "Were we go."
TBC