Craving human touch
Curling up against
Strong warm body
Feeling secure
Protected
Safe
Wrapped in someone else's strength
Giving up control if only for a moment
Trusting completely

Skin hunger
Wanting not needing
Needing not wanting
Warm fuzzy soft focus
Gritty real immediacy
A touch
A sigh
A single muscle contraction

Quiet togetherness
Point of contact glowing
Ignored company
Even breathing a soothing lullaby

A soul to spill the day to
Ever-ready embrace
To know another
Exists for you

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and I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror
as I walk by naked after my shower
my arms wrapped around my waist
whose arms are those... so tan and hard?
surely they can't belong to the soft white body they hold
as the hands drop lower I turn expecting to see him behind me
the phantom man who held me a moment before
and when he's not there I feel so abandoned and alone

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flattered by imaginary regard
decent human being
could do so much better
so why doesn't he?
a gambit, a tidbit,
to amuse and gain his
momentary attention

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respected person
doesn't have your interest
if should express it in you
and flattered, accept.
he's too good for you

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I love to dance
I hate dances
sit and hold
up the wall
or dance in circles
with girls
the inevitable last
song or two
reminds me why
I dance in circles
with girls

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good times
with friends
our wild
crazy banter
a facade
hearts screaming
I want
I need

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desperate thoughts
considering everyone
just a little
I'll take
anything they give, saying
something's better than nothing
but really I want it all
all you can give me
and perhaps I'll want more

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instant bitch
imminent tears
I'll kill you
I'll weep on your shoulder

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my room
my bed
memories linger
I miss, not you
but what we
had
how we laid
how I felt

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curled on the corner
of a casual friend's bed
wedging between
the wall and the footboard
if I'm small enough
wedged tight enough
I can close my eyes
and everything
will cease

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a simple thing
a four-letter word
need

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physical perception
of my body
     varies directly
with how good
     I feel about
any and every thing
     not on the whole
     but moment to moment
     breath to breath
but when I feel the best
     I lose all awareness
of my body

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to feel small
and sheltered
but not forced
     to be

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franticly giving
throwing affection
hoping wildly
for a single return

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how can I ask
anyone to love me?
how can I show
anyone the depth
     of my need?
how can I ask
anyone to fill it?
     how can I want
anyone to be responsible?

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I can do better.
     maybe I'll
     believe it
I deserve him
     I can't
     believe it
I don't dare
     not yet