Well, what are you really supposed to do when your heart shatters?
How am I supposed to get used to being without the one I loved for over two years? (and still do)
How am I supposed to not miss him? And his laugh? His smile? His arms?
It was the hardest thing in the world. It still is. But I'm breathing. I keep breathing.

I hate cliches, and I don't believe in them. So I haven't said any to myself.
The sad truth is, my world fell apart. My new year started and I was sad. I was devastated. I was wordless.

So I made up my own rules.
Say goodbye, Julie. (even if you don't mean it)
Go to music lessons.
Think.

That's what I'm doing. But it's hard, it's very hard. I don't have a choice though. Sink or swim. So I'll keep paddling and waiting. That's all I can do.

I will try to work on my site when I can, but it's really not my number one concern right now. So thank you for visiting, and for caring.
I'll be back soon.