*Autumn*
After Lorie and Kevin leave, me and Howie walk over to the bar and I watch him do a few things. He looks so cute washing the few glasses that are left over from us and he keeps pushing his hair behind his ears, something I find totally irresistible for some reason. Although I am in to watching Howie I am thinking about Tre and what Lorie found out. -I really hope Tre isn't doing something stupid right now. Howie is right, there is no commitment between her and AJ, but man she likes him so much and I know he knows it too-I am thinking to myself when I hear Howie "Earth to Autumn, are you there?" I snap out of it and realize he's been trying to get my attention for a few minutes now "Sorry Howie, I was thinking about Tre. What were you saying?" He smiles at me and comes over and sits down beside me "I know you are worried about her and how she is going to feel when she finds out where AJ was tonight..let alone what he was doing, but she really can't get too mad at him and besides now she is out with one of his best friends." I know he made a good point about Tre being out with Nick, but she wouldn't be out with Nick if AJ would of showed up like he said he was going to. I was going to say this but decided I really didn't feel like arguing with him, he is going to stick up for AJ and I'm going to stick up for Tre so it really doesn't matter what either one of us say to each other, it's all down to them two. "You are right she is with Nick and I hope she is having a blast." I tell him and smile. He smiles back and gets up and goes in back. When he comes back he has some papers in his hands and he starts turning off the lights in the club. I take this as a sign that it is time to go...don't have to hit me over the head with a brick, I get the hint. "Well Howie, it was great talking to you tonight." "It was great talking with you to Autumn, even if there was a little conflict." I smile knowing he is talking about our little disagreement about AJ and Tre. We walk out and he locks up and he, like the gentlemen he is, walks me to my car. I unlock it and am about to get in when I feel his hand on my arm. "Wait Autumn, there is something I would like to ask you." I turn around and look at him and he smiles at me "I was wondering what you were doing tomorrow night. I don't have to work and if you don't either, I was hoping you would go to dinner with me." He asks this and all of a sudden I can feel my stomach start to turn like it is on a roller coaster because of how excited and shocked I am that he asked me out. I smile and look into his eyes "I don't have to work tomorrow night and I would love to go out with you." I can see the lights reflecting in his eyes and they make them look like he has stars in them. He smiles at me "Ok, great how about I pick you up around 6:30 and we can go to this Italian restaurant I know, they have great food." "That sounds fine Howie." "Ok then, until tomorrow at 6:30" "Until tomorrow then." I say this and smile and he bends down and gives me a soft gentle kiss on the lips "Until tomorrow" and then he walks off to his car. I get in my car but am unable to take my gaze away from Howie's retreating form. I watch him get into his car but notice he isn't leaving but has started his car. I realize that he might just be waiting for me to leave so he can make sure I am ok so I start my car and pull out and head for home. I look into my rearview mirror and see him pull out of the parking lot and head in the opposite direction. I get to the motel room and go inside. I see that neither Tre or Lorie are back yet and in the dark make my way to the bathroom to get ready for bed. I can still feel the kiss Howie gave me and it brings a smile to my face. I lay down and again my thoughts go to Tre and I am hoping she isn't doing anything stupid. I also am thinking about Lorie and I hope she is having the time of her life. The last thoughts of the day for me were of Howie and the kiss I can still feel and the date that was happening tomorrow night. I can say that I most likely fell asleep with a wonderful smile on my face and thoughts of Howie in my mind.
*Tre*
I am wiping off my few last tables and really not in a very good mood since AJ didn't even bother to show up like he said he was going to, when I hear someone approaching, I look up and it's Nick. When I started liking BSB Nick was this tall awkward teenager but now I can't believe how gorgeous he is, not as gorgeous as AJ, but gorgeous anyway. I smile at him and he flashes me the 'Carter' grin, that smile really does get to you and makes you feel it is just for you-I think to myself. "Hey Tre, having fun yet?" he asks me and sits down on a chair that I haven't put up on a table yet. "Ha Ha Nick, yea loads of it, wanna help?" He laughs at me "Uh, no thanks, really. I'll just sit here and watch." "Gee thanks Carter." He laughs at me when he sees me roll my eyes and hears the sarcasm in my voice. I finally get done wiping off my last table and look over to where Lorie's section was and see her walking away towards Autumn. -Well looks like it is time for the date with Kevin, I hope it goes great for her-I think to myself. Nick gets up off the stool and lets me put it on top of the table and then we start to talk. "Hey Tre, umm I was wondering if you would like to go to a after bar party with me?" I hear him ask this and I am in shock. Here I was waiting for AJ and he blows me off and now Nick is asking me out. I decide that I will go with Nick, so that I am not sitting around the motel room thinking about AJ and getting either depressed or mad, I haven't decided which one I should feel yet. "Yea Nick I would love to go with you. Give me a few so I can finish up with what I have to do here and then we can leave, ok?" "Yea sure Tre. I'll be here and when your finished we'll take off" "Ok, great. Be right back." I walk away from him and put my towel behind the bar and grab a tray so I can stack all the ash trays to put them away. It doesn't take long so in just a few minutes I am done and ready to take off. I look around to tell Autumn and Lorie what I am doing but I don't see either one so I just walk up to Nick and tell him I am ready to go. We walk out of the bar and head towards his car. It's gotten a little chilly out and Nick notices me shiver so he takes off his jacket and puts it over my shoulder "Thank you Nick. I didn't know it was supposed to get so chilly or I would of brought a jacket." "Your welcome Tre, don't worry about it I'm not all that cold." I smile at him -wow such a sweet guy-I think as he opens his door for me. -well Aj opened the door for me too and I thought he was a sweet guy but look at tonight, he blew me off-I think to myself as Nick lets himself in to the drivers side. He starts the car and the tape player comes on at full blast and I practically jump out of my skin. He laughs and turns it down "Sorry about that, my fav Journey song came on right before I got out when I got here." I laugh because I remember all the stuff on web sites about how much Nick loved Steve Perry's voice "It's ok Nick, it just shocked me" We pull out of the parking lot and after about 15 minutes of driving I ask him where we are going. "To a friends house. He has great after bar parties and I haven't been able to go to one for a while and thought it would be fun to go. That's cool, right?" "Yea Nick that sounds like fun to me." "Ok great, don't want to do anything you aren't up for." "Oh I'm all up for drinking tonight Nick, trust me." I tell him this and look out the window so he can't see the tears that were forming in my eyes. I know I shouldn't feel as hurt as I do about AJ blowing me off, but I really fell fast for him after the other night and it hurt that obviously he didn't feel the same. Maybe Nick will be different-I think when we pull into this huge house where you can definitely tell there is a party going on. Cars are everywhere, the music is shaking the windows of the car let alone the ones on the house. "Here we are" Nick announces and I look at him with a 'no shit sherlock' look on my face and he just laughs. He takes my hand and we head into the house. The place is wall to wall people. I am holding on to Nicks hand for fear of getting separated from him cause I don't think I would be able to find him again no matter how tall or good looking he is. We go right for the drinks and he hands me a beer and I open it and practically guzzle it. He looks at me with a shocked expression and I just smile and shrug my shoulders and he laughs. After we've been there for about 2 hours him and I are both feeling the effects of the beer we've drank. We head outside to a balcony that for some reason has no one on it and I hop up on the stone ledge. Nick walks over to me and stands against my legs and takes my face in his hands and kisses me. At first I don't know what to do, I mean this is Nick Carter and it is also a best friend of AJ plus it is the second backstreet boy I will be kissing. It actually doesn't take me very long to react, I guess the beer and the rejection I felt by AJ took over, and I put my arms around Nicks neck and we ended up making out for a while. We decided to take ourselves away from the party and going over to Nicks place. ( I know Nick doesn't live in Orlando, but in my story he does :-)) We leave the party after he finds his friend and we tell him good bye. We drive to his house in complete silence. Well except for the little voice in my head screaming at me to stop what I was doing with Nick and go home, but I wasn't listening to it. I want Nick and I am going to get Nick whether the little voice liked it or not. We pull up to his house and it is a beautiful house and it's a huge house. He opens the door and instead of giving me a tour of his house he heads me towards the one room that will suit our purpose...his bedroom. I would usually feel bad about myself if someone did that but tonight I didn't care, I wanted to feel better about myself after AJ not showing up so I didn't think about it. We get to his bed and it is a king size bed that is entirely too big for just one person. Nick comes over to me and starts to kiss my neck and move his hands up and down my back. I wrap my fingers in his soft blonde hair and just enjoy. I move away slightly from him and let him know that I want to take his shirt off, he lifts his arms up and I slip it off and throw it on the floor. I look at his chest and decide that I really need to kiss it so I do. As I'm doing this I move him towards the bed and make him lay down. Before he does he lets me know that he wants me to remove my shirt so he takes mine off. He is also happy to see that I am not wearing a bra underneath it. He touches me and I groan at his touch and I start to kiss him again. I am enjoying what he and I are doing immensely when all of a sudden that voice comes back and reminds me of my feelings for AJ and it also lets me know that AJ and I didn't get anywhere near this point when we went out the first time. Nick turns me over to where he is now on top of me and he is kissing me anywhere and everywhere that doesn't have clothing on it, I am trying to shut out the voice but it is not working and I am getting very frustrated. Everything Nick is doing feels awesome and he is doing all the right things but I keep thinking about how I want AJ to be doing this not Nick. Finally I can't take the voice anymore and I decide I can't do this anymore, even tho I really want to "Nick wait stop. You have to stop, I can't do this" He stops and looks at me with shock in his gorgeous blue eyes. "What do you mean you can't do this? This feels damn right to me Tre. I want you I find you gorgeous and sweet, this isn't just for the sex Tre, I want to get to know you" "OH gosh, don't say that Nick. I like you and I find you attractive and you are a sweetheart but I am so totally into AJ that this just doesn't feel right. I shouldn't of let it get this far. I am soo sorry." He rolls off me and I get up and grab my shirt and button my pants-damn I didn't even realize he did that-I think. I can hear his breathing going back to almost normal when all of a sudden he gets up and stands in front of me and grabs my shoulders "You know something Tre. I like you and I know you like AJ but do you actually really know where AJ was tonight? Huh?" I look at him and I can see in his eyes the anger he is feeling and I feel really bad about what I did. "No Nick I don't know where AJ is tonight. Please don't be angry at me. I didn't mean to lead you on. I am just upset that Aj didn't show up and I guess I wanted to feel needed and liked. I am sorry, please don't hate me." I say this and I try to walk away but he has my shoulders to tight. "Nick please let me go and take me home." "No." He says to me looking me straight in the eyes. "No?" "Yea no. I want to tell you where your precious little AJ is right now and what he has been doing tonight." I know I didn't like the sound of that and I didn't want to hear it, but I have a feeling I have no choice but to listen. He lets go of my shoulders and grabs his shirt and puts it on. He opens the curtains and the sky is so clear that the moon adds more light to the room then the little light from the lamp on the night stand and with the added light I can see a mixture of anger and hurt in his eyes when he turns around and looks at me and gives me a smile that makes my heart drop "Your precious AJ was supposed to come and see you tonight, right?" I nod yes to him. "Well right before we all left Lisa, his ex, called and said she needed to see him. Well he told us that he had to go and see her and also told us not to tell you where he went." He tells me this and I sit down in shock. I can't believe AJ did this. He left me hanging to go see a girl he told me he didn't want anything to do with anymore? What's going on? "Oh and I guarantee you that he won't be spending the night at his house tonight. So while your here saying no to sleeping with me because of your feeling for him, he's getting some from his ex girlfriend." After he says that he walks out of the room and I follow him. The tears are forming but not flowing freely yet. "How can you tell me this Nick? I mean I know I hurt you by letting it get that far and I'm sorry but why would you tell me this to hurt me?" I ask his back because he won't turn and look at me. I hear him let out a laugh "Tell you this to hurt you? No Tre, I am telling you this because it is the truth. Oh wait I can prove it to you." He walks over to a phone and picks it up. He dials a number and listens while it rings. He motions for me to come over and listen and I do, curious to who he was calling. I hear a woman answer the phone a little sleepily. "Hello?" "Hey Lisa, I was wondering if AJ was still there?" "Uh yea Nick he is but he's sleeping. Want me to wake him?" I hear her say this and I start to feel weak in the knee's. I can't believe he did this. The tears that were forming were now flowing freely and I walk away. I hear Nick tell her no not to wake him he'll talk to him tomorrow and hang up. I turn around and look at him not believing that he would do such a thing to me, but then I didn't believe him and that was the way he decided to prove to me that AJ blew me off to be with another girl. "Nick could you please take me home?" I ask him. I can tell he feels bad now that he's seen my tears and maybe wishes he didn't do that but he nods and grabs his car keys. We get to the car and he takes me home. We don't say a word to each other cause I guess, really, what is there to say after all that. We get to the motel and I start to get out when he touches my arm "Tre?" I really don't want to look at him but turn around "Yea?" "I'm sorry I got mad and did that, it wasn't right to hurt you like that." I can tell he means it but right now I feel like crap so I just nod and get out of the car. I open the room door and turn around and watch him leave. I walk in and straight into the bathroom and close the door. I turn on the shower to hide the sound of my tears so I don't wake up Lorie and Autumn. After a good cry I get ready for bed and leave the bathroom. It is almost daylight and I can see that Lorie made it home after her date with Kevin and I smile and hope she had a great time. I look over to Autumn and she is asleep with this goofy smile on her face and I had to laugh, I guess she had fun with Howie tonight. I lay down and even though I am very tired, sleep doesn't come easily to me tonight. All I keep hearing in my head is Lisa asking Nick if he wanted her to wake up AJ so he could talk to him. I start to cry again and stare out the window and watch the light take over from the dark. Sometime before the light controlled the city again I fell asleep, but was still hearing Lisa's voice in my head.
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