Chapter 8

The next morning we got up pretty early and went right away to the mall so we had the whole day. (Nick still hasn’t call me, or even wrote a letter…)

"Faith, what do you think of this shirt? Better then the first?"

"Yeah, I love it!! You should buy it, it looks so good on you!" And we bought it, together with dozens of other clothes, for Chrissie, but also for me, and I guess I had the most…

That didn’t really bother me, we had a great time. I was broke right now, but you’ve got to do something, don’t you?

I can’t just go to the mall and buy anything, that’s so not me! It was about noon already and we went to the McDonald’s to eat something and also just for talking.

It was different without AJ here; it just wasn’t the same. Hope it will get back to normal after they returned.

Except maybe for Nick and me. "Faith?"

"Huh, yeah, I’m here… half."

"Yeah, thought that already. What are you thinking about?"

"Nothing, I won’t think about it again, okay?"

"That doesn’t bother me, I just wanna know what you were thinking about. McDonald’s… does this place remind you about Nick or something?" I didn’t answer her question and went to the bathroom; Chrissie didn’t really understand why I ran away so quickly.

I started to cry, why did everything remind me about Nick? I miss him so much, I can’t live without him. AJ always cheered me up, now he wasn’t here and he couldn’t cheer me up.

AJ and I went to the same school when we were younger, actually, we know each other from kindergarten. He introduced me to Nick and Howie, and when they were with five boys, they formed the group Backstreet Boys.

Brian and Kevin, they were, and still are so nice, from the first time I met them. This place, it all remained me to Nick, AJ or someone else from the Backstreet Boys. I thank AJ for the day he introduced me to Nick.

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It was already more then 7 years ago. I can’t believe it’s already so long ago, I still remember that day if it was yesterday. We were both so young and didn’t really know what to say to each other. I was pretty shy and I guess he was too. But when we went to my place, and he saw I had a Nintendo, he came loose.

He couldn’t stop talking, we had so much in comment. Since then he always came to me with his problems and I tried to help him. I couldn’t stop crying… why did it hurt so much? I went back to Chrissie and tried to cover my tears.

"Can we go now?"

"Sure Faith, but why?"

"I’ll tell you someday, but I think you already know…" She nodded her head and we left.

We didn’t say anything to each other. I was mad at myself, why did I have to destroy her day? And I guess Chrissie didn’t really know how to react.

When we got home I ran upstairs and Chrissie went, I guess, to the kitchen. I went lying on my bed and cried, after a while I fell asleep. The phone rang, and Chrissie answered it, knowing I was still asleep.

"Hello? Chrissie here."

"Chrissie, it’s me, Nick. I can’t talk long, but is Faith there?"

"No, Nick. Can I ask you one thing?"

"Sure, guess I already know what."

"Why didn’t you call sooner?"

"I’ll say it to Faith as soon as I got the change. I don’t think you’ll understand, and if you did, you would say it wrong to Faith. I promise. I’ll call you back tomorrow and I will tell everything to Faith. But in the mean time, just tell her that I love her. No matter what will happen. Also tell her that I kept my promise. She’ll understand."

"Okay, I wrote it all down, and I will say it to her, okay. Something else, Nick?"

"Yeah?"

"I’m sorry if I judged you the wrong way. I thought it was over between you two, you know. You’ve never called her or anything, you didn’t even send her a letter. Sorry."

"I understand and I don’t mind. It’s my own fault… I got to go now. Make sure you give the message to Faith."

"I will, bye Nick."

"Bye, and Chrissie… thanks."

"No problem." And she hung up. She didn’t come upstairs to wake me up, she just let me sleep, she would tell me when I woke up…