I've Never Been Satisfied In My Life And Don't Intend To Be.
I told Corey that I feel intelligent today, but in a discontented unhappy way. I wanted to ask Michelle what two things influence her the most and I would then answer the rebuttal with "Music and Novels" because the two never cease to change my mood in moments, however Michelle never turns the question back around on me. That's half her allure.
eat more fysh (9:46:41 AM): What do you want most from your life?
pandoraDC (9:48:28 AM): hmm... that's a very loaded question
eat more fysh (9:49:12 AM): Most of my questions are.
pandoraDC (9:50:23 AM): i suppose i would like the satisfaction of knowing that the choices i make in my life are independent choices. that i wake up because i want to, that i give to others out of the sheer ability to do so freely and willingly, that i switch jobs because it will challenge me to work harder
pandoraDC (9:50:50 AM): and i don't mean that i want to be selfish and do everything out of the benefit of myself, that's not it at all
eat more fysh (9:50:58 AM): I used to know a girl. She was beautiful and claimed she loved me for my mind (so I knew it wasn't my looks) and she would have loved, just once, if I'd asked her a question that had a solid answer. She said that even "Where would you like to eat?" sounded like a challenge when I asked it.
pandoraDC (9:51:41 AM): i just don't want to look back on life and feel that i lived solely through someone else's eyes
eat more fysh (9:52:00 AM): Fiercely independent. I really dig that about you.
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