Chapter 33 Lance walked into the dark dorm to find Justin sound asleep on his bed. Dropping his own backpack on Justin's bed where Justin had placed his own bags, Lance moved over to the bed and lay beside Justin. He softly ran his fingers through Justin's curls. The slight movement did not go unnoticed by Justin as he turned in his slumber towards Lance putting his arm around his waist.  Lance lowered his head so that it was laying on top of Justin's head. Both boys were soon fast asleep. A few hours later, Justin woke up. He smiled when he opened his eyes to find Lance asleep next to him. He let his fingers travel slowly under the hem of Lance's t-shirt tickling along his ribs and up higher to graze against a nipple. Lance moaned in his sleep, and Justin smiled again. He and Lance hadn't done more than kiss and a few random touches. The times where more could have happened, someone had interrupted them or Lance had stopped them. Lance was worried that Justin was still confused about what he was and what he wanted. Until today, Justin had been confused.He didn't know if he had done the right thing telling his mom about himself and then Lance. In that one action, he had lost his mother's love, but then he had seen Lance standing on his mother's porch trying to heal that rift that had been built between he and his mother. In that moment, all his confusion had faded away, and he knew that this was his life. To be with Lance was all he wanted. Justin pressed soft kisses along Lance's jawline and lower down to the spot just below his ear.Moving down to his neck, he felt Lance's moan vibrate against his lips. Looking up, he chuckled lightly, when he saw Lance's eyes flutter open. "Hey, baby." Lance smiled. Justin had never called him that before, but he could definitely get used to it. Reaching up, he let his fingers trace Justin's jawline to the back of neck where he pulled him down so there lips could meet. Justin moved so that he lay on top of Lance reaching down and lifting Lance's shirt.     Lance broke the kiss and still Justin's hands. "Baby, what are you doing?" Justin didn't speak. Just shrugged his shoulders, and moved his hands away. He moved to sit up whispering, "I'm sorry." Lance grabbed his hand and pulled him back down onto the bed, but Justin turned away from Lance. He felt the tears come to his eyes, but brushed them away quickly. He had thought Lance would be happy. "Justin, you have nothing to be sorry about. I was just surprised is all.' Justin sighed as he turned back towards Lance, but he still couldn't look him in the eye. "I understand if you don't want me Lance. My mom doesn't want me anymore either." Lance reached out and pulled Justin into his arms. "Justin, why wouldn't I want you anymore? I love you, and that isn't going to change at all." Lance sighed as he let his hand move down Justin's back. "I just don't want to rush things between us. We've only been together a short time, and before then you didn't even know you were gay. I'm afraid one day you'll wake up and realize you aren't." Justin moved back from Lance shaking his head. "Lance that isn't going to happen. I love you, and what you did tried to do today with my mom I will always remember." "I had to try. I thought she would be different, but I could see she was just as bad as my own parents.I wanted to save you from that kind of pain, but I couldn't. I hate that I am the cause of it to. Maybe if you hadn't of met me, things would be different for you right now." Justin sighed. "Yeah, they would be. I'd be miserable. I would still be lying to myself, and I wouldn't have you, Lance. So I'm here, and I am not going anywhere." changes 32 menu changes 34