Chapter 13 As soon as Justin heard Lance leave for his lab, he got up and out of bed. He couldn't believe he had done something so impulsive as tell Lance that way. He knew Lance had thought he was asleep. Justin also knew that once he had said what he had did, Lance hadn't gone back to sleep. Why couldn't he just tell him outright how he felt? Well, how did he feel? for one, he thought Lance was hot. He wasn't that gorgeous supermodel kind of hot, but he was still hot. With those eyes and damn that voice. Okay, so we have established I find him attractive, but what else is there. He considered Lance a friend. A good friend. In fact, he thought he was just as close to him as he was to Josh and he had  known Josh for years now. So we established the friend thing that is necessary for any relationship to work, but did he like Lance as more than a friend. Justin sat at his desk playing with his notebook. After a few moments of thinking, he whispered, "Hell, yeah." As Lance went through his day, he kept thinking back on what happened the night before. Had Justin been asleep or awake? Why had he said what he had? With his mind so focused on Justin, he barely paid attention in any of his classes. By the time his last class ended, he was ready to sit down and talk everything out with Justin. When he returned back to the dorm, he went straight up to there room, but Justin was nowhere to be found. Lance threw his backpack on the bed, and sat at his desk. He would wait there all night if he had to, but Justin and he would talk. Lance didn't have to wait long. About half an hour after he got home, Justin walked into the room bouncing his basketball. When he saw Lance sitting at his desk, he stopped bouncing the ball and walked over to his bed sitting down. There was a few awkward moments of silence before both of them spoke at the same. Justin motioned for Lance to go first. "Justin, I think we need to talk." Justin nodded. "Yeah, I think we do." Lance got up and walked over to Justin sitting next to him on the bed. He thought the direct approach would be the best way to handle the situation. "Last night you were talking in your sleep again, and you said something." Justin looked down at the ball that he still held in his hands. Maybe he should just tell Lance he hadn't been talking in his sleep. No.. Yes... Damn it.. just tell him...."Lance, about that..." "What about it?" When Justin didn't continue speaking focusing on his basketball Lance grabbed it from him and put it on the floor. "Justin, just tell me. Whatever it is I won't get mad or not be your friend anymore." Justin sighed looking up at Lance before whispering, "I wasn't asleep last night when I talked to you." Justin stood up and walked over to the door. "I like you, Lance. Even though everything I have ever been taught says liking you is wrong. I still like you. I have from that first day." Lance got up from Justin's bed and walked over to the younger man. He couldn't believe that Justin like him too. He wanted to reach out and take Justin in his arms, but he could see that Justin was still bothered by his feelings. He remembered experiencing the same confusion when he first discovered he was gay. He would be here for Justin. He knew he could wait forever for this man to be with him. Reaching out, Lance touched Justin's cheek. "I like you, too, Justin. Have from day one. Never thought in a million years you would feel the same. I thought you were straight. Thought you had Britney." Justin shook his head. "Britney was.. I don't know what that was. Ask Josh. We never understood that. We sort of grew up together. Everyone sort of expected us to be together, so that is what we did." Lance nodded. "I can see that. What about you and Josh?" Justin sighed as he moved away from Lance. "That.. that.. was weird, Lance. We have known each other for half our lives. I think we knew each other too well. We kissed once, and I swear to you it felt like I was kissing my brother. That was it. We decided to just be friends." Lance wondered what kissing Justin would be like. If Justin would feel the same about kissing him. Just as he was about to walk over to Justin and find out there was a knock on the door. 'Damn it,' Lance inwardly cursed. He walked over to the door and opened it to find Chris. "Dorm meeting, guys. Coming to it?" Lance turned to Justin who shrugged his shoulders. "Yeah, we'll be down in a minute. " Closing the door, he turned back to Justin but he knew the moment was broken. changes 12 menu changes 14