I am standing here waiting for the wedding to begin when my mind starts to wonder back to the night I met her.
We were at a party when I saw her from across the room. I was instantly lost in her beauty. Her long blonde hair cascading down her back, her blue eyes, her smile that lit up her face and made her eyes a darker shade of blue, her laughter that sounded like music. I stood watching her from afar for a while just so I could admire her. I don't believe, even to this day, I have ever seen a more beautiful woman.
As I made my way over to her, her laughter reached out to me and I couldn't help but smile. After I introduced myself we spent the rest of the party together getting to know one another.
She made me forget that just a few hours ago I was upset. Her laughter was catching and I found myself enjoying the party and not wanting the night to end.
I come back to the present right as the wedding march begins. Everyone rises as she makes her way down the isle. I look at her and my breath is taken away at the sight of her in her wedding gown.
Instantly my hands get sweaty and my heart starts pounding so hard inside my chest it feels like it is moving my body. I know it is loud and I am hoping none of the guys standing with me can hear it.
"She's beautiful" my friend leans over and whispers to me.
I smile at him and nod my head in agreement, because I can't find my voice.
'Beautiful doesn't come close' I think as I watch her make her way to the alter.
She is smiling her gorgeous smile and I can see she has tears in her eyes. I know they are ones of pure joy but I still get the over powering urge to reach out and wipe them away.
The Pastor beings the ceremony but I barely hear a word, my eyes are on her. The way she is standing there smiling, looking happier then I have ever seen her in the 4 years I've known her. Seeing her that happy brings joy to my heart.
The ceremony is over and the Pastor has us turn around and he announces:
The church then erupts into applause.
I watch the couple walk back down the isle as husband and wife and feel the now becoming all to familiar pain of jealousy and emptiness. I had wanted so bad for her to be mine, but Brian was the one who won her heart. 'Best friend' is what she calls me. I wanted so much more but now I know that will never happen.
'Brian got his angel from above, that he always wanted. Maybe someday I'll find mine' I think to myself as a brides maid takes my arm and we follow the happy couple out of the church. We watch them get into the limo and kiss and then the door closes and they start to make their way to the reception.
The reception-the other place I really don't wanna be at. The first one was the wedding, of course. I have to go though and I know that. I am not only of one of Brian's 'brothers' I am also a groomsman. I have to be there for him. I have to be there for her also, to her as her best friend, for me I guess it's to torture myself as I watch the woman I love begin a new life as another man's wife.
"You riding with us man?"
I turn and look in to the eyes of a concerned friend. I know he watched me during the ceremony, I could feel his eyes as he did.
"Yea man, I guess I am" I tell him and then turn and watch the limo once more.
He shakes his head and goes to the limo that was waiting. I sigh and decide I have to get this over with so I get into the limo and we head to the reception.
We get to the reception in time to hear the announcement of the arrival of the happy couple. They come in holding hand and I see her looking into his eyes lovingly and I feel like crawling under a table and staying there.
When the dancing starts I take the opportunity to ask her to dance. I take her hand and lead her to the floor and wrap my arms around her. I know I should of picked a fast song but I had to hold her in my arms.
I am savoring every second of the dance. Her touch, her smile, her laughter, the way her eyes are lit up because of the happiness she is feeling.
The song ends and Brian comes to reclaim his bride and as she leaves my arms and enters the arms of her new husband I feel the emptiness enter my heart.
I walk over to the bar and watch them move together. I have to admit it, even though I hate to, they make a stunning couple.
I'm so engrossed in watching them that I am not aware of a person next to me until the tap me on the shoulder. I look over and I look into the most stunning pair of green eyes I have ever seen.
"Yes?"
I ask her as I continue to stare into her eyes.
"I was wondering if you would like to dance with me?" She asks me.
I smile and look at her. She has long blonde hair and a wonderful smile-one that reaches her eyes.
"Yes, I would love to" I tell her and reach out my hand.
She smiles and takes it and we head out to the floor. As we dance I feel very attracted and drawn to her.
"I'm Howie" I introduce myself.
She smiles a shy little smile and I realize that she already knew. I smile at her to let her know that it was ok and to relax.
"I'm Angel" She tells me.
I pull away for a brief moment and look into her eyes and some how know that I am looking into the eyes of who I've been waiting for. I'm holding in my arms, my angel sent from above.
THE END
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