My name is Christina, and I'm a perfectionist.. I want everything to be perfect in my life.. Including myself... But doesn't everybody?.. Once upon a time, there was a girl who believed in being nice to everyone, being friends with everybody, and being the sweetest and most caring girl anyone could ever meet.. Once upon a time, this girl was the smartest, the nicest, the best that she could ever be... Once upon a time, this girl had many friends, had a carefree life to live... Once upon a time, my a**... Reality check: I was that girl.. I've been in this world nineteen years now, and I want to know why I feel like there is nothing satisfactual that I do.. I am polite, but not the sweetest.. I had lots of friends till they f*cked me over at my high school graduation, forever f*cking up my natural ability to trust in people, period.. I was smart once upon a time; now my brain feels like jell-o.. I used to care about everyone and everything- now that care is limited to the people who are actually in my life.. I used to be carefree- now, I worry myself sh*tless day in, day out... College is boring.. An "A" in philosophy and just about everything else I take.. whoop*dee*doo... Work is boring... I've excelled about everything there is to do at that job.. Everything seems to be boring; however, this site is my newly-found excitement... and I'm thankful that I have everything that I do.. That's a fact.. But there'll always be a yearning for something more... That's who I am.. And that's how I want it to be...




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