you were my first - jennifer w.

You Were My First

You were my first but

I'm not done with this.

I will not stay tied

where you left me.

I will not lay there

and let this happen.

I had no choice then,

but my life is full of choices

Now that I have grown

and I have my own strength.

I'll pay any price

to see you stopped.

I'll share my shame

with old men who've

never been weak and

I'll scream about it

in the most inappropriate places.

This burden was forced on me

but I've learned to love it

and you, meaning to do the opposite,

gave me power and you didn't

destroy my life.

I won't give you that.

So put your fucking knife away

because I don't even bleed when cut-

You can't hurt me because I won't let you.

It's my decision.

I remember your brutal fists and

steel-toed boots but I sleep

at night, comfortably, feeling safe

because I know that

I was your last.