Created: June 04, 2003
December 1 | 7:18 pm
Listening: Where Are You Christmas - Faith Hill
I HATE MY MOM.
December 1 | 7:18 pm
Listening: Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous - Good Charlotte
We didn't have classes today. There was supposed to be a typhoon, but ha! It was really, really hot. I was planning on staying home the whole day, but my friend texted me and told me that we were going to take the University of San Carlos entrance test today so I had no choice but to go. I'm glad I went anyway 'cause ***** went.
Oh, and yesterday, I was like,
really happy cause we talked, even if it was just for 10 seconds.
The test was fun, actually. Since I was applying for IT, I only had to take an IQ test and an English test. The others had to take either Science and Math. The English was way too easy. The IQ test was kinda hard, but I had fun answering it. Mind-boggling.
I just hope I pass cause it's the only college I'm applying
for. Some of my classmates are going to CDC tomorrow, but I'm not going cause I am so not applying
for Nursing. Never.
December 1 | 7:18 pm
Listening: Shut Up - Simple Plan
Hey! Happy first day of December! Finally! Just 24 more days until Christmas! Lalalala. Anyway, I've been really busy lately. School, especially Physics, is getting harder and harder. I just can't get myself to even listen to the teacher when she discusses the lesson. When I look around, there are only like 9 or 10 people listening to her, and everybody else is talking, eating, reading and doing other stuff! As for me, I've been reading A LOT. I've been such a book- freak lately. I like read 5 or more books in 2 months or something. It's really amazing. Right now, I'm reading "A Child Called 'It'" by Dave Pelzer. I'm still in the 5th chapter, and so far, it is really gross and harsh and violent. Here's an excerpt:
As soon as they left, she brought out one of Russell's soiled diapers. She smeared the diaper on my face... 'Eat it'... She slammed my face into the diaper, and rubbed it from side to side.
She finally let me go, but only when I agreed that I would vomit for her... I closed my eyes as chunks of red meat spilled into the toilet... Moments later she returned with a small bowl, ordered me to scoop the partially-digested food out of the toilet and put it in the bowl... In front of me was the bowl of hot dogs that I had vomited. 'You can eat this!' I tried to swallow without tasting, until I felt a hand clamp on the back of my head. 'Chew it! Eat it! Eat it all!'
I am so frickin' glad that my mom isn't like that. I mean, I can't imagine myself being in the place of the kid. It's just really awful. One of my brother's friends recommended the book to him, and she said that after reading the book, she hugged her mom. -Awww- I don't think I can do that though. ^^; I can't imagine hugging my mom out of nowhere.
But anyway.. I haven't been going crazy about volleyball lately. I mean I used to like, want to play volleyball every spare time we had, but now I don't even want to play so much anymore. A few friends of mine and me played this lunchtime, and it was fun, but during snacks time, they played and I just chose to stay in the classroom and watch. I don't know what's going on in this head of mine. It's just really weird coz volleyball is like my obsession.
And today I was really pissed at my classmate. It's kinda hard to explain, but I was just really pissed. Maybe jealous, but still pissed. He knew I was really angry at him, and he just kept pushing. I don't know what I really feel for him. It's like halfway between love and like. I just go crazy everytime he talks to me. There was this one time that he "talked" to me, and when I told my bestfriend about it, she said "I should tell him not to talk to you because you always go crazy."
Well, see you soon! Probably on Christmas. =p
November 17 | 6:07 pm
Listening: Welcome To My Life - Simple Plan
I am having the worst day of my life right now. I'm f*cking tired.. My computer's f*cked up. I had to wait for so long to get home. Me and my busmate were complaining like crazy.
I have no idea why I'm so tired. All I did was play jackstones. And a little bit of volleyball. Anyway, we used really huge colorful neon jackstones! They were like at least 3 times as large as normal jackstones. And we used a huge ball, too.. When I looked at the normal sized jackstones, I thought to myself, that must be really easy. They looked like mini-sized to me already.. ^^; I'm getting pretty good at it, anyway. I used to not know how to play it. I tried it when I was in China, but I sucked. Then maybe a month ago, I tried it while I was the assistant teacher of Grade 3 and I still sucked. My friend and I felt pretty ashamed coz we didn't know how to play but the third graders were like experts. But I kept practicing and practicing, and now, I've improved a lot. -wink- Whee! Now I can play 3 sports well! Oh joy. =]
Anyway, the exhibit really sucks. The school's trying so hard to make it amazing and whatever, but no matter what they do, it still sucks. They even made this schedule thing for some students to go to the auditorium and explain the projects. Nobody's even interested. It is so boring. I just can't wait til school's over, honestly. Just 4 more months and I'll be free! Sure I'll miss my friends, but heck, it's much better than having to stay in school all day. I can see my friends anytime, or talk to them anytime I want, but listening to all the discussions in school just drives me crazy. Especially Physics. Even the class genius doesn't understand anymore.
We got our report cards today. My average in the 1st grading was 83.75, and now it's 83.9. It really really sucks. If only my Filipino and Economics grade didn't go down so much, I'd have a really high average. I hate my seat! I need to be somewhere in front so that I can listen better. My seat is just so far away and there are so many distractions around me!
I need to get higher grades. If only I could reach 85, then I'd be really happy. Why can't I be the way I was before? So much has changed in me. I used to always reach for high grades, but now I just dream of getting high grades. I'm not working for it anymore. I need an inspiration. So many things are bringing me down, and I can't seem to escape.