PAINFUL TIMES
Characters:
Tarantella Full name: Tarantella Caster. Facts: Golden-blond, deep-blue eyes, 22 years old, born Mars 28, 1978, 170 cm tall. Brian's girlfriend, lives next door to Nick, Tampa, Florida.
June Full name: June Omega Facts: Blond, blue eyes, 171 cm tall, about 21-23 years old, born June 17, got two sisters (22 and 20 years old), singer.
Shirley Full name: Shirley-Jean Mary Dale Facts: Redhead, grey eyes, 175 cm tall, 16 years old, born January 7 1984, Nick's best female friend, daughter to Anne and Harvey Dale, lives in Tampa, Florida.
Kathleen Full name: Kathleen Beth Hart Facts: Brunette, brown eyes, 173 cm tall, 19 years old, born November 23 1980, Nick's girlfriend #1, lives in Tampa, Florida.
Ahsley Full name: Ashley Simpson Facts: Blond, blue eyes, 167 cm tall, 17 years old, born May 3 1983, Nick's girlfriend #2, lives in Oxford, England.
Sarah Full name: Sarah Mark Facts: Brunette, brown eyes, 167 cm tall, 20 years old, born July 20 1980, daughter to Clara Mark, lives in Tampa, Florida.
Mathilda Full name: Mathilda Svensson Facts: Brunette, blue eyes, 169 cm tall, 15 years old, born August 6 1984, owns doberman Alex, husky Milady, rottweiler Baby and cat Romeo.
Kevin Full name: Kevin Scott Richardson Facts: Dark brown hair, green eyes, 187 cm tall, 27 years old, born October 3 1972, Backstreet Boy, Kristin's boyfriend, lives in Orlando, Florida.
Howie Full name: Howard Dwanie Dorough Facts: Dark brown hair, brown eyes, 168 cm tall, 26 years old, born August 22 1973, Backstreet Boy, Claudia's boyfriend, lives in Orlando, Florida.
Brian Full name: Brian Thomas Littrell Facts: Dirty blond, blue eyes, 173 cm tall, 25 years old, born February 20 1975, Nick's best male friend, Backstreet Boy, Tarantella's boyfriend, lives in Orlando, Florida.
A.J. Full name: Alexander James McLean Facts: Colored oilish blue green hair (dark brown hair), brown eyes, 177 cm tall, 22 years old, born January 9 1978, Backstreet Boy, lives in Orlando, Florida.
Nick Full name: Nicholas Gene Carter Facts: Blond, blue eyes, 190 cm tall, 20 years old, born January 28 1980, Backstreet Boy, Kathleen's, Ashley's and Jenny's boyfriend, Shirley's best friend, lives in Tampa, Florida, next door to Tarantella.
July 27 2000 (Thursday)
A.J. walked over to her and laid his hand on her shoulder.
- A.J.? June turned around, What are you doing in here?
- Do you want me to leave? He smiled.
- Let me see, she said and looked at him, I'm taking a shower, well... no, I'm done...
- Can I kiss you?
- What? she laughed.
- Can I?
- I don't know, she smiled.
He nodded.
It was quiet for a while.
- You aren't going to kiss me? She smiled.
- If you are uncomfortable with it I am too, he said and looked her in the eyes.
- You are so just saying that, she smiled and kissed him on the cheek.
- Trust me on this one, it's true, he smiled.
- Sure it is, she said and putted on a robe, sure it is...
- It is! He smiled.
She nodded and left the bathroom.
- A.J.? Tarantella opened the door.
- WHAT?
- Where are you? She hissed.
- He's in the bathroom, June turned off the TV, he'll be out... Tarantella?!
- Joan! she smiled.
- Eh...
- Sorry, June...
- What are you yelling about? A.J. walked out from the bathroom in a robe, Oh... Do you two know each other?
- Yeah, Tarantella said and looked at him, We are cousins.
- What?! A.J. looked at Tarantella and then at June.
- We are, June got up from the couch, Tarantella Caster and I are cousins, her father is my uncle.
- I saw your show, Tarantella smiled and gave June a hug, You are good.
- Thank you, she smiled, What are you doing here?
- I'm Brian's girlfriend...
- What? She looked at A.J., You said her name was Tara...
- Well we call her that...
- It's okay, Tarantella smiled, Anyway, I was wondering when you guys have your next interview...
- At twelve...
- And what time is it? June smiled.
- Two minutes to twelve, he said and looked at his watch, SHIT!
Tarantella and June just smirked when he started pulling out clothes.
- WOULD YOU TWO STOP THAT! He turned around, Either help me or leave!
- You are going to be late anyway...
- Better late than never, A.J. muttered.
July 28 2000 (Friday)
- So what did you think about the show? A.J. smiled.
- It was good, and you are right, you are five, she smiled.
- What? We are? He laughed, I thought I had lost my ability to count.
- Stop that, she smiled.
- Okay...
- You know what? She smiled.
- What?
- There's a party tonight...
- I know, I'm going.
- You are?
- No, I'm gonna sit her all night being bored to death, he smirked.
- Anyway, she rolled her eyes, I was thinking, how about if we go together?
- Together? As in a couple?
- No A.J., really? If you put a guy and a gal together what does that make?
- A guy and a gal? He smiled.
- Okay, now you are being dumb on purpose...
- No! I'm like this normally!
- Shut up! She threw a pillow at him.
- Sorry, he smiled.
- But are we?
- If you wanna I'm not gonna say no, he smiled, Who wouldn't wanna go with the most beautiful woman on earth?
- Who are you talking about now? She smiled.
- Kenny?
- Right... Kenny is a 8 year old cartooned kid...
- I know, 'South Park', he smiled.
- So I'm not the only one watching it? She smiled.
- Nope.
- Good, I felt kind of odd there for a while, she smiled.
- Could you zip me up? June turned around.
- Sure, A.J. smiled.
- Thanks, she turned around again, what do you think?
She was wearing a dress with a fire pattern that started in wine-red and ended in light pink.
- You look really nice, he smiled.
- Thank you, she smiled and kissed him on the cheek, Shall we go?
- We are just gonna wait for the guys, he smiled.
- Are Brian and Tarantella coming?
- I don't know, they had a fight today... again...
- I know, she said and looked at him, She's always been like that...
July 29 2000 (Saturday)
- Forget that last night ever happened, she said and looked him in the eyes, For both of our sakes.
He looked at her, she was completely serious.
- Okay, he said after a while, I will try...
- Good, she smiled and hugged him, Thank you.
- For what? He said and hugged her back.
- For being a friend, she smiled, I really needed someone I could trust...
- Ditto, he smiled.
It was quiet for a while.
- Miss Omega? Tim opened the door.
A.J. let go of her and took a step back.
- Yes? She looked at him.
- Time to go now.
- Oh, she nodded, I'll be right down.
- Okay, he left them alone.
- So, A.J. looked at her, there is no us?
- No, she said and looked him in the eyes, it's better this way...
- Why?
- No, she shook her head, it's better if you don't know...
- I'll always be there for you if you need me, he said and stroke her cheek.
- And I'll always be there for you, she smiled and gave him one last kiss, Bye.
- Bye, he said and let her leave even though he wanted her to stay.
- Maybe I'll see you some day, she smiled.
- I think we will, he smiled back.
- Miss Omega? Tim gave her an annoyed look.
- I'm coming, she muttered and left the room.
August 8 2000 (Tuesday)
- A.J.? Tarantella looked at him.
- Yeah? he looked surprised at her.
- June wanted me to give this to you, she said and handed him a CD.
- Thank you, he said and looked at it.
- It's her latest, it was released today, she left him alone again.
- 'Don't try to change me', he read and smiled.
- What did she give you? Shirley looked at him from the seat in front of his.
- Her latest record, he smiled.
- Oh? Shirley smiled, Can we hear it? I'm sick and tired of hearing Ricky Martin by now you see.
- Sure, he smiled and gave her the CD.
- Thanks, she smiled and got up, GUYS! I don't care if you so are in love with Ricky Martin, I'm gonna play June Omega now!
- Not again! Howie protested.
- Not 'Forgive me' or 'I need to be free', her new one, Shirley said and changed CD's.
- But that was released today, weren't it? Kevin looked at her.
- It was, Tarantella sighed, but I got it yesterday, she sent it too me, to give it to A.J., I just forgot about it till now...
- I can't believe that you two are cousins, Nick started, I mean, you are so...
"When I look into your eyes
I see a love that's still inflamed
Even though my heart is as cold as ice
Still I know I'm not the one who's to blame"
- We are so what?
- SHUT UP! Kevin protested, We are trying to listen here, fight some other time.
"And you ask me
Do you ever think about what we two could be?
And I say to you
It happens, cause it do
Do I thik about you?
It happens, yes it do
Do I dream about you?
It happens, oh it actually do"
A.J. smiled by the sound of her voice, he really missed her.
"It makes you a bit glad
But still a bit sad
Do I think about you?
It happens, yes it do
Do I dream about you?
It happens, oh it actually do
I guess you are happy to know
You never got forgotten somehow
I know you are sad
Cause you regret it so bad"
Howie looked at Tarantella, Nick was right, they were alike in looks but not in how they acted. Tarantella was way bitchier than June ever had been, at least to him.
"But I don't regret not taking you back
Cause I know that I'm now on the right track
Do I think about you?
It happens, yes it do
Do I dream about you?
It happens, oh it actually do
Do I think about you?
I happens, yes it do
Do I dream about you?
It happens, oh it actually do
I guess you are happy to know
You never got forgotten somehow
I know you are sad
Cause you regret it so bad
Do I think about you?
It happnes, yes it, it do
Do I dream about you?
It happens, oh it actually do
Have I ever wondered what we could have been?
It happens, but back then you were so mean
Have I ever asked my heart if I did a mistake?
It happens, but I know I did right cause there's no heartache
Do I think about you?
It happens, yes it do..."
A.J. smiled and opened the little book and started reading it. Most of the lyrics where there, he looked at the lyrics for 'Judgement day', he had already seen the video. She had borrowed Nevermore in it, cause she needed a raven that would sit down on her shoulder and sit there until it was told otherwise. He had actually been there when they had started shooting it, and they were in it too, not in a major part or anything but they were there, all the Backstreet Boys.
"Should we look at what we really do?
What you are doing to me
What I am doing to you
No, this is the way it should be
Two careless hearts
We are two careless hearts
We won't change for no one
We are just two careless hearts
To each other we will always do"
A.J. smiled and moved on in the book.
"They tell us to slow down
Think about what we've done
But we just do what's good for our own
I don't say that I'll always be your hun
We are two careless hearts
We won't change for no one
We are just two careless hearts
To each other we will always do
Careless hearts playing a game
We both know its name"
The pictures made him stop and look at them one more time, especially the one with Nevermore. She was standing by the edge of a lake in a forest with Nevermore on her right shoulder and a white dove on her left.
"You and me, me and you
To each other we will always do
Cause we are two careless hearts"
He looked at it for a while, she was wearing a wine-red dress, its shape reminded him of the one she had worn at that party. He knew that people thought that they were a couple because they had went there together, and for a day and a night they had been a couple, but that had been all.
"We are always going to be
Maybe not together
Maybe not you and me
And surly not forever
Two careless hearts
We both know the deal
None of this is for real
We are just two careless hearts"
He went on to the thanks, he was more than surprised when he found his name there.
"This album I would like to dedicate to Sarah, I never knew you but if I had I know we would have been really close friends. And for this album I'd first of all would like to thank the fans for all their love and support. Then, I wanna thank my family, all of you, wherever you are. I'd like to thank everyone I've worked with, you are to many to all be named. I'd like to thank Nevermore (is this the first thanks in history someone thanks an animal?), he was also nice to work with. And thanks to Nick for letting me use him. Thanks to the Backstreet Boys, Kevin, Howie, Brian, A.J. and Nick, I hope that you guys will keep it up for a long time more. Actually I would like to thank A.J. especially, I meant what I promised you. Love June Omega"
August 9 2000 (Wednesday)
- A.J. there are rumors about you and June Omega having a relationship, the reproter said, Would you like to say if it's true or not?
- I wish! He smiled, No, we aren't. Although Brian's girlfriend is her cousin but that's the clostest any the Backstreet Boys have come to becoming June Omega's boyfriend. The truth is that June and me are friends, and we have shared a hotel room once, but that was it. There's been nothing going on between us, don't worry. I'm single.
The reporter seemed pleased with the answer and sat down again. A.J. sighed when he thought about what really had happened with June, he still hadn't found out why she wouldn't tell him why their relationship had been something so impossible. He had thought it would have been perfect.
August 10 2000 (Thursday)
- I've done it! Nick smiled when he walked in to the room.
- What? The others looked at him.
"This is a stupid game
And it's me who they blame
Well I'm sorry that I'm here
I'm sorry that I won't show you any fear"
- I've broken up with Ashley and Kathleen, he smiled.
"Let's turn it around
Let's see how you like to be bound
It's a stupid game
But don't you put me to blame"
- You did what? Shirley got up, But... weren't you going to keep one of them?
"A stupid game right from the start
And we play it with my heart
Let's turn it around
Let's see how you like to be bound
It's a stupid game
But don't you put me to blame"
- I was but then I thought that since I really didn't love anyone of them, he smiled, It's for the best for all of us... but Kathleen is gonna kick my ass when I get home.
"I won't give up in this fight
Cause I know I'm right
This is a stupid game
And it's me who you blame
But let's
Let's turn it around
Let's see how you like to be bound
It's a stupid game
But don't you put me to blame
How do you feel now?
Told you it was a stupid game from the start
Tell me how is it now?
This time we play it with your heart
Let's turn it around
Let's see how you like to be bound
It's a stupid game
But don't you put me to blame"
- Thank you, Shirley smiled and hugged him.
- You are more than welcome, he smiled and hugged back.
"It's a stupid game that's all it is
But a kiss is still a kiss
Don't put me to blame
I didn't wanna play this stupid game
Let's, yeah, let's turn it around..."
- I guess I was wrong about you then, Mathilda smiled, maybe you aren't such a sleaze anyway...
- Thank you, he smiled ang gave her a hug too.
- I don't get a hug? Kevin smirked.
- If you wanna, Nick smiled.
August 11 2000 (Friday)
Nick looked at her, she was so peaceful when she was asleep. The only thing he was a little bit annoyed about was that she had hung her foot out over the edge of the bed.
He slowly walked over and putted it in under the cover again, he knew that she didn't have a problem with the little thought of gremlins coming and biting the toes off but he did. He looked at Shirley for a while. He didn't hate A.J. anymore, and he knew why. If it hadn't been for June Omega he would probably never have broken up with any of his girlfriends.
He leaned down and kissed Shirley on the lips and got up. He looked at her one last time before he left the room to go to the interview.
August 17 2000 (Thursday)
Nick and Shirley stared at Brian.
- You broke up with Tarantella?
Brian nodded.
- Oh my god! Shirley got up, Why? I mean, what made you do it?
- I couldn't hold her back anymore, Brian said and sat down on their bed.
- And she's gone home now? Nick looked at him.
- Yes.
- You are going to see her every day, Shirley said seriously to Nick.
- I know, he rolled his eyes, But why didn't you break up with her sooner? I mean, she's not the nicest girl on the planet...
- Cause I love her, that's why! Brian hissed, It's just...
- She didn't love you? Shirley looked at him.
- Apparently, he mumbled.
- I'm sorry, Shirley hugged him.
- It's okay, I'll survive.
- Guys! A.J. opened the door, Less than a week left! We gotta go now anyway... why is everyone so sad?
- Brian and Tarantella broke up, Nick looked at A.J.
- Oh, but that's... bad? A.J. walked over and looked at him.
- I'll survive.
August 23 2000 (Wednesday)
"I'm all empty
Completely empty
There's nothing left
I gave you all I had"
A.J. looked at the clouds, they were finally going home, and he was going to rest for about two, three weeks until they were going on tour again.
"Empty that's what I am
Not lonely, not sad, not happy either
I'm just empty
There's no other feeling
I'm just completely empty
I'm all empty
Completely empty
There's nothing left
I gave you all I had"
The one thing he couldn't forget was June. His only link to her when she left was Tarantella, and now she and Brian had broken up and there was no way that he'd be able to get a hold of her.
"I'm all empty
Completely empty
There's nothing left
I gave you all I had
Used to be full of thoughts
Now I'm all empty
The opinions used to be plenty
Now I'm just empty"
A.J. sighed, she had told him to forget it all, but he couldn't. He had really tried, but the memories just wouldn't go away. It hurt to tell fans or the press, or anyone for that matter, that there never had been anything else between then but friendship, cause that wasn't how he wanted it to be. That wasn't how it had been either...
"I'm all empty
Completely empty
There's nothing left
I gave you all I had
Can't give you any more
Cause I'm completely empty
Don't know what I feel for you anymore
I'm just so empty
I'm all empty
Completely empty
There's nothing left
I gave you all I had"
He picked up the magazine that someone had left earlier, some teenage magazine. He looked at it, Britney Spears and June Omega on the front page, from two different pictures of course.
"I'm all empty
Completely empty
There's nothing left
I gave you all I had
I'm feeling so, so empty
My thoughts used to be many
But now I'm just empty"
He just shook his head, June really didn't like Britney at all. Page 12 to 14 was all about June and Britney.
"I'm empty
Completely empty
There's nothing left
I gave you all I had
And I gave you all I had
That was all I could do
All I had was for you
And now I'm all empty
So, so, so empty"
He turned to page 12.
"June Omega was offered an unknown sum for doing a duet with Britney Spears on a song, but she turned it down. She didn't wanna work with 'Someone who's half plastic, half brainless bimbo and is suffering from a serious lack of talent'."
He smirked, Britney had been more than willing to work with her even though all the mean things June was saying about her. He kept on reading.
"June Omega is currently working on a video for 'A stupid game' in Orlando, Florida. 'It's going to be a vampire-attic thing over it' June smiles 'It's going to be fun, really fun.'"
August 24 2000 (Thursday)
- Where's my teeth? June looked at the makeup artist.
- I don't know...
- I have to have my vampire teeth!
- We'll find them, don't worry, and there's always another couple...
- Okay, June sat down again, This costume is too tight... I mean, I like tight, but this is just too much...
- JUNE, VISITOR!
- Oh, June got up, I'll be right back...
- Fine, the makeup artist sighed.
June hurried over to the guard.
- Where?
- I'm right here, A.J. smiled.
- Oh my god! A.J.! She smiled and hugged him, What are you doing here?
- Just thought that I might wanna visit a friend of mine, he smiled and hugged her back, and I brought someone too...
- Oh? The guys?
- Nope, A.J. uncovered the cage.
- Nevermore! She smiled and opened the cage, Come here, come...
A.J. looked at her and smiled, he had missed her really much, and he had been a bit afraid that she wouldn't wanna see him again. He could see that people on the set looked at him a bit odd, they thought that he and June was a couple, he knew they did.
- You have no idea how glad I am, she smiled and kissed A.J. on the cheek, We had one trained raven and we were trying to find another but we couldn't find any... and now you come with Nevermore!
- I'm happy to help, he smiled.
June went over to her trailer followed by A.J.
- And here's where I live at the moment, she smiled.
- Hope it isn't too bad, he said and looked at her.
- It's okay, she sighed, Are you staying the night?
- What?
- We've slept in the same bed before, and it's a big bed too...
- June, he looked at her, what happened... I've been trying to forget it but... I can't, and I don't wanna forget it.
She looked at him for a while.
- There can't be a us, A.J., there's no way...
- But it would be so right...
- No, it would be so wrong.
- But it feels right, and it can't be wrong. If two people love each other then it's right...
- You know, she looked at him, I've been getting letters from fans, they don't really like the rumors...
- Your fans?
- No, yours. My fans were upset but they didn't care that much. Some of your fans threatened to kill me.
- Oh, that's great, he rolled his eyes, They'll accept it, I know they will...
- I don't think that they will, she sighed, I'm sorry, but I don't.
It was quiet for a while.
- Maybe it's better if I go home for tonight, he said.
- I guess so, she nodded.
He opened the door and was just about to step out.
- How about Nevermore? She looked at him.
- You can have him here for a while, send him back when you are done or somehting... Tarantella is Nick's neighbor...
- I know, she told me.
He nodded and left.
August 25 2000 (Friday)
Nick opened the door.
- Tarantella, he said surprised, hi...
- Hi, she said coldly, is A.J. here?
- Well, actually he is...
- Good, your stupid bird is at my place, with a note to him. Would you please get it now?
- Um, sure, Nick mumbled.
A.J. looked at a note. It was from June, he recognized her handwriting, they'd spend so little time together but still he had memorized her hand writing.
- Well, Nick looked at him, are you going to read it or not?
- I am, he muttered.
He opened the envelope and read it.
"I'm sorry but you don't even know my real name... /June Omega"
- What? Nick said impatiently, What is it saying?
- Nothing special, he said and got up, I'm leaving now, okay?
- Sure, but...
- Bye Nick, see you later...
- Okay, Nick said confused.
A.J. went out and hurried over to Tarantella's house. He knocked on the door.
- What? She opened the door and gave him an angry look.
- I know you don't like me, he started, but... you are June's cousin...
- Yes.
- What's her real name?
- Well it isn't June Omega, she sighed and rolled her eyes.
- What is it?
- It's Joan Lady. And her sisters aren't named April and May, it's Andrea and Mary.
- I could have guessed that... but why?
- Cause she didn't want her family to be pulled in to the whole music industry, that's why. Are you done yet?
- I guess I am... or...
- What?
- Is she your younger or older cousin?
- She's my younger cousin.
- Exactly how old is she?
- You slept with her didn't you? Tarantella looked at him for a while.
- No I didn't, he lied.
- Okay. Well, Andrea is 22, Mary is 20... um... Joan is 16 years old.
- What?!
- You did sleep with her, Tarantella said, Done yet or do I have to stand her all day?
- She's 16? I thought she was lik 20, 21, maybe even 22 years old...
- Well she's not, and it wasn't her biggest wish to become a celebrity either. Her mother completely gave her away to the whole big shit, Tarantella hissed, That's why she's pertty mad all the time. She's always been testy but she's become like ten times worse.
August 26 2000 (Saturday)
Lesley picked up the phone.
- Hello?
- Hi, my name is Anne Dale, I'm Shirley-Jean's mother...
- Oh, do you wanna talk to Nick?
- Yes please.
- Okay, wait a second.
- Thank you.
It took a few seconds before Nick took the phone.
- Hi, it's Nick.
- Hi, it's Anne, Shirley-Jean's mother, could you please come over?
- Sure, what's happen?
- Shirley... she's locked her herself up in her room, she won't let me in... I know you're her best friend... Can you come and talk to her? It's really serious...
- Of course, I'll be right there.
- Thank you.
Anne knocked on Shirley's door.
- Shirley?
- Go away!
- Shirley, Nick said, would you please let me in?
- No...
- Please Shirl, please?
She didn't answer him.
- Shirl? Nick looked worried at the door.
Shirley opened the door and let Nick come in.
- What did you do? He looked at the room.
- I just...
- My god! Mrs. Dale! Get some small towels or something! Shirley! Why?
She didn't answer him.
- It will be alright, he mumbled and tried to stop the bleeding from her wrist.
- Please don't Nick... I don't wanna live anymore...
- You are going to live, he said.
- Here you go Nick... Shirley! Anne gasped, What have you done?
- Call for an ambulance, Nick said and wired the towel around Shirley's wrist.
- No, Shirley mumbled, I don't want to...
Shirley slowly opened her eyes. It was all white and awfully bright.
- Where am I? She mumbled.
- At the hospital, Nick answered.
- No, Shirley sighed, I don't want to...
- Shirl, why did you ever do something like that? he looked at her.
- I thought... mabye Sarah was right... Maybe there's no reason to live... there isn't for me...
- What? He took her hand, Shirley, if you don't wanna live for your sake, then would you please live for my sake? I don't wanna loose another friend, especially not my best friend...
She didn't answer him, she just looked him in the eyes.
August 30 2000 (Wednesday)
- Come on Shirl, Nick smiled, This will be fun, okay?
- I don't know, she mumbled but sat down in the car with him anyway.
- Ready to go then? Kevin smiled.
- To June Omega's concert, Nick smiled, yupp. Let's go!
"What will come in our lives?
How are we going to live?
Listen to the wind
It will tell you every little sin
It will tell you about the glory
Listen to the wind, it tells our story
Hush baby, be quiet now
I wanna hear our story
So try to be quiet somehow
I wanna hear about our every little sin
I wanna hear about the glory
Hush baby, so I can listen to the wind
It tells our story
Listen to the wind
It will tellyou every little sin
It will tell you all about the glory
Listen to the wind, it tells our story"
She smiled and stopped dancing.
"Hush, hush, hush
Just try to be quiet for me
Hush, hush, hush
Let me know how it all will be
Listen to the wind
It will tell you every little sin
It will tell you all about the glory
Listen to the wind, it tells our story
Hush, hush, hush
Try to be silent for my sake
Hush, hush, hush
I wanna know what kind of decisions I will make"
June smiled and started dancing again.
"Hush, hush, hush
Hush, baby, hush
Listen to the wind
It will tell you every little sin
It will tell you all about the glory
Listen to the wind, it tells our story"
She stopped dancing and walked out to the edge of the stage.
"Hush, baby, let me listen
Let me listen to the wind
I wanna know our every little sin
I wanna know about the glory
Let me listen to the wind, it tells our story"
She smiled.
- Will you all calm down for a while, she smiled, hush! Come on!
After a while the fans at least tried to be quiet.
- Thank you, she smiled, I'm gonna preform a song, it won't come out on any CD, it won't be played anywhere else, this is the only time I'll do it. It's called 'My baby is gone' and it's my cousin that wrote it. She doesn't sing herself so she asked me to sing it for her to her ex boyfriend. I can't guarantee that he is in the audience tonight, but I hope he is.
She looked at them.
"My baby is gone
Mabye he was the one
I should have treated my baby right
I shouldn't have started all those fights
My baby is gone
And now I'm all alone
He was the one fighting for our sake
His heart was too easy to break"
She slowly walked on the stage, looking at the audience, hoping that he was there.
"Didn't mean to hurt you
Still that was the way it went
Do you miss me too?
My baby was like an angel that heaven sent
I miss my boy
Sorry that I treated you like a toy
My baby is gone
And now I'm all alone
He was the one fighting for our sake
His heart was too easy to break
My baby is gone
And now I'm all alone
He was the one fighting for our sake
His heart was too easy to break"
She stopped and looked at A.J. with a smile.
"An angel in heart
An angel in soul
Didn't mean to hurt you
Still that was the way it went
Do you miss me too?
My baby was like an angel that heaven sent"
She looked at Brian who was sitting two seats away from A.J.
"My baby is gone
And now I'm all alone
He was the one fighting for our sake
His heart was too easy to break
My angel is gone
My baby and angel is all alone
My baby is gone
And now I'm all alone
He was the one fighting for our sake
His heart was too easy to break
Should have treated my baby right
Shouldn't have started all those fights
Didn't mean to hurt you
Still that was the way it went
Do you miss me too?
My baby was like an angel that heaven sent
My angel is gone
Maybe he was the one"
She nodded to Brian.
"My baby is gone
And now I'm all alone
He was the one fighting for our sake
His heart was too easy to break
My baby is gone
And now I'm all alone
He was the one fighting for our sake
His heart was too easy to break
Didn't mean to hurt you
Still that was the way it went
Do you miss me too?
My baby was like an angel that heaven sent"
She stopped and smiled.
- We are lucky, she said, he is here tonight.
She walked away from the edge and over to the dancers.
"Forgive and forget
That's all I've done in my life yet
Forget and forgive
That's how I used to live
Easier said that done
Especially when all the love is gone
I put my trust in you
But you used me
And my trust, oh you abused it
Don't come crying now
Forgive and forget
That's all I've done in my life yet
Forget and forgive
That's how I used to live"
She stopped dancing and walked over to the edge of the stage.
"Forgive and forget
Forget and fogive
That was how I used to live
Forgive and forget
That's all I've done yet
Forget and forgive
That's how I used to live
Now I'm changing it all
This is going to be your fall"
She smiled and went back to the dance routine.
"Forgive and forget
That's all I've done yet
Forget and forgive
That's how I used to live
Don't come crying now
Don't think that I'll forgive you somehow
Forgive and forget
Forget and forgive
Forgive and forget
That's all I've done yet
Forget and forgive
That's how I used to live
But no more
No more forgiving
And no more forgetting
Forgive and forget
That's all I've done yet
Forget and forgive
That's how I used to live"
She smiled as the music changed.
"The tears will come
But not cause of you
The tears will come
But not because of what you do
I'll cry, I know I will
But they don't be for you
No more, no they never will
The tears will come but not for you
The tears will come
But not cause of you
The tears will come
But not because of what you do"
She went on with the dance routine while A.J. sat there, really confused.
"The tears will come
But not, no not because of you
The tears will come
But not because of what you do
I am free now
Still the tears will come somehow
But they won't be for you
They won't come cause of what you do
The tears will come
But not cause of you
The tears will come
But not because what you do"
She smiled and went to the other side of the stage.
"Won't take you back to me
That's not how it's going to be
Cause now I'm free, free
And I did it all for me
You belong to the past"
A.J. looked at Shirley and then at Kevin. They both seemed unaware of what June, or Joan as she really was named, had said to Brian. He looked past Shirley and Nick and looked at Brian. Brian was as confused as could be.
"No more tears for you
The tears will come but not for you
The tears will come
But not cause of you
The tears will come
But not because of what you do"
June sat down on the edge and looked at Shirley.
"A sad little story
This is a sad little story
I'm gonna tell you a sad little story
The sad little story is about a girl
In the sad little story she looses her best friend
I know it's sad, but it gets worse
The sad little story tells she lost her will to live
Don't tell me to stop this is how the story goes
A sad little story
This is a sad little story
I'm gonna tell you a sad little story
And it's all about me"
Shirley knew it wasn't, she knew this story. Every single little thing that happened in this song had happened to her, it was her story.
"As the sad little story goes on the little girl falls in love
But this is a sad little story and the boy don't even know that she exist
I know, I know, it's a sad little story
The sad little story tells that she gave her heart to this boy
But this is a sad little story...
Don't tell me to stop, this is the way the story goes
A sad little story
This is a sad little story
I'm gonna, I'm gonna tell you a sad little story
And it's all about me
Oh yes, a sad little story, for everyone to hear
A sad little story, for anyone to read
Don't tell me to stop, this is the way the story goes
A sad little story
This is a sad little story
I'm gonna tell you a sad little story
And it's all about me
And it's all about me"
June looked at Shirley's wrists and then at her again.
"As the sad little story goes on the girl forgets
The little girl forgets her best friend
Yes it's sad, but this is a sad little story
Maybe she'll meet her friend again, but probably not
Cause this is a sad little story
Don't tell me to stop, this is how the story goes
A sad little story
This is a sad little story
I'm gonna tell you a sad little story
And it's all about me"
She got up bud didn't move away from the edge, instead she looked at Nick.
"As we turn the page we find it unwritten
It's a sad little story with no certain ending
Don't tell me to go on, this is where it stops
This is a sad little story, but maybe you can change it
Go ahead, take the pen
Write down the end
Of the sad little story
A sad little story
This is a sad little story
I'm gonna tell you a sad little story
And it's all about me
Mm, make it end good
Give the sad story a happy ending
A sad little story
This is a sad little story
I'm gonna tell you a sad little story
And it's all about me"
She didn't smile when she walked away, instead she looked at Nick, then at Shirley, then she just got up and went over to the middle of the stage again.