What Being a Witch means To Me

I have been practicing being a Witch since  1979, seriously and reading everything I could get my hands on.  However, at 14, I was informed by a palm reader ' I was a natural talent'   .  When I was eight,  I told my dad who I was to marry. I  always wondered why only  I knew things and only I could talk to the angel in my room.  Ever since then I feel it has helped me grow spiritually as an individual, although I do not let it define who I am completely. Throughout my childhood, I searched for that special something. I did 'the right thing' and learnt the preachings of our local priest and was a good Catholic, however, I struggle with the teachings and was often sent outside during religous study with the Nuns.  By 14 I pursued my own individual path.

Before I ever found Wicca I knew and felt that things were different. I was drawn to nature, but yet I wasn't niave to it's cruelest intentions. Death and passing didn't frighten me, nor did blood other things regular children have been might be afraid of. I began formulating contradictions to "only a one right path," discovering there were many. Never truly holding a hatred in my heart or a vendetta to any faiths and after reading so many books on all religions, I began to dismiss the certain religions and paths as not the right ones for me. I didn't believe that we died and were either damned or blessed. I felt we went on, that we were so much more than Heaven or Hell. I began to see people as individuals. All unique, flawed, but for the most part lost and that appearances were quite deceiving.

Realization dawned; there were no strictly drawn lines between black and white, evil and good, moral and corrupt. Their intertwining thin little lines melting together mixing, and making the individuality that brings forth a person's flaws and their flaunts. These thin lines could be found anywhere, everything wasn't able to be put into a neat little catagory. When my choices started to sort themselves out, a single path cleared. This path kept calling. It wasn't the mystic allure or the promising of spells, what I felt was intangible. The more I practiced and read the more vivid the path became. The more I saw things for what they really were. In my opinion, Wicca isn't at all simply defined, nor is it a pick and choose faith.

The spiritual change doesn't happen overnight. It takes lifetimes to master, and it isn't the only one right way. I believe there are many faiths that lead to the main path. There are many right and wonderful choices. It's whatever calls out to the individual. I don't consider myself enlightened, nor do I consider my faith above anyone else's. It's just a different path. There are many sides to a situation, and there's a balance that must exist in order for everything to proceed. It's an individual's personal choice how they live their lives, and the decisions they make. You are responsible for your actions. Wicca is however, a religion with many different traditions. I simply refuse to lecture about right and wrong. In my opinion, they're just different paths. Some more stringent, and traditional, others loosely defined; all part of a greater whole.