Funny how you can lose things that mean everything the most, especially if it is someone you love. I sat in the park and seen them. There they stand holding hands, both happy. Especially Nick. Here I had given him the best of everything I had. I was the shoulder he needed when he was sad, I was the biggest fan when he was performing and I was his best friend when the guys were busy. But somehow we drifted apart. He would be someplace like Europe and I was here, stuck to my job and refusing to join him because I needed my own life. Then the fights broke out and we never agreed anymore, even on the simple little things.
I sit in my apartment, looking at the rain. Nick is in another country and the weather in his area is supposed to be sunny. I know I shouldn't be keeping up with that stuff but I'm so use to it. I sit here, knowing I shouldn't feel the way I do. I have to move on and let it all go. I know there have been nights I want to call Nick and just say one last time I love him but I can't. Then I cry. Time has changed us.
So I walk into the bathroom and run some bath water. I ease myself into the tub and just lay there and think. I decide right then and there that I have to move on. I have to put the past behind me and leave it all behind. As I cry, Brian McKnight's voice comes over the radio I keep in my bathroom. He sums it all up for me.
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry
Cry.....
I was here
You were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind
For the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I'm down, I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down...
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...
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