i swallow the last bit of sanity inside
saving the pain for a future time
a place in my heart that feels incomplete
waiting for the chance that two souls may meet
it's only a dream
it's only a wish
it's only my mind
playing tricks
it's only by wanting
it's only by hoping
it's only by dreaming
that you care
i can't take away what i've done in the past
nor can i release myself from this bondage
i pray every night that i'll be free to live
instead you put back on my worn shackles
if this is seeing
if this is breathing
if this is living
let me die
if this is trust
if this is affection
if this is love
take it back
i plead without mercy that you shall be kind
open your heart to the choices you've made
we've all made mistakes, some more than others
why now must you crucify me for mine?