Author's Note:When Mulder was gone for those seven months. How did Scully feel. How did she deal with her emotions.

Scully opened the car door and got into the driver's seat. Something didn't feel right about driving the car. Mulder always drove while she sat in the passenger's seat and they discussed cases and work. She started the car and then started to pull out.

As she drove she turned on the radio. All of a sudden the song Where Ever Go started to play. As the words I can hear your voice on the land, but it doesn't stop the pain played Scully felt tears coming down her cheeks. What kind of painful experiments were they doing to him?

She pulled the car over and put her hands over her eyes and cried. She couldn't stop the tears. For the last few weeks since she had been working on the X-files with her new partner. She hadn't cried. She had blocked her emotions and wouldn't let them show through.

But know they were all unraveling, and no matter how much she tried to fight them, they only came harder. She touched her belly. Before he had been taken they were trying for a miracle. Now that it finally happened he wasn't there to share it with her. To share in the joys, the sorrows, and the fears with her. She had been left alone.

In the beginning she blamed him for leaving her alone pregnant with their child. But now she had forgiven him, and all she wanted was for him to come home to her in one piece. Every time she thought of him, she kept thinking that as each second goes by he is missing more and more of her life and his own.

How would she be able to tell their child about him, if he never came back? She didn't want anything without him. Nothing meant anything without him. Everything was nothing without him. She loved him so much. Right before he left they had just started their relationship and it was so awkward and different for her. But know she realized it was wonderful and good. She couldn't remember about all of the traditions and rules about marriage anymore. She knew that love was all they needed, but without Mulder she was the only one loving and not recieving his love.

Everything that he had ever done that had hurt her was forgiven. It didn't matter anymore. All that mattered was bringing him back, bringing him home to her and their unborn child so they could start their family. But she never knew if that would happen. She cried and cried as the song finished.

She walked into the FBI building and walked down the hallway she had walked so many times. The hallway that took her to Mulder, but now it only took her down to an office with so many memories and emotions that overwelmed her.\

She walked into the office. She stood frozen as she stared at the desk. She memorized every grain. She stared at his nameplate. She picked it up and held it to her chest. She felt warm tears on her cheeks. She opened the drawer and put it in to it. Then she closed it. It took all of her strength to put it away. She felt like she had just let him go. But how could she? He was everything to her. He was her strengh, her courage, her love.

She sat up in the chair and stared at the I Want To Believe poster. So much had happened in the last seven years. The odds of death and conspiracies threatened to pull them away from each other, but they managed to stay together and remain close through it all. They had already overcome so much.

But she didn't know if they could overcome this. So much more was at stake this time. So much more could be lost. Scully couldn't take anymore tears. Everyone was sad that she was left alone pregnant. She couldn't take anymore of it.

Everytime she looked at something that reminded her of Mulder she felt guilt, pain, and fear inside. She felt guilty for not being able to protect, she felt his pain, and she felt the fear the she had for his life.

She pulled the nameplate out and put it back on the desk. She got up from the desk and walked out of the room. She took one more glance at his office. She knew then that she would find him, that she needed to find him. She walked out of the building to her car. Everything that they had ever done that hurt one another was forgotten, and forgiven.