~@~ Chapter 10 ~@~

The next day I woke up pretty early, (it was about 4 a.m.) I don't know why...normally. I sleep till, well, mostly till 11 AM.

I went downstairs to eat something and afterwards I watched some TV, it didn't take long or I felt asleep.

Chrissie came down and woke me up, she didn't really wake me up, and she leaded me upstairs to my room. After that she went to work. I really have no idea what time it was, I just fell back asleep.

"Hey sleepyhead, wake up." The most beautiful voice whispered in my ear. I slowly opened my eyes and looked in the sky-blue eyes of Nick.

"Hi sweetie, how are you?"

"Nick?"

"Yeah, it's me..."

"What are you doing here?"

"I'm here to show you just how much I love you..."

"What?"

"I came home two days earlier to be with you. They've added two more appearances, I left the boys with the problems..."

"You didn’t."

"No you're right, they know I went home for you, my family still doesn't know so I have two days to be with you, alone. If you want?" I couldn't believe my ears!

"Here, think about it." And he handed me a glass with champagne in it. I didn't saw it before, guess I was still too sleepy, but I know I didn't have to think that much about what he just asked.

"Sure I want to do that."

"What?"

"I wanna spend some time with you... alone." He just watched me and smiled, then he leaned forward to me.

"Love you."

"Love you more." And we kissed...

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A couple of hours later we left. Where to? I really didn't know yet.

"Where are we going to?"

"You'll see, you'll love it... I hope."

"Okay... I'll wait then..." His eyes went back on the road, I just watched outside and saw everything pass by. My mind strayed off. I started to doubt about everything... About Nick and me especially. What if our relation will pass, just like everything else? I don't want that... if I meet someone I want it to be for the rest of my life...

Everyone wants that, right? So do I. But does Nick want the same? What does he expect from me? Am I just a flirt? Questions, questions, all without an answer... What if? No I have to stop with all these questions... What is meant to be, is meant to be and will happen. I just hope it's nothing bad...

"Here we are!"

"What? Where?"

"Look around." Sand nothing else then sand and… water!

"We’re on the beach!"

"Yeah… aren’t you gonna step out of the car?" I just watched… I used to hate the beach, but since I live in Florida I don’t do anything else anymore…

Every week I went to the beach, it’s been awhile now. The last time was… I guess, the last week before Nick left. The day before he left, we also went to the beach and we stayed there till the sunset. Maybe that’s what we’re gonna do today.

I stepped out of the car, full of amazement. It wasn’t the first time and yet it was different… It was quiet, and yeah, I was here with Nick, maybe that made a difference... He came to me and took my hand.

"Come on, or are you just gonna stand here and watch?" He pulled me onto the beach and we walked to the water. He held me closer, with his hand around my waist and mine around his. On a rock we sat down and watched the weaves without saying a word...

The silence remained me to my brother, I tried not to think that much about him. And it worked, since I met Nick I didn't think about him anymore, well yes on his birthday I did... The silence... I think it's horrible to be dead, nothing else then silence.

Eight years from today, one year before I met Nick... He died, I never got over it and I don't think Nick knows I had a brother who was one year older then me. Maybe it was time to tell him, but I'll ruin this romantic sphere... I decided to wait.

Like Nick felt my feelings, he held me closer then before. "What's the matter, Faith? Don't you like it here, we can go back if you want..."

"No! I love it here, and I wanna stay. Just hold me close to you and I'll be fine..." He did, but he didn't really know why, you could tell that on the way he looked at me when I said that. I just tried to relax.

I needed that. I laid my head against his chest and closed my eyes. He laid his head on mine and we watched the sun go down...

"Are you better now?"

"What? Why do you ask?"

"I don't know, I think something is bothering you... Is it because of what I did?" I looked up, right in his eyes.

"No, definitely not. It's just... You know what? I'll tell you someday, but not now... I don't wanna ruin this day. It's the best day I ever had with you, so don't let me ruin it, not for you, not for me, not for us... okay?"

"Okay, I guess, but one thing. Promise me you will tell it... someday, okay?"

"Yeah, I promise..." It was like our relation didn't exist about anything but promises, no that's not right. Two promises, that's not that much, there are couples who do a lot more promises a day. But anyway, if I promise something, I make sure I keep myself on that promise...

It's just not the right time. It was already dark, but we didn't move. We stayed there till the sun came up. We didn't fall asleep; we talked about everything and anything, but not about our families, only about us. This was our day...