posted 06-06-2000 03:47 PM
Okay so I have a meeting thing in about an hour now and I'm really panicing, so of course I put on Restless and hmm, now I'm posting to take my mind off it and I always scribble notes when I'm nervous (in the absence of being able to doodle)....so just ignore me okay 
Notes On Restless In Context Of S4:
Season Themes:
Who are you?
Belonging.
Knowledge/Learning.
Giles Dream: Olivia is pregnant and pushing an empty pushchair (mother figure?) telling Giles to take it easy on Buffy, Giles tells her that its his business. Giles hypnotising Buffy - "Stop thinking". Giles concerned that his role as watcher actively tries to prevent Buffy having a normal life. "Look into the light" and do not question values which have been in place since the dawn of time (Pangs??)Primal Slayer never had a watcher - watcher as civilising or uncivilising force? Character development during season focusing mostly on his age - pocket watch, Spike tells him he's "wasting time"....
Who are you? - Watcher/father (ie. A New Man)
Belonging - age, running out of time
knowledge - questioning his own values - "A little old fashioned?" were the Watcher's right with the dawn of time stuff?
Xander's Dream: "It's all about the journey." He's behind everyone else. Being judged in the bathroom incident (i.e. Yoko Factor fight). Divided self with ice cream van X looking on at protecting guy Xander. "Society had certain rules and an end zone", questions Willow when she says she is ahead of him "Is that so?" Refers to Anya as 'my demon' just after trying to persuade her not to take up vanegeace again. Who does he want to take vengeance on (family?). Buffy's playing in the sandbox (life/adult world?), he says its too big and you can't protect yourself (fear?).
Who are you? - comprador/soldier/whipping boy and watcher/brother/protector/burden
Belonging - born in the basement. empty swing. opening the door to his father is "not the way out"
Knowledge - he can't understand Giles and Anya (Giles eating an apple, symbol for knowledge?). He "knows what's up there" when he looks towards the door. But he still can't stop it.
Buffy's Dream: Who are you - Are Slayer's human (Adam before he was a demon can't remember his name, also Riley's nickname 'killer')
Belonging - In the real world, "The Slayer does not walk in this world.
learning - "We are alone", "We don't do this anymore." She's "asking the wrong questions."
Willow's Dream: Who are you - "Everyone's starting to wonder about you. The real you"
Belonging - stepping on everyone's cues (a burden), "Is there something wrong with me?" She doesn't want to leave Tara's room because she's afraid???? And why Death of a salesman/Madame Butterfly????
Learning - Truth, about herself, revealing the truth to others. It seems she doesn't really know who she is herself.
TIME - Willow's LATE for drama class - Xander is playing catch up and 'hasn't got much TIME' - Giles has his pocket watch and is "wasting time" - Buffy's CLOCK is wrong - ????
Oh god, half an hour. I am calm, I'm not nervous at all. Its fine, its gonna be fine, its just a little meeting type thing....they're not gonna say anything bad right? Okay, leaving now (ARGGH!)