today's the second day of school, or should i say csm. i felt really good about it, also excited. some how i started to feel really confident about myself and tramendously motivated. i guess it's the accident that woke me up and got me out of the teenage maze. seeing the whole world ahead of me with hope and chances that i can reach for. opportunities everywhere. there's no goin back, i'll have to explore this new environment, and do the best that i could do.
motoko's goin to taiwan today for a studyin trip, i hope and wishes that she'll enjoy her time in the east. also hopes she'll come bak sooner, a month is a such a long time, i really missed her a lot.
i am very lucky to live in this world. very lucky to have friends that helps me all the time. i dont know what to say, just thinking about it right now, i cant help to stop my tears from trippping out of my eyes. friends like jacky, jimmy and chester and so on,.. givin me rides and lots of supports constantly. i truly thank you guys for doin this..i really do, i donno how to repay you guys.
some how i feel really embarous about myself. to bother other ppl, yaknow...and...sometimes, i give ppl so much problems and brings them sooo many trouble..that i 'm startin to think that i am evil. born as evil. nothing good comes out of me. is it really true? i know readers will tell me the usual , like "no you're not" but when i think about myself, there is really not much good things that i 've done in my life, in my last 18 years that made other ppl happy and appreciates me. but i'll struggle and do my best to reach for the top, if my friends believes in me, then i will not let them down. and as for tony, brother, i will suceed, and take care of you.i will be respondsible, wait for me....wait for me....
i dunno. if anythin above doesnt make sence, i'm sorry, cause so far i am just typing what ever thats in my mind, what ever that i think.
