10/10/97
Nothing especially interesting happens at school anymore, except for those days that are just so completely devoid of anything meaningful that I become so bored as to question my own existence, and I think that maybe I'm not really here -- just my thoughts and actions and beliefs...
10/16/97
In a world filled with uncertainty, it's no wonder creatures as vulnerable as humans always try to grasp onto something constant.
10/23/97
Is it just part of human nature to never be completely satisfied? By denying this, do we sacrifice improvement for inner peace? Can it be that ignorance truly is peace?
10/29/97
Even if you spend your whole life obtaining the wealth of the world, the one thing you will never be able to buy is... poverty.
11/5/97
Does a guy fall in love with a girl because she is beautiful, or is she beautiful because he loves her? Well, enough of that gushy stuff. I feel like I need to talk about something else now to reassure myself of my guyness, so next week, my thoughts on guns.
Reply from Nick:
"I guess it just depends on the guy."
11/17/97
Guns...
Now that last week is covered, I can get on with the real stuff.
There are certain things that we grow accustomed to, and certain things that we love. Then, somewhere in the middle, is the group of things that we kind of get used to liking. Growing out long hair is one such example. I don't love it to death, in fact, it even scares me sometimes. On the other hand, it's not something you just get used to. People get used to putting on pants, but they don't necessarily love doing it. This is different, see?
11/24/97
So I'm just sitting here in school, doing this instead of looking for my career. I wonder if there is a turning point when I will just suddenly know what I want to do, or if I have to gradually get into it. It's scary to think that one decision will last for the rest of my life.
12/1/97
Don't you hate it when your parents always compare you to someone else? But if you think about it, everytime they do it to you, some kid out there is probably being compared to you too. We all have things we are good at, but no matter what, some parent will always compare you to another, so we might as well all be pissed off together.
12/7/97
I was just thinking about that Inner Circle theory that only two of us can be going out at the same time. Well, I think it's the general consensus that Nat, Bills, and Nick are taking up way more than their fair share of time. But that's ok with me because all of this stuff seems to end in tragedy anyway. I don't need to get into this stuff.
12/18/97
Sometimes you kinda really have to wonder how far adversity really goes. I agree that sometimes, things just suck, but what about all the little things that seem to piss us off. I mean, it's not really a smiting until you make it one. I figure you can break down most things into littler ones, and then you don't get so mad anymore.
12/28/97
Here's a thought I got from Douglas Adams, author of the increasingly misnamed "Hitchhiker's Trilogy." Forgive me if I paraphrase and/or embellish.
The universe is infinitely large. Because of this, there are an infinite amount of planets since there is an infinite amount of space for them to be in. Now, not all of these planets are habitable, so there must be a finite number of them. If you take a finite number and divide by infinity, the difference between that number and zero is like the difference between a lichen and the fungus on the previously mentioned lichen's buttocks. From that, you can say that the average population of the universe is zero, and anyone you happen to meet is just a figment of your imagination, and if you believe in your own existence, then you are a raving lunatic.