I
A flicker of movement, like a shadow in
the night; silent, black... A tiny whisper of sound, the soft-soled black
half-boots; hand made by their wearer; mark the passing figure, wraith-like,
silent, blacker than the night itself, along the cobbled way. The nocturnal
breeze stirring and billowing the soft damask fabric of the midnight coloured
robes in a sinuous dance which lent an air of of danger to the aura of
mystery and otherworldly stillness about the figure. It seemed as if this
dark being were more... or less than human, a shadow detached from the fabric
of the night itself, cloaked and coweled as it was, not even the glitter
of an eye could be discerned in the light of the low hung harvest moon...
Though few are the people abroad at that hour of the night, each of those
the figure passed was somehow compelled to turn and watch as it moved
silently out of sight, their thoughts loud in the silence of the night air
to the black shrouded being... fear, awe, disbelief... all screaming louder
than words, and falling on seemingly deaf ears...Satanic... demon...witch...ghost...
the names and accusations meaningless to their hearer.
The shadow-figure moves on; turning the
corner onto another, darker street, and stops before a recessed doorway...
Slowly, pale hands reach up to grasp the edges of the concealing hood,
and lower it to reveal a pale face, and hair so deep a black as to appear
blue where the silver beams of the harvest moon should dare to shine. The
features of the face have a definite feminine cast, delicate and small,
so pale as to seem cast in marble, bleached as it was of all colour 'neath
the moon's light.
To some, the face holds much beauty, to others, it
is cold, to it's owner, it's only merit is that it is hers alone...The chaos
of thought and emotion within, masked by the air of stillness and calm
without...
Slowly, a pale, delicate hand reaches forth to lift
the latch and push open the heavy, iron-bound oaken door, allowing the
dim light, and buzzing voices to intrude briefly on the night...
In the space of a breath, the woman dissapears within,
and the door once again holds the night at bay.
In silence, she makes her way to her shadowed corner, carved as it
is from the center of a wall, more a niche, a nook, really, but there never
the less, and always reserved for her...
With a small part of her consciouness, she responds
automatically to the queries and greeting directed her way by the faceless
voices inhabiting the room. Her gaze shifts from being to being, seeking
faces where there are none, responding in her quiet voice, hello...no,
i'm quite alright... meaningless, automatic responses to meaningless questions...
Starving wraiths, they are", she
thinks in the chaos of her mind"looking to feed off the pain in my soul...
hummmmm... i think not tonight..."
Quietly, she gathers her robes about her, and takes
her customary seat on the cold marble floor. Gathering her thoughts and
emotions around her , she organizes them lilke a shield... yes, tonight
her efforts are sucessful... tonight, her emotions will not betray her
weakness, as they have so often in the past done...
It is here, in this dark, crowded room, that she feels
most comfortable... where others like her gather, who have been feared
and shunned for their "differentness", their "apartness" from the mindless
puppets of society... though even here, few enough of them truely understand
her...
Yet, it isn't important to her that she be understood,
only that she be heard... understanding would come later, with time and
thought.
And there she sits, watching the faceless people sometimes,
responding automatically to voices directed her way, occasionally interjecting
comments drawn from her thoughts, an island of stillness in an everchanging
crowd, waiting...
Suddenly, one such as she appears, materializing out
of the crowd... "Hello..." he says as he draws near... "Hello..." she responds,
knowing, without knowing that here is one who truely understands.
Slowly, she raises her gaze from the cracked patterns
of the cold marble floor, to behold another figure, radiating the same
otherworldly stillness as she, and he too, is cloaked in blackest shadow,
the style of dress different, yet the feel is the same...
"Hello..." she says again, voicing his name in greeting...
It is then that her thoughtsare loosed to be spoken, and for a time all
too brief, they converse, and are heard by all, yet understood fully only
each to the other...almosta melding of minds over the raucous clammor of
the room...
And suddenly, he is gone, as quickly and completely
as he'd arrived, leaving her once again to answer automatically, the voices
in the room, as she traces patterns in the cracked marble flooring and
chases her thoughts in endless circles until they make sense...
After a time, she tires of the endless murmur of the
faceless voices, meaningless sound, and quits the chamber as unnoticed as
when she arrived...
Outside - the air has cooled, and the moon has set...
a carpet of glistening dew on every surface... the heavy nocturnal air
carrying loud in the stillness the whisper-swish marking her footfalls
as she passes, once again covered head to toe, a part of the night itself...Slowly,
she walks down the cobbled street, blending with the darkness and is gone...
Seeming to have dissapeared, so well did the deep color of her rainment
blend with the darkness of the night around her. As she walked down the
empty street her soft foot-falls echoing in the stillness, she reflected
on other nights, and other conversations...Shespent quite a bit of time
in there, in that dark room, surrounded by the babbling facless voices of
people she knew almost beyyer than she knew herself...
It was odd, she thought, that she knew them by the
sound and feel of their voices, rather than the appearance of their faces...Yet,
perhaps it was better this way, easier to know someone, to share with
them, if one did not have to see and be seen...