this is THE carby moment of all time if I've written it correctly.
hmm - if only THIS happened next season.............

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They sat next to each other on a bench by the river. Carter had his arm
draped over the back of the bench behind her. If she only knew the turmoil
he was in, deciding whether or not to drop it down around her shoulders. He
broke the silence.
"This is nice"
Abby smiled to herself, and speaking with her mouth full replied
"mm, nothing like apple pie"
Carter looked at her seriously, and finally putting his arm around her said
"I wasn't talking about the food"

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"This is nice"
"This is more than nice" she thought to herself.
This was what she had waited for for so long. And here she was, sat with his
arm around her, as if nothing had happened. But it had, and she knew it had.
Then all of a sudden, she was scared.
Scared because she knew that her and John were finally going somewhere. The
idea of "them", "us" was no longer some safe distant dream. It was now a
very near reality.
God, she didn't want to mess this up.
She always stuffed things up.
She was here with his arm around her, and she was still the same person -
still the same Abby, still the same demons.
She couldn't mess up. Not this time.
She suddenly realized she had never been so close to having so much to lose.

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You stand up, and for one horrible second I think you're walking away from
me. But you don't, you stand looking at the river. And there you are again,
just like on the roof - battling against unseen demons, hugging yourself as
if against a storm.
I walk up to you, turning you around
"you want to know what I missed about you?" I ask, barely hiding the urgency
in my voice ".....everything"
You're breathing deeply "I asked you why you missed me" you whisper
I don't even hesitate to answer "because I love you"
I'm gripping you by the arms, I've never felt so determined before, so sure
of what I want.
You hesitate, and for a moment I'm scared I've made a terrible mistake -
scared that you're messed up, scared that you don't feel this.
My thoughts are stopped short as you raise your hand and I release your arm.
The back of your hand against my cheek, and then your fingers tracing the
line of my face. Your touch is electric, and the back of my neck tingles.
And your eyes, the way you're looking at me. I can see a mixture of need and
desire. It's a combination of vulnerability and desire that i can't resist.
I let go of your arms, in a desperate action and pull you into me, kissing
you hard. You wrap your arms around my neck, and I move my arms around your
body, resting one on the small of your back, and the other in your hair. Oh
God, this is what I've wanted for so long.
I'm completely lost in you - completely consumed by my passion for you.
I don't want to stop,
I want to stay like this forever.

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All I can think about is how much I need you.
I can't handle this, I can't handle being alone anymore.
You grab me by the arms and swing me round, and I'm overwhelmed. This is
what I want - I want you to kiss me John, I want to feel your arms around
me.
I know you love me - I just want you to kiss me now. I can't wait for this
any longer, you don't know how much I love you, how much I need you.
I move my hand to your face, I want you to see the desire in my eyes, I want
you to see what has been inside me for so long, what you have never seen
before. I'm not ashamed for you to see how much I need you............
And you kiss me.
Your hands are in my hair, round my waist, down my back. There's such relief
in this. I let go of everything around me, wrapping my arms around your neck
- kissing you with all the passion that has been locked up in me for so
long. I can't think, I can't even breathe.
I'm completely lost in you - completely consumed by desire.
I don't want to stop.
I want to stay like this forever.

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END OF CHAPTER 5
Okay - I actually feel tired after writing this!
I know it was pretty intense, but I hope I didn't over do it.

pleeease tell me what you think