don’t look at me like you see me
don’t turn your eyes in my direction
when you’re really looking at something else
so that I weep inside knowing that it is not me you see
you could never be doing the one thing I always hoped you would
you could never be mirroring my actions
you could never be looking at me with the same desire I used to have in my eyes
for when my eyes turned to you, a glue held them to your face
and I could never look away from you
but now, finally, I have torn them away
sealed off my heart and closed my eyes from you
it’s too late for you to watch me like I always watched you
I don’t want to ever look into your eyes and see myself reflected back
unless you’re looking at me like you mean it