catch me :: if :: i fall


:: 29 June ::

Went to IDP... to ask abt studyin in Aust. Oh yea i didnt mention.. Anyways... my mum actually errm asked me to study in aust.. ever since she knew that Anna my sec sch fren is going. She was like.. since shes going... why dun u go along.. and get ur deg there.. And that conversation like happened few days ago.. so this is like a very fast decision and i have like a few weeks to think abt it.. I really hope and pray that im not making a wrong decision by going there.

So anyways.. yea went to check out the avaliable unis.. and the courses connected to my dip.. to what i learn.. and yea there is a few courses that im interested in.. but.. thats not enuf.. i have to be REALLY sure of what i eventually want to do cos this is such a huge step.. to get out of here.. away from my family.. my dearest lil sister whom i love so much... and of coz my beloved friends..

I really really have to think abt this.. and its killing me.. somehow..

Shopping update.. got a pair of jeans from MANGO.. hahaha im esthetic! MANGO jeans.. MY size!! i tot it was impossible.. apprently NOT ANYMORE! kahwkhakhkwhakhwah!

:: 28 June ::

Supoosed to go to Esplanade to get my pass, tags, tees and watever nots.. as usual.. went out early.. planned to do a lil window shopping.. Went to Mango.. and lo and behold.. i got 2 skirts. One short.. and one.. below knee length kind.. both linen.. hahahha kindda love the short skirt!! YEY! but no tops yet.. its ok.. SALE still on.. can still go out and grab a few... hahhah Man.. i'm begining to feel like some tai tai sia.. shop shop shop..

:: 26 June ::

Supposed to go to madmonks for the monthly dosage of DNB music.. but Anna like got ready REAL late.. then 10.30 IT RAINED!! Like fuck ryte.. idiotic.. so. well cancelled.. was really looking fwd to it.. but i guess just not my day...

:: 25 June ::

Went to Zouk. got complimentary entries (curtesy of Danial Dreads) to Very Daring . Its just like a Fear Factor thingy.. just not as GROSS or mind boggling. But it was cool and he won!! hahhaha cant believed it.. after like eating worms.. and some other shit.. eww gross. Went to phuture after that.. seriously this is one of the worse clubbing outing i've ever been too.. the gerls were ok.. its just the music.. FUCKED UP.. some NuBeats crap.. its TERRIBLE!! some guy tried to dance with me.. but.. i just turned away.. no la i dun wanna be labeled as one of those sluts la.. seriously WORSE clubbing day!!!

:: 23 June ::

Went to meet up with Jay, Lyn, Indera Anna.. and Jeep, Lyn's friend came too. Talked to him for a while on the net.. Quite a cool guy la. Kindda surprised that they all got my presents.. haha really didnt expect them to do somethin like that..Went to chill at Caifornia Bristo at Esplanade.. its so nice there at night.. Just sitting with my pals.. talkin.. oh ya.. we dicsussed abt religion of all things.. haha One of my favourite topics. It was alright.. lovely met up. (",) Except that as usual, INDERA us being a pain in the arse. We all know how much he dislike Lynda.. but pls la for pete's sake, this is like once in a blue moon outing and why cant he be a nice gentleman and be normal.. He's totally ignoring Lyn and giving her the eyerolls and diliberately pissing her off. He really has got issues.. Somebody outta help him. He's so full of himself.. My god.. never have i met a guy that VAIN.. thinkin his like the most goodlooking guy on earth. You know I bet half the population of girls here.. hell i think 90% of us wont give a shit abt him. Good looking my toenails!

:: 22 June ::

Training officially ends today.. i have to come back next week to get my tag, pass, tees bla bla.. cool now i can chill at esplanade's cafes cos staff got discount!! And i can do my hair at toni and guys!! haha coolness!

:: 18 June ::

Woke up.. feeling normal.. shld i feel different? Mayb happy.. or sad.. pleased? How abt contented.. I really dunt know what or how to feel.. I guess I must have somehow know that today is gonna be different.. but somehow i know that it's not gonna be.. Its just gonna be the same day like yest.. the day b4.. the mth b4.. even the years b4.. Nuthings special's gonna happen today..

I shld be happy that i woke up.. to face the world again today..

After all.. its my birthday.. (",)


:: Rotting away ::

14th June 2004

My lil sis has been sick for days.. her fever's been up and down.. and so here i am rotting away at home playing neopets with her.. life sucks.

Anna just broke the news to me.. she wasnt accepted into a local Uni.. so.. now shes planning to head over to aussie to do her degree there.. when she told me that.. man i was dissapointed.. i mean yea i was very happy for her.. but man shes one of my closest friends.. to think abt it.. the only one.. and if shes gone.. tts it.. i'll be a lonely irritating idiot left here. *sobs*

Four more days.. and im a year older.. How i wish i could stop time. Hmm i'm wondering what i'm gonna wish for this year.. Like its EVER gonna come true!


:: OUCH ::

09th june 2004

Woke up listening the pitter-pattering of the rain aganst my window. went back to sleep.. hahha its such a nice day to be in bed...

My new chair has arrived.. went out.. and i fell down the stairs... my butt hurts.. ouch.. thank god it was the stairs at my home.. stupid heels..


:: Back from a break ::

7th June 2004

Just came back from KL.. was supposed to go to Genting.. but end up in Sunway Lagoon.. was bumped out at first.. but then when my uncles said that theres more to shop for at Sunway.. i was like hmmmm ok mayb i shld check it out..

Shopping is GREAT there.. BUT.. we didnt have the time. Bummer.. and most stuff there i could get here in S'pore and the price.. is abt the same.. few cents or bucks difference.. so i end up buyin nuthin much.. hahhaha just a tote bag from fila, seed pants, clinique lipstick and some small bag. How pathetic is that?! I didnt even get a top for myself. pathetic..

sunway was great! its such a waste that i didnt know we are going there.. cos if i did.. i wld have joined the rest in the waters it was such a hot day.. and well in the end i end up with their rides.. my mum went on this thingy.. which went 360 deg around and around in circles.. vertically! .. and i was like.. man i think shes gonna puke.. but she came out smiling.. hahahahhaha man shes great! i cld never bring myself to go on that kindda rides..

U know.. i nearly screwed my dads car.. and i also hit those plastic thingy they on their roads.. and now the car has scratches on its side. have hahhha man and its not my fault! its those stupid KL drivers.. sorry to say that not all of u are bad drivers.. BUT most are.. Im sure most of u know how ppl there drive.. my god i cld kill myself!

Mz UNHappy Lonely Flutterbye




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