Chapter 10

I had came back home after being in the hills with Fudge again. It had been almost a few months since I been back home. I laughed as Fudge practically dragged me inside the place as I turned the key in the front door, which meant I couldn’t shut the door behind me. We were both soaking wet since it was raining like hell.

“Fudge, you’re gonna be a dead dog when I get you.”

I was still smiling affectionately, you think that I would hurt my baby?! Think again. I noticed my answerphone flashing so I pressed on the button as I slid off my jacket. I heard Ashley in this tone of panic in her voice. It wasn’t her tone that made my smile disappear. It was her message of a warning; giving me a heads up. I turned around intending to hang my coat on the coat hanger and to shut the front door but I stopped mid way when I saw him standing at the doorway staring at me.

It was as if words escaped from my throat. I couldn’t make any sound as he shut the front door behind him and he approached me. I stepped back each time he stepped forward. Shortly, I felt my back pressed against the wall. I looked down but I felt his hand lifting my chin up, causing me to look at his face. Was it full of pain? I didn’t think of anything else as I felt his lips touching mine softly. I placed my right hand on his left shoulder to push him away but the feel of his lips distracted me.

He begged me for entrance of my mouth and I guess you could say my emotions took over as I gave him permission. I was so confused to why he was here kissing me. Ashley’s message was that Mark found out my home address and that he was on the way over here. She just gave me the heads up, which was a tad too late because I was kissing him!!! He pulled me close to him, I moaned as I felt his hands all over me, caressing me in places I never knew I had. He slid his jacket off and I helped. He lifted me suddenly, causing me to wrap my legs around his waist. He asked me between kisses where my room was so I directed him.

He stumbled a few times but he managed to make it to my room. He put me on my bed carefully and shut my bedroom door so that Fudge wouldn’t interrupt us. I bit my lower lip as he approached me and he laid me down on my bed and started kissing me gently. Have you ever been to heaven and back with your soul mate and you were alive the whole time? That what it felt like to me. It was actually my first time but he made it fantastic. I fell asleep in his arms shortly afterwards.

I woke up the next morning feeling incredibly sore, I turned on my side to find the bed was empty. I tugged the covers up to my chin and felt the tears sprang to my eyes again. I knew that he went back to London. So he just used me. I was just a one-night stand to him? I buried my face in my pillow – bad idea. I could smell his scent. I ran towards the bathroom and had a long hot shower where I cried for being stupid.

I had to change my bed covers since my blood was on there. I winced as I got dressed, jaysus now I know why the first time experiences hurt like hell. I couldn’t phone Ashley because I was so embarrassed at my behaviour. I know she wouldn’t say anything but still. I threw my bed covers into the washing machine and fiddled about with the knob. I felt my anger rise from being used like a piece of meat. I growled under my breath as I clenched my fists. I went over to my hi-fi and yanked the volume button to full. The rock CD that was currently in helped my anger so I just danced it away. I felt like punching Mark for what he done to me.

It had been almost 3 months that I last saw Mark. I was currently in my bathroom staring at a test that I had done. I was speechless and not to mention shocked. I stayed that way for about half-hour before I went out to the hallway and I dialled Ashley’s number but I got her voicemail so I hanged up. I then called Miriam. Who answered after a second ring.

“Hi.”

I greeted softly but she heard me and yammered to me non-stop. She was excited but was also concerned since Mark never told her what happened after visiting me. I could tell by the tone of her voice. I asked her if she could come down with Ashley soon as possible because I needed to tell them something really important. She said yes of course. Which only made her more concerned and slightly afraid of what the hell happened 3 months ago. She asked me how did I manage to cope on my own all these months. To be honest I have no idea how I did. Shortly, we both hanged up. I made my way to my kitchen and threw the test in the bin.

It was hours later – pretty late at night but I didn’t mind because Ashley and Miriam came running in startling me. I was in my pyjamas sipping my hot chocolate curled up before a nice toasty fire. We talked for awhile. They updated me on what was happening with the guys. Annett was dating Bryan, Sylvana was dating Nix, and Shay was dating Kelly a nurse at the hospital. Turned out she was my nurse when I was in a coma. Go figure. Anyway, Kian and Ashley was sort of dating. They were on and off. Lou was still with Mark, which made me look down at the floor. I told them the next two words that they had never expected to hear in their whole lives. I think I just gave them mini heart attacks. When I told them, I heard a gasp behind me and I turned to see the lads except Mark. They had followed the girls. I groaned softly as I buried my face in a cushion. They had just heard my confession.

“I’m pregnant.”