November 30, 2000

Why does this song echo in my head still?
You are long gone and 
'You've moved on and I still feel exactly the same, 
Steel and granite reminders, 
City calls your name and I cant move on...'
How many promises will I continue to make to myself?
And how many will I continue to break?
I've lost track of the time, the day, the weeks now...
So soon a precious dream gone
Nothing makes sense anymore,
My mind still contemplates the decisions it has made
And makes still.
I have nothing and nothing and nothing ever more
With an outstretched arm I still have here
Heart in hand 
Don't let it fall into the waters now...
I'll drown my love
Kill me more.
The memories spiral downwards with no one to save.
Running around in this forest of confusion only hurts my feet
And gives me blisters.