Rhyming poetry
11:14 PM 11/13/00 A fearful soul trapped inside, inside his body, inside his mind. no one to cry to, no place to hide afraid to live, afraid to die. dispair and hurt continues to mount, hurt to many times to count. heart of stone and eyes of sorrow, somebody might just die tommorow. he's fake and dirty and god damn lazy he's carved, collect, cool and crazy. he's helped me out, made me see. unleashed the lion, the lion in me. I'll be there for you on the brink of seclusion, just when you thought I was all a delusion. I owe it to you, I owe you my life. you showed me how, gave me strength to fight.
1:34 AM 10/17/00 Take my hand and we can be, give me a piece of you, and i'll give you a piece of me. the glass that is ours, they fit together a sign of us, they will do forever. the priceless memories that don't seem real as much as I hate it, I can't help but feel. Escaping the sadness, I run from the memories, the memories of you in a world full of madness. I know what you think and I know what you do and I know that you think that I lack a clue. I'm known for my prophecy, it brings me the truth, I have a hole in my shell now, like a leeky roof. It's letting them in, I have to repair it get rid of you, and melt it together. the familiar hurt, the familiar sting. the guy you knew, and your feelings for him.
4pm 21st August 2000 I care for you like no one will, the world around us forever still. a friend for life, on a crule device the cruel device being earth itself. my friend isn't that all we need? just each other and maybe our dreams? whatever you say I know your heart, the whole deal with life, to live is an art. depression gets me down, don't call me selfish. you know yourself this world gives us anguish. open your eyes some more, take another look can't you see? it's written like a book. why be happy, no reason to be. said it yourself friend sure your not mad?
12:30am 17th august 2000 little billy rott Seen in light, lived in dark, their voices, they sicken, insults, remark. One day, some day, far from here. duel them I will, and hurt them I will. Seemed so harmless, so innocent and sweet, weak, we picked on him so stupid where we. Long forgotten, poor billy rotten little they knew, they went to far on his soul was left a scar. Made things fair, from hurt, dispair. took it on them, his hate for the world, One by one he made them curl. shotguns smoking, and bodies roasting, revenge all round little billy rott, you make us prowd.
7/23/2000 11:36pm Average Joe Negative thoughts & negative dreams never held place for linear people it seems, the thinkers out there would know for sure the truth of our existance, a giant flaw a good thing or bad thing, nothing is real. just prizoners of time on a giant ferris wheel. to look at your past & not be pleased would leave your average joe in a state of freeze. but the time has come to let them know of the horrible truth without any glow.
20th August 4:30am warm the air, cool breaze blowing, fountains flowing, and warm sun glowing. thank whoever for making it right I look at you and feel delight. capture this moment to good to be real, was beginning to think i could no longer feel. never happens for some, taken granted for most. that half familiar feeling of being close. like calm waters off a raging storm, you came into my life in a wild angel form.
11:28 AM 11/25/00 count your reasons, count your days, count the stars in three different ways. judge the moon and judge the sun, stress the fact that your simple and dumb. let them take it, take it all, take your trust and watch you fall. stand in the middle, soak it all up, close your eyes, sow them shut. too much to handle, I break down in tears in a busy suburban street, I got to my knees. the rede reminds me from time to time, of who I am, of what I need. ashamed to be this, this horrible form locked inside a body, locked inside a storm. nothing is comforting, there is no relief happyness in the future, I have no belief. dispair washes over me, I lie on the pavement, the people passing by don't care, this is damnation. a few hours later, left something behind for pain is weakness leaving the mind. picked myself up, up off the ground it's dark now I notice, with no people around. walking along now with no hope to spare to hurt to bother, to fucked to care.
7/21/2000 4:35am broken dream Build a house, paint a self portrait, pretend as a child that you were not tortured. you can be anything, take first place take daddy's hand, to hide your face. make them prowd and do well at school, be sheltered and dumb and be seen as a fool. that crown of crap apon your head, the dreams of success in your carved oak bed. your on your own now, the next stage of life, weak and pathetic, you pick up a knife. thinking ur alone now, thinking your nothing taking the knife and wishing for something. wash away the memories, wash away the shit ignorance is bliss so you have another hit. slowly you find that life is soon to be over, and that to love is to find a 4 leaf clover. wishing you could go cry to mum and dad, go back to the days when you weren't so sad. into the nothingness, you live for the day, your strength comming forth in a powerful way. your free to be everything and nothing can stop you. so I hope you find life, and happyness too.
25/7/2000 12:03am Self worth Who am I to know what I am, or think what I like, or do what I can. What should i do, when everything falls, should i pack up and leave, or stay & stall? should i stay for love? or leave for hate? I'm sick of this world, just give me a break. I hate the fool i am, i'm a man of ice, I wanna be good I wanna be nice pain, delight, everyone fights. get over it man, we hate this life
19/8/00 12:15pm To nice for words so scared some days i never let you see for all it seems the real side of me. a fact my true nature cannot be told, my mind and soul forever cold. try hard to hide this hate of mine, I am a person, people are swine. as a worm i was the fool, the people, the memories, all so crule. Help me please i'm on my knees, I cry inside, I wanna die. anything but words and not in light. talk to me forever all through the night.
Monday 18th September 3:33 am What is this so hard to hide, beautiful but sad she's by my side. stronger at first, she quenches her thirst. a forgotten toy, an abandoned joy. I read her eyes, and read her mind, I'll watch her leave, then die inside. want to cry, but unable to feel, emotion trapped in an airtight seal. tears of blood, I will cry from my wrists. crying down on a porcelin sink, hiding the stains of misery with the stains of red, she feeds me love she makes me fed. by all means, she keeps me alive, love and empathy, for this I strive. she gives me a purpose, she gives me a reason, but i'm just a guy, living in treason. it has to happen, the show must go on, it's all predestined and the light has shone. i've seen the light, heard the voices shout, break us apart, and kill me no doubt.
19th August 2pm crows as a smile isn't always happyness, as tears aren't always sadness, I knew this before, but know it now. you tell me it'll work out, I'd like to know how. To read your mind and somewhat difine emotion and feeling in the hands of time. the faster you run the further anore it's pointless for us to try anymore. want something better here, but i know nothing else, i'm sure your the answer to happyness itself. as you get used to solitude, i'll get used to hating you. trapped in a world 10 million miles away, as lost as I get I will find you someday.
Wednesday september 27th/ 1:00am I'll see her face, before I sleep. i've feared this day, the day we meet. God damn this world to keep us apart, as well as life, to live is an art. Will she like me for me or hate me for him, what will she think of this skitsophreenic thing. To do one thing and think another, as honest as a black man, killing a brother. A brothers love unmatched they say always the same, the same old cleshay. La la la, screw this shit screw it all, i need a hit. the pain I savor I know it's real, I need to fight, i need to feel. back the story, isn't she lovely, like cleopatra, anything but ugly. Find out she will, the way I feel my sad little world is ready to peel.
Monday 1:32 am september the 25th Appreciate thee not, Thoughtless you are. this I know, distant and far. Die alone, on your thrown, write your name, in my stone. Kill me now, take me with you. Screw you too, may god be with you. Want what I can't, hate what I can, resent the day I shall see you again. vainity rains, the sun hides away, the world turns it's head. your ripe with decay. you'll walk between traffic, but not be affected, you'll hold an election, but not be elected. you'll live it all out, and wear it all in and use it all for you. I hate you for you.
Jungle of pain 7th of august 4pm 2000 In a jungle of mayhem, Furious and frightening, a grin of hell, marks fire and spell. Everything light, and everything white, in this jungle, here starts a fight. heard can be cries of pain and delight, a brutal site is this wrong or is it right. the cheer, the roar, the faces of stone. the cold hard crunches of breaking bone. a left, a right, not to sure. come on Jim, he's askin for more. in the early morning It doesn't rain but it pours, everything swirls and blood will spurl. a feeling of lonelyness here mixed with leasure, a broken jaw for laughs and good measure. I wanna loose triumphant and saw, I wanna fuck it all up some more. feed me your shit as you have all along, pay out on me, pretend it's not wrong.
Wednesday September 27th 2:00am Thrown To slit your wrists, to leave a mark. To enter a room, to make it dark. The clock is ticking to make a moove, The cold hard stomping of minitor hoove. Tempting, the easy way..I did believe, I ask myself the question, where does it lead. Choice is a burdon i'd like to forget, but human we are with all my resent. damn this mind it knows theres no point, damn this life as I roll a joint. the christians keep preaching, the rapers keep raping Like the pain in my head, I shall escape them.
7:43 PM 1/10/01 Childhood something dug up, something sacred, something lost and buried by hatred. telling myself, this can't be real, denying myself the choice to feel. a forgotten dream, she was to be the same old feelings, come back to me something awakenes, to screw with my mind, I need to remind her, after all this time. she doesn't at first, but remmembers it all fear and darkness begins to fall. withered and cold, her eyes show sorrow. cheat time, cheat the sun, cheat today and escape tommorow.
6:55 PM 12/31/00 Desperate Desperate to tell you, needing to ask I'm worried for us and you know this at last In all my honesty in all their lies, I feel the tension as we say our goodbyes you tell me you need me, tell me you care, but you know this is it, life isn't fair. for you I try to smile, and try not to cry hold you for the last time, your love has run dry. alone and shaking the cold sets in, my heart is breaking this life is a sin. you can't come where I am going, my mind to you i'm not showing.
