FRIDAY, OCTOBER 22ND, 2004 12:58 AM 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!' Yesterday was the last day of me being 19..i remember when i was 18 i used to die to turn 19 n stay 19 forever.. seems as if i turned 19 like 2-3 months bak..and today i just turned 20... lol. Yesterday was the craziest day i had ina while. I thought about quittin smokin on new years eve but now ive decided to quit starting today. MY BIRTHDAY. so ya on my last day of being 19 i smoked the most joints in a day and drank n took sumthin else and got pretty fuckt over wit sum friends. Ovi did alot to make me happy on that day..and i really appreciate that. Today is my birthday and im buzzed.. my moms working right now but she called to say happy birthday :). Thanx to like the 150 of you that wished me a happy birthday within 2 seconds of my login..and fer the ones callin me n sayin happy bday. u guys r the best. I wish i cud really spend a whole day with all of u guys. It'd be real amazing. My aunt n cuzins n more ppl frum mtl are supposed to be coming down today fer me :D and im gon wear a white shari n take millions of pics n this is the day i become a true woman. im in love with myself. i love everything i do, i love how i think, i love alot of things about me n im juss in love wit me. i wud wanna get married to myself. lol its not the conceited thin goin on i juss think im amazing :) Happy birthday to meeeeeeee :) the big 20 :) Silvia aka bangalibarbie Saturday, October 08th, 2004 Yesterday was a crazy night. i was pretty well gone n i was sittin on top of a restaurant. i called a taxy and told them to pick me up at "optical illusions" wich is right across the restaurant. i watched taxis keep drivin by lookin there..n we were juss sittin n laffing. then i called bak n im like "YO I CALLED FER A TAXI N IVE BEEN WAITIN IN FRONTA OPTICAL ILLUSIONS..I KEEP SEEIN TAXIS DRIVE RIGHT BY ME N THEY DUN STOP!" n the guys like "apperently there was no one there?" im like "im right behind the bars!" n i juss hung up. (there were no bars) then 2 seconds later we see a taxi man come, n he like sits in fronta that place fer 5 mins..then comes out n goes right to the windows n hes checking inside n looking all over..goes bak n sits in his car fer 20 mins.. n were juss across the street watchin him..then went down n walked by him. i sorta felt bad tho, but it was halarious. MYYYYYYYYY PARENTSSSSS bought me a car fer my birthday wich is in 2 weeks!!! i got a ford taurus 96, fully loaded :) sunroof, tinted windows, dual pipes.. leather interior :) ohhhhhhhh it is SEXYYY truss me. its a perfect car fer a lil girl like me. i love them i love them i love them i love my parentssssssss they sooooo niceee i unno whyyyyy. This is the best birthday gift anyone cud ever gimme. Im gon get the car next week and ill take pics n put em up on the site. Sooooo nowww im gonna go help my mommy wit sum stuff she doin. bye Thursday, October 07th, 2004 Got a presentation tomorro n a quiz n i dunno everythin feels wonderfull all of a sudden..i feel like workin at school again n i feel good aboutmyself in sum wierd way < ohhhh i learnt that wierd is spelt weird < i always thoguht it was wierd..isnt that weird? lol. shit i juss realized today my birthdays durin ramadan..guess i wun be havin too much fun :(.. but we changin up the date fer after ramadan :D. Oh n sum of u no that i recently got a divorce, but ive decided i wan stay single for a while. Im not feelin no one right now cuz either all u iz a fag or too dumb n immature. The hot ones r players n the average good ones r all taken. lol. who cares. ohhhhh u guys wanna guess sum puzzles? ya? no? i dun care wat u want im not tellin u puzzles right now i got a presentation to prepare so byeeeee playas n other lil girls like me. i will write bak to u guys whenever the hell i feel like it cuz im the boss. bye ::::::: bangalibarbie aka fubugirl Tuesday, October 05th, 2005 im throwin up like crazy..ive been takin these pills fer the last two days n theyre messing me up :(. i got them frum the dentist. im fallin asleep but im workin on a presentation thas due friday. sum debate.. i got lists of topics..im just searchin up on all of them tryin to see wich topic provides most info..n best info..neways im off.. goodnight oh yeh i might be goin to mtl tomorro not that u guys care but so wat - bye Monday, October 04, 2004 Where is ruhi?? ive been waitin fer her for the last 2 hours cuz i was supposed to meet wit her n sum of her freinds that came down frum mtl. Neways yayaya im goin to the dentist fer get my wisdom tooth taken outtttttttt its hurtin like a bitchhhh. lol i had it fer like a year i juss never bothered wit it but it grew under my gums n its messed up. dun worry ppl i still look cute tho. I ran outta smokes..im home alone..the music got annoyin so i turned it off n now im juss sittin here starin at the screen n typin.. n its freezin outside looks like a hurricanes fuckin comin on sumthin. i dun feel like eatin, dun feel like gettin up, dun feel like listenin to music (thas a first) n i dun feel like talkin on the fone n i dun feel like chattin, i dun feel like sleepin, i dun feel like chillin, i dun feel like takin a bath, i ohhhhh i i i feel like drivin but i got no car till like an hour later.. how am i gonna survive this hour? rd forums dun have much ppl on it cuz its schooltime.. n i stopped bein adicted to that shit finally.. but my life went low after that haha. i dun feel like puttin on nailpolish or doin makeup cuz i did my makeup 2 hours ago when ruhi woke me up. i no..i think ill juss sit bak n stare at the screen sum more. try to fuck up my eyes sum more so i get get prettier glasses than the cover girl ones i already got. :D.. ok mommys bak home, time to go bother her a bit to buy me sum things. byee Saturday, October 02, 2004 i miss they way you made me laff, i miss the way you looked at me, i miss how you told me not do things, i miss the way you held me. i miss how wed talk late night, all night. i miss how every two mins u reminded i how cute i was, i miss how you gave me ur lectures.. lol i miss how you fell asleep on me every night.. i miss how you gave me lil phone kisses. i miss hearin u say ur gangsta, i miss how u used to say i was an ugly baby.. i miss cammin wit u on eyeball... i miss how you made me call u daddy ;) i miss being able to have sumone to talk to.. i miss fightin over lil things. no ones ever gon be here.. like u were, no ones ever gon take me seriously. I loved the way u rapped, i loved ur style. i miss the smell of polo.. lol i still smell it when i walk into places. no one calls me babycakes, cuz no one else is creative. didnt matter to me that you were younger, all that mattered was i feel right wit u. I still dream about you, think about you, try n forget about you, but i cant... cuz im still in love wit you. i wish i had a boy n a boy if it wasnt fer me..today cud have been our anniversary :( Friday, October 01, 2004 Well well well.. its miss Silvia again..munchin on sum honeycombs. Its pretty early still but i only had one class in the mornin n i juss got home. Ruhi came bak frum mtll finally i havent seen the girl in ages n now we gon go shoppin in about few mins..bleh our few mins means another hour. Ohhh and today im goin to Alexandra to look at cars to buy..sorta excited..wud be more if it was a nicer weather. lol. lol uh ok im gonna go show ppl sum problem solvin puzzles not on whiteboard n make em figure em out :) byebye Monday, September 27, 2004 Well im at school in computer class...was doin a bit of science but now they askin to do stuff like washin ur hands n wavin roun n seein wat happensn shit so i cant do that noww so im bored n felt like writing on here. I got loads n loads on my mind. Im doin ok in school at the moment..wednesday im registerin fer hip hop classes..wat else...need to look fer a new job real soon...birthday plans...moving is the biggest part. Actually im not even thinkin much about it right now but goin to montreal frum here is gonna be a big change. I wanna compete in dancing next year. Im tryin to get a car right now..nothin like amazin..juss sumthin good enuf fer me to go by this winter..n if i have a car fer myself itll be better fer me to work sumwhere out of town. Im sittin on a realll comfy computer chair :P. I sorta feel like makin a nice site..but i just have no time..thas why i moved to xanga at the first place so i didnt have to update so much...juss write buncha shit every now n then. Yum my mommy made lasagna fer lunch n 9 more mins till i get to eat it yum :D aight neways im off write to u guys laterr bangalibarbie aka fubugirl Sunday, September 26, 2004 Well the weekend was good. Everything turned out differently than i Expected :) <--- wich means in a very good way. I met up wit few ppl this weekend fer the first time that ive been talkin wit this weekend. I feel goooooooooooood right now i miss sumone alottttt ------> my paki nigga. My birthday is gon be amazingggggggg this year :) ur all invited. got sum messed up planss if u guys wanna join in! neways imo ut n randie u can go lick ur moms fuckin twat. u seriously need to fuckin get a life. keep cravin to post up msges up on here motherfucker.. haha n i didnt take it off cuz of ur comments u fob i took it off cuz ur fuckin life depended on my msg board n i wanted u to die. Id fuckin go to ur funeral n kick the shit out of ur ded body. neways ppllllllllll im off to bed muahhh goodnight n dun let the bed sils bite Tuesday, September 14, 2004 this randee nigger needs a fuckin life. Neways i need science help i dun understand my homework n everyones making me mad. Im gettin no support right now frum no one n i unno juss feelin lonely i guess.. sorry if u msg me on msn n i dun really write nothin bak.. juss lost interest in the comp n everythin else pretty much. i juss need to graduate.. thas my goal fer this year. Saturday, September 11, 2004 Goodmorning ladies and gentlemen. Today i woke up early at like 9:30, usually i wake up round 1 or 2, n now juss cameo ut of the shower. I gotta spend all day on homework :(. Im sorta liking the school this year cuz im excited to finish this year. Anyone no wats a good college in MTL? i didnt hear about any colleges there but i gotta look into one. The only thin that sucks at school is im always not so comfortable.. im always cold and i gotta bring like extra sweaters n shit n fuckin sit in my seat wit like layers of clothin on. Anyways i dun feel like writin here right now.. im gettin bored of chatting n all this website shit. Soooooooo i will see u guys later sumwhere. byebye Monday, August 30, 2004 Allo my people. My chatter box i believe is not working at the moment n i unno why. i shud have known that it was a total fuckin pice of shyt. Ok well most of the time i come on here and i juss write a bit of bullshit n then thas it, i never really tell u guys anythin i did or wat i think or anythin eh. ima start doin that fer u guys. Ok well i went to sleep at 6 am yesterday cuz i kept dreamin bout goin to college (not that i wanna but juss fer sum personal reasons..) juss to be a bit away from home i guess but then i was thinkin bout how id miss my mommies bangali cooking, and drivin her round everywhere n id miss alotta things. I really need to graduate this year cuz i really wanna move.. we thinkin bout moving back to Montreal next summer, but im also thinkin bout movin sumwhere else on my own. I wanna become a hairdresser or a mechanic. lol. laff all u want but i think id be a cute mechanic I wanna get married b4 im 24 n have two sons and live in the city like most of u guys already r at. I feel like doin homework right now..no well i did but not right now.Im drinkin frutopia (fruit punch kind) I only like this one n the orange one n the rest taste like barf. Ohh u no wat i feel like doin right now? I actually feel like reading.. ill prolly look into that tomorro. Well i dunno wat else to say right now, i dun feel like making u guys go to sleep, even tho u guys shud, its almost midnight. You guys r now dismissed. Have a goodnight n dun let the bed sils Bite. Saturday, August 28, 2004 Oh you disgrace to humanity. ok i juss felt like sayin that. shit ppl did u guys watch Master of Disguise? lol the most halarious part is "am i not turtlie enuf fer the turtle club? "Turtlle!" Wednesday, August 25, 2004 Everyone you have to watch Salad fingers. Theres 4 of them is like sum guy on crack who made em lol. its So fuckin good. watch all of them in order :) ENJOY! SERVEY 3 1. What is your full name?: Silvia Kazi 2. Backstreet Boys or N*Sync: Backstreetboyz 3. When was the last time you showered? last night...will again in a while 4. What color pants do you have on right now? pants? no undies? 5. What song are u listening to right now? nothin but i got slow motion stuck in ma head 6. What was the last thing that you said? the last thing i said was.."what was the last thing u said" i read it out..lol 7. What is right next to u? coke, chinese conditioner, remote, cds, candles, cellfone 8. What is your computer desk made of? Wood 9. What are the last 4 digits in your phone number? 9057 10. What was the last thing that you ate?: jalapeno chips wit cream cheese and popsicles 11. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? the rainbow colour 12. Where do you want to go on your honeymoon?: someone with all ugly girls so my guy wont check em out 13. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? my man aka dReAm 14. Do you have a lava lamp? yes i do 15. How many buddies do you have on your IM list? my list is full since 5 years and i delete and add new ppl everyday 16. How's the weather right now? fweezing :( winter is coming 17. Have you ever smoked pot?: im high right now 18. What did you do last night? sit online and work on my site 19. Last Person that u talked to on the phone?: my mommy 20. How long have you been with ur bf/gf for? a little over a year now 21. Who do you most admire?: hanif 22. Fave Backstreet Boy?: brian 23. Do you like the person that is sitting beside u? im in the middle. wich side? 24. How are you today? very high and its amazing 25. How do you eat an Oreo? lol wat kinda fuckin q is that 26. Fave M&M? whats da diff? 27. Who makes you happy? ask WAT makes me happy :P 28. Fave CD? no fav cds 29. Dream Date?: i have a lot of dream dates 30. Favorite quote? Do you remember when we were tight? When we'd share our every thought? Every smile? And every laugh? Oh, and do you remember when you broke my heart? Because I seem to remember that more than anything. 31. Whats the best song to slow dance to?: truly madly deeply by savage ppl 32. Hair color?: red 33. Eye color?: black 34. Height?: 5'4" 35. Do you wear contacts? not at the moment 36. Siblings and their ages? sis almost 17, bro 15 37. What school do you attend?: not tellin 38. Who do you consider to be your close friends or just friends?: i really dont no 39. What do you like to do?: i love makin sites, lissen to music n dance and drink coke 40. What was the best advice ever given to you?: ok ask me later cuz im high and i forgot 41. Dream car?: anythin at the moment feel like ridin in ny 42. Have you ever won any special awards?: track/ other sports 43. What do you want to be when you grow up?: a model n hair dresser 44. What are your future goals?: to become a mother of 2 children and marry b4 im 24 45. Fave music?: hip hop, hindi, bhangra 46. Favorite food?: corn and broccoli wit a lotttttttt of butter 47. Who is the funniest person that you know?: no ones funny these days 48. Fave movies?: titanic, save the lass dance 49. Fave day of year?: My b-day October 22 50. Fave month?: october 51. Fave girls perfume? "absolutely fabulous" by revlon 52. Fave guys cologne?: Polo 53. Do you like to dance?: i love it 54. Fast or slow? dirty? 55. Are you too shy to ask someone out?: naw but thas not my job 56. Fave name brand?: silvia 57. If you could change your name, what would it be?: i wudnt change my name, i love it 58. Worst sickness that you have ever had? dun remember 59. Do you sleep w/ a stuffed animal?: naw not no more 61. What is the stupidest thing that you have ever done?: i really dunno where to start 62. What will your first son's name be? Humza 63. First daughter? Naina 64. Favorite drink? Coca Cola 65. Whats your fav sport? track n field 66. Do you like scary or happy movies better? scary 67. On the phone or in person? if ugly..phone...and if hot hot hot..in person 68. Night or day? NIGHT wait..to do what? oh ok..night 69. Lust or Love? not too sure 71. Kisses or hugs? depends wit who 72. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: my short temper and crazy mood swings 73. Do you consider cheerleading a sport?: thas definetly not a sport 74. Who do you like right now? ahh not tellin 75. Have you ever had an online romance?: yes 76. What did you think of this survey?: i unno.. didnt think nothin bout it 77.what was the best gift you ever recieved? 18 blue roses on my 18th birthday Tuesday, August 24, 2004 SERVEY 2 (im very High at the moment) 1) Whats your full name, and time of day? Silvia Kazi/ nighttime? 2) If u could change ur name to something else, what would it be? Sri lanka 3) what colour is your hair? red ( a pretty shade too) 4) what colour are your eyes? red, theyre matching my hair now 5) how old are u? 19 almost 20 6) where were u born? Montreal, QB 7) what hospital were u born in? St. Mary 8) whats your height? 5'4 9) whats your weight? 110 lbs 10) whats the craziest thing u have done to ur own body?(pierced ear myself, pierced belly myself) 11) what do u look for in a friend? sense of humour and honesty 12) what are your best qualities? id love to know 13) have any sibs? yeh one bro one sis 14) do u have a bf/gf, are u looking? I have a man at the moment 15) do u drink? nope 16) have u ever been drunk? yep 17) ever smoked pot? lol im high right now u fucking fob 18) ever stole something? Everyday, ask anyone im pro 19) every told ur parents off? ask me how often 20) go to church? no 21) are u closer to ur dad or mom? mommie 22) every wear tye-dye clothing? :D 23) every woke up and went to school with bedhead? wtf is a bed head? 24) are looks important to u? very 25) are u a virgin? is my name Mary? 26) do u consider urself popular? lol :S 27) do u like what u look like? im satisfied 28) ever felt like committing suicide? i think everyone did 29) ever had to comfort friends in this position? hmmm... 30) ever been involved with pregnant threats between friends? naw 31) ever made out with someone with 5+ years on u? hmmm 32) ever made a total ass of yourself in a drunken state? holy yeh 33) ever said something to someone u wish u could take back, if so, what was it? When..(thinking..19 mins) no i dont no. i forgot the q but i dun wanna read it again. 34) ever felt like u lost something u could never get back? Felt like i lost Fahim once and never get him back. 35) ever cried urself to sleep? too many times 36) are u good in school? i would be if i really went to classes 37) recall an ur most memorable experience at school. Lighting a cigarette in the girls changing room n had the school thinkin the school was on fire. 38) what are ur future plans?(university...mcdonalds...squeegy dude..ect.) Modeling, hairdressing 39) ever been in a physical fight? i dont think 40) ever been punched in the face? no cant u see my face is cute? 41) name a couple of ur TRUE friends. I only have one TRUE friend... gonna have everyone wonderin... 42) say someting good about each of them. The person is the person who is one of the most caring person towards me i have ever met. 43) ever put a diaper on a baby backwards? no 44) are u a fashion follower? sumtimes, maybe every second season 45) what kinda music do u like? hop hop, reggae, hindi n bhangraaaaa 46) fav. movie? titanic, save the lass dance 47) fav. actor/actress? got none 48) do you have a job? if so where? at a restaurant 49) do u hate ur boss? sumwat 50) ever told a teacher where to go? ya bak to where they came out from 51) ever loved someone? not sure 52) what kinda car do u wish u owned? mazda 6, nissan silvia, mx-6, the inside of a black interior impala. I hate the outside of the car tho 53) if u could wish for 1 thing, what would it be? to be happy 54) do u like sports? yeh anythin challenging 55) if so, what kind of sports do u like? i love track, volleyball, n floor hockey, n badminton 56) ever done any extreme sports? hm no does water skiing count? 57) ever gone skinny dipping? nope 58) ever been bit by something from outdoors? no shit fuck n theyre all males too 59) whats ur favourite colour? dun got one butttt it might be pink? 60) fav. season? i hate every season. winters too cold, in the summer i get darker, in fall i hate it gettin dark outside fast, and spring i hate birds coming bak n shittin on my lawn and smell of worms. 61) fav. holiday? hallowe'en 62) fav. band/singer? got none 63) ever broke any bones? nope 64) what kinda shows do u watch on tv? hm makeover shows, parkers, those house redesigning shows, unsolved mysteries 64) ever been snowed in? yeh once at school in like grade 5 65) ever snowed someone in? oh in the snow playing? wtf ya 66) ever made fun of someone for immature reasons? ya 67) ever been made fun of for immature reasons? ya 68) are u outgoing? i tastes sour gummy bears. yum 69) does this question number effect u in anyway? ya its sumone i no's door number door number :P 70) what school do u go to? lol no telling 71) ever got in a fist fight with a sibling? ask them 72) whats your country of origin? bd? 73) do u smoke? yes 74) are u glad this is over????(dont act too excited) no cuz im in the mood to answer stupid questions SURVEY 1 1. Ever been so drunk you blacked out: prolly once 2. Missed school because it was raining: i miss school fer anything - YA 3. Put a body part on fire for amusement: ya my fingers, now im typin wit my toes 4. Been hurt emotionally: alot 5. Kept a secret from everyone: hmmmm..... 6. Had an imaginary friend when you were young: yo i still got one eh, no joke 7. Wanted to hook up with a friend: i might have 8. Had a crush on a teacher: YUK wtf - my teachers r all fuckin over 200 n fat n nasty lookin 9. Ever thought an animated character was hot: yo..maybe if i was a cartoon 10. Had a New Kids on the Block tape: ya i got one still n alllll the bakstreetboys ones too ------------------FAVOURITES------------------ Shampoo: pantene pro-v/neutrogena Soap: dove Colour: got none Day/Night: night Summer/Winter: winter so i can get lighter Lace or satin: none Fave cartoon Characters: i dont fucking watch cartoon Fave Food: most things wit potatoes/cheese... poutine/corn Fave Ice Cream: chocolate chip mint and oreo Fave 'normal' Drink: coke - ima cokeaholic Fave Persons to talk to online: i got few now/but fahim wen he IS online -----------------RIGHT NOW------------------ Wearing: pj pants n baby blue top Hair is: up ina ponytail Eating: nothin Drinking: nothin Thinking about: the answer to this question Talking 2: my invisible friend ------------------THE LAST 24 HRS------------------ Cried: nawww Worn a skirt: naw Met someone New: new? wtf hawkesbury doesnt have new ppl..its like live on and die Cleaned your room: r u fucking retarded Done laundry: yeh actually Drove a car: yeh --------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------ Your self: shut up fuck Friends: no, friends dont exist Santa Claus: no Tooth Fairy: im the tooth fairy Angels: im the angel Ghosts: yes, fer sure Boogie men: no UFO's: yeh fer sure, ive seen a spaceship b4 too - no im not on crack ------------RIGHT NOW------------------------ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yeh i do Like anyone? yeh my bf Who do you go to for advice: i like my own advice When do you cry the most: when im bored n i get messed up mood swings Worst Feeling: stomach pain from period kills/broken heart oh yeh n dun forget to rate me on ratedesi Ahhhh i am lovin this! im juss testin but this is fer all of you sexy mamas. muahhhhZ. yay now my site will be way better. Thursday, August 19, 2004 OoOoOoOoo this shud be bootiful! a fresh new place to build my site! always www.fubuzstyle.2ya.com bookmark it dammit!