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| Untitled If I could find a way to reach you, a way to open up your eyes, I would give you my forever so that you might realize all you are is far above me, on the altar for which I pray; keep your sweet perfection for me and I swear I'll find the way. Parylized, love I must; Pacified, love I trust. Have you heard my last confession? Has it sunken through and through? Tell me now all that you yearn for, I will seize it on your cue. Give me time and give me strength and my piteous worth I will prove; I will shed the blood you ask for, I have everything to lose. Parylized, love I must; Pacified, love I trust. (quiet) Keep me not for how I treat you, Keep me for the life I live. Keep me not for what I offer, Keep me for the love I give (repeats) 10.6.00 ~ ~ ~ Dysfunctional Cat! He has a defective purr Nappy, knotty, orange fur Pink skin where he has bald spots And where most of his blood clots A beverage is the kitchen sink The toilet - alcoholic drink The bathtub has become a chair Though he'll sleep most anywhere Dysfunctional cat! Dysfunctional cat! Dysfunctional cat! He never plays anymore He lies in a rope on the floor Or behind the drainer And gets wet from the strainer When in heat, he wants his gram But she doesn't give a damn He won't take tuna or lunchmeat But dog food he likes to eat Dysfunctional cat! Dysfunctional cat! Dysfunctional cat! Dysfunctional cat! 12.1.00 ~ ~ ~ Lady In Waiting There is a stinging which I love in my whore of a heart it pangs and twists forever constricting forever inflicting my purity my sanity my devotion untold (the blackest sin I hold) Keep me down Spin me around Spit on me at your leisure (don't say you'll never leave her) I loved your dagger very dear and held it as my own I'd thrust it farther for you (you know) I am forever willing forever killing my confidence my tolerance for your inflicted pain (your darling's love will wane) Keep me down Spin me around Hurt me at your leisure (don't vow you'll never leave her) Keep me down Spin me around Kill me at your leisure (don't swear you'll always please her) (quiet) I'll keep your dagger sweet darling dear I'll hold your dagger so very near... (repeats) 12.23.00 ~ ~ ~ In The Dead Of The Night In all things that I do I'm ever without you I can't take another dark eve I don't want the crying The cancer, the dying Why can't you deplete all my needs I dream of myself in your arms I dream of myself free from harm I dream of a kiss in the rain I dream of a release from pain I want you within me I want you to sin me But I want no lust full of lies I know you would feel me Could you ever heal me With ev'ry sweet touch of your eyes My dreams are so far away My dreams are without the day I dream of a lost embrace I dream of a single taste I dream of dreams as you used to I dream of dreams as you still do I dream of love abound in you I dream of everything untrue I dream of never loving you.. 1.3.01 ~ ~ ~ Transparent Salvation You are the only thing that's left In purgatory, So does it make sense In this instance That you would asphyxiate me? You come to me in empty woods I've hollwed with my tears And though I'm glad you came To tempt this stupid game I cannot move I cannot speak I cannot breathe *Don't leave me alone now (I need you) Don't let your life unzip (I need you) Don't find your way out now (I need you) Don't let yourself slip... (I need you here with me) You will not speak to me at all Although you urge me You choke me up You never stop You cannot let me die in my own tears Don't lean so close to me, my dear You're strangling my tale The smoldering surrounds This haven you have found And I cannot escape your voice So deathly clear *(repeat) Don't you leave me (I need you here by my side) Don't concieve me (you don't know how much I've cried) Don't believe me (you won't believe how I died) Don't relieve me (no matter how much I try) You will not decieve me now *(repeat) And you will not decieve me now. (unknown date) ~ ~ ~ Beautiful You're so beautiful When you're blue When there's tears Coursed down your face I can't keep up with you. You're so gorgeous When you're small When you feel Invisible I want to eat you all. You're so stunning When you cry When the world Falls on your back You glitter in my eye You say, "Why do you love me so When I outcry the rain?" But I can't help but Want to grab you up When you're in pain You say, "Why do you pursue me When tears sting blind my eyes?" But when you are so Vulnerable I have to ask you why You're so loveable When you're hurt When you scream Into the sun You make me want you more You're so kissable When you're down When your heart Is sunken low I want to spin you around You say, "Why do you love me so When I scream out to die?" But I can't help but Stare at you with Wonder in my eyes You say, "Why do you pursue me When I drown in my tears?" But when you are so Broken through, I Want to slay your fears You're so beautiful When you're blue When there's tears Coursed down your face I fall in love with you... 4.4.01 ~ ~ ~ Outside The Lines Where do you find That you are so kind When intolerance taints Your excuse for a mind? You're all-knowing, you say And things are just this way For reasons that I Simply will never sway *But where is your justification now? What do you have but superstition and mages? And what will you do when you're proven untrue When you're finally given your book's missing pages? You are so sure In your fiction and lore That has sick'ned me to Tears and clawed out my core Why can't you step back See through more than the crack That has denied you all Your heart yearns for and lacks? *(repeat) I don't hate your book But you maim my outlook And you won't let me breathe Though your methods Will cause me to seethe *(repeat) 4.10.01 |