09|13|01 : nothing really to update. just some pictures of ny from the top of one of the world trade center towers. thanks to joshua for letting me put them up. if you've watched the news lately, there's just so much going on...the rescue effort, the investigations, the international support...it's just crazy. tomorrow's a day of rememberance and prayer... something i think that'll give this country some time to reflect on what's happened, mourn for those lost, and pray for the safety of survivors. but most importantly, offering some peace, as the past couple of days have seemed just overwhelming and hectic.

09|12|01 : i'm not sure what too feel. i'm not sure what to write, or even if i should write. but something of this magnitude, i want to write a bit about it. despite being on the other coast where this tragedy seems so distant...the fact is that a great deal of innocent civilians lost their lives. innocent civilians that go to work, travel on planes, run errands in a city, attend to the needs of their family... they carry on with their daily lives like you and i, without worry about car bombings or being held hostage at a bank. the freedom from terror. this is one of the four championed freedoms that franklin d. roosevelt established for our democracy. today, this freedom was challenged and violated again ...but never through an act so unbelievable, and so grotesque, that we wonder who could cold-heartedly mastermind the whole thing and carry it out in such indifference to the endangerment of thousands of human lives. i suppose this is where the connection is made between those victims there, and with the people of this nation who witnessed it from afar like me. somewhere now, the people behind this think of it as an accomplishment, having planned this for months. they feel they have caused a huge dent in the mighty United States, taking out symbols of our economic and military power, and revel in the fact that they have shaken the rights and freedoms of this freeworld, by committing these acts in our own soil. they believe they did the right thing cuz of...well...i'm not sure...simply of their hatred towards the united states for being a big brother in international affairs? believing the US to hold them back...a symbol of a roadblock to their rights and freedoms as individuals. perhaps of religious reasons? i dunno...there's too much to be discussed here and we shouldn't be pointing fingers off the bat. i find it somewhat sad that some gov't officials are already blaming some arabian terrorist dude, despite there being no sure evidence to prove anything. but then again, i'm not too well-knowledged in international politics...only hear of things here and there. so i suppose in some way, i'm as narrow-minded as the people who are responsible, when i say that i want revenge...even despite the lack of facts and evidence to start pointing fingers and launching nuclear missles. i want justice. i want what was done to us, done on too them. i know, i know...jimmy, you need to settle down. but i can't help shake my imagination of what went on during the 4 hi-jacked planes. all those people...all innocent...all unaware of what was to become...did nothing while a small group of criminals force their way to the cockpit...stabbing people with knives along the way... the thoughts that were going through them as crashed. why did i take this flight? who are these guys? what's going on? ...why?... it makes me sick to the stomach.

i watched president george w bush's address to the nation, and i must say, i felt it was very well put and in tune with the hearts of the American people. what?? jimmy?? are you actually...dare i say...COMPLEMENTING "W"?? well, yes i sure am. despite my jokes on president bush...about his tax-cuts, vacations, his funny facial expressions while talking (you should see some of the pictures i have of him) and his so called "bushisms" (which are pretty hilarious) ...today is the first time i really felt like he was the president of the united states... a country of democracy under crisis, but assuring the people that the goverment has not been broken, that they will be in action tomorrow. and i was sort of proud that he was, and that i was a part of this great country. he plans to find those responsible and punish them for such a cowardly act against the united states. the part that got to me most is when he said, "We will make no distinction between the terrorists who committed these acts and those who harbor them." it made me think, "wow, who would have thought. bush has got some balls. big brass ones." it conveys that we as americans will not tolerate today's terrorism, declare it an act of war, and will take appropriate action...which could mean bad news for afghanistan, which is supposedly hiding Osama bin Laden, and other countries known to protect terrorist factions. but as of right now, there's a mess in ny and the pentagon. so the focus shouldn't be on who's responsible at the moment, but on the rescuers trying to find survivors under the rubble, and the families and friends of victims and rescuers who remain missing after the twin tower collapse. no doubt, today will go down as a historic tragedy for a nation, but also a chance for the nation shine through the aftermath and "go forward to defend freedom and all that is good and just in our world."

man, i feel like a stupid news reporter. did you see peter jennings on abc news? MAN, that guy is a MARATHON MAN. he was on from the beginning i'm sure, which was around 9ish. it seemed like he was so tired, constantly blinking, trying to paying attention to guests as they spoke their wisdom. but he just kept going and going. even i eventually got tired and gave up on watching the news. i bet he was still continuing on. man, go mr. jennings. mad props to you baby. we salute you.

on a more personal note, i had some friends in the ny city region that i was quite worried about. one was a friend who worked for american express. as you know, there are a lot of financial services located in the world trade center, but i wasn't sure where the american express office was. dave and i searched some sites and found some addresses of american express offices around the manhattan area, and one was located in the world trade center. she's okay now. but she was right there when everything happened. i had two other friends who went to visit ny. i finally reached them later that night. they were okay...staying at my friend's home in new jersey. but he was telling me that it was pretty surreal...that just the other they the went to the world trade center and took pictures of where it once stood. and now being 45 min away from teh city, he could see the smoke rising from where he was. my friend has a sister who works for another financial service company, but she was across the river when everythign happened. i'm just glad that they're okay. in some ways, it's weird cuz i actually been to the world trade center. josh chiu and i went to ny to visit one spring break. i know the world trade center was one of the sites we hit up first...went up to the top floor and took pictures. and even though i'm not there and i don't see it everyday, i just can't believe they're gone. craziness is all i can say.

08|31|01 : well well well, looks like "W" is back from his 26 day vacation. guess it's time to start getting into gear...i wonder if bush's day is anything like the "west wing." i mean, heck that is one crazy show, and you don't see martin sheen taking vacations. come on, w! oh well, we still love you man...and your wise sayings like, ''I know what I believe. I will continue to articulate what I believe and what I believe—I believe what I believe is right."—Rome, July 22, 2001. preach on, w.

looks like there is all this controversey surrounding the age of and immigrant status of bronx ace, danny almonte. supposedly he's 2 years over the eligible age limit to play in little league, which is 12. his true age will be revealed tomorrow by his hometown of the Dominican Republic. there's also talk that he and his father are here illegally...that their visas expired 6 months ago. this is pretty sad...i mean i know what i said earlier, but all this attention has scared him and his father into hiding. this is a very serious matter that could cost the bronx team the 3rd place finish, and a lot of little league kids wondering, "what if..."

okay, i'm not a hardcore cs man...playing like 8 hours a day like the "professional" gamers...but i do play about 2 hours or more at night. so i guess i'm pretty addicted...but this here's news is just crazy/unbeliveable/stupid/sad, all rolled into one...check it.

well, they finally caught that russian immigrant dude...tipped off by his own brother. supposedly he was so scared when he saw him hiding in the backyard that he didn't even think to use the cellphone that the police gave him. he just took off to a local store and made a phone call there. it's up to justice to do it's part. but here comes some more sad news... i couldn't believe when i saw it, but there was another killing somewhere in iowa...a mother and 5 kids. i'm not too sure what the motive was but the police have ruled out suicide... this is too sad.

hmm...well, it's been fun just writing some news. hahaha nobody ever reads this anyways, but i have time to watch the news almost daily. it's good to know what's going on, cuz sometimes i feel like my life is so routine, and so sheltered cuz nothing ever really happens to me. but i've been going nuts...living at home. so much i want to do, but i'm held back cuz i'm stuck at home, and i don't have job. ARGGH...i wish i could just move out right now. and this job hunt just seems hopeless. but of course this is nothing...cuz one day i will get a job, and i'll be able to tell my parents that i'm moving out, and FINALLY be financially independent....one day.

"...if at first you don't succeed, dust yourself off and try again, you can dust it off and try again, try again..."

08|27|01 : well, nothing really to update about my site. for the next few weeks i'm actually gonna be transfering a bunch of stuff from my sister's computer to my computer. then i'm gonna install win 2k on my computer and reinstall everything there. hopefully, things will go smoothly.

well, i dunno if you heard, but aaliyah and 7 others died in a plane crash somewhere in the bahamas while taking off. i heard about it last night...and i was in total disbelief. dunno why really, i mean, i'm not a huge fan of hers... but i do think she's an awesome dancer and i love her "try again" song. i guess it's just really sad to hear something like that to someone who was so young and talented. she was only 22, and had a role for the upcoming matrix sequels. so much more that could have been...but now we're left with memories of her and her great music and videos...not to mention romeo must die.

going with some more sad news, they still haven't caught that russian immigrant who killed like 6 members of his family. man, i didn't really follow it from the beginning, but i just saw in a news report a clip of his mother back in russia pleading to his son to turn himself in. man...that's just so crazy and sad. i wonder if he saw it...

ALRIGHT...here's my rant on the so called "baby bronx bombers" team in the little league world series. man, i just kept hearing about what happened during the usa semifinal match of our sd boys from oceanside against bronx, ny. and i was wondering what the big deal was cuz almonte pitching for ny against oceanside, the best hitting team in the little league world series this year...GREAT match up. but i just saw the clip of the ny kid who scored the only run of the game missing second base...i couldn't believe it. but oh well, that's baseball. it's just a game. at little league baseball they stress safety and fun, but i don't see how much fun it could have been for oceanside knowing that they were robbed of a decent chance of victory. danny almonte pitched a great game; an incredible athlete at his age (something like a 110-120mph major league equivalent fastball)...but so did tom eukovich of oceanside. if not for that "controversial" run...it could have gone either way. another thing that bothered me about that bronx team was that a good portion of the don't even speak english. there was a pregame interview of almonte and another kid and they needed an interpreter. i dunno, but for some reason that just bugged me... but according to little league rules, all you have to be is a resident of that region to be eligible to play. i watched the US championship game, and i was so glad that florida beat ny 8-2. i know, i know... they're just kids, jimmy...don't be so bitchy about it. but it's just something about the ny baseball teams...i just hate them. and when the media started calling them the baby bronx bombers...just had to root against them. oh well. japan ended up beating florida in the world series championship game 2-1. i didn't watch the whole thing, but i'm sure it was a great experience for those kids. sometimes i wish my parents signed me up for little league when i was a kid. i think that would have been fun. oh well...bygones.

well that is it...hopefully i'll have my website up and running. it's just hard since i have to do all that stuff mentioned earlier before i can even start making it, AND i'm looking for a job. i hope i get one soon so i can get a new computer, and SPRINT ION dsl, and school all of you newbie cs players. BRING IT.

08|17|01 : bah! too much cs make jimmy go crazy!!! it's 3:37am, and i'm just posting a stupid update...just that stupid link. man, i want to switch over to my own computer, but then i won't be able to use my sister's gf2mx when i play cs. freak!! it's not like i play cs all day long...just a few hours at night...am i hardcore?? blah! i'm just glad i got to go out during the day... i watched american pie 2. oh brother...that movie is raunchy, but HILARIOUS. i have never seen the first one, but i hear the 2nd one is more scandalous. yeah. i saw rush hour 2 a few days ago too...it was good, except i wish they didn't show all the funny stuff in trailers and commercials, cuz i hardly laughed when it actually showed up during the movie. the pita packa gives ap2: 4/5pitas...and rh2: 3.5 (could have been a 4 if they didn't show every freakin punch line before i watched the movie)/5 pitas. anyway, i still have to get flash and dreamweaver...and borrow a zip drive to transfer some files. so, until then...go say hi to the nearest angry little asian girl, but careful not to make fun of them. yikes.

"W" thinking to himself: "should i allow federal funding for steam cell research? hmmm... i think it's a bad idea..but does that mean i could clone another george w? ooo...then the clone can take over all the presidency chores, and i can just chill at home. tax cuts! whoo hoo! everybody likes tax cuts. oh man, all this thinking is making my noggin' hurt...i need a vacation. oh wait, i am on one...so why am i thinking so hard?? i need a donut..."

08|09|01 : well, i guess i'll just use this as my update/journal page for the time being. i can't do much right now cuz well, i'm not using my computer with all my programs, and i'm waiting to get my hands on dreamweaver and flash. yup. i probably won't get those till next week or so. in the meantime, you are stuck with this!!

well i just wanted to say to ooj (since i know he's the only one that visits): "stay the course." hahaha...you think it's lame huh? i forget what movie that's from, but i think it applies to what your going through oojee. like you said, it doesn't matter what path to take, just as long as you get there. so press on, brother. oh...someone wants to tell you something... surprise. oh, and sorry about last night cs...man...you know you were workin us the first few rounds. i wasn't trying to let you win...so you were really letting out that bad "mojo" out on us man. hehe but once i got back my colt... :)

anyway, i'm going to bakersfield today...for a friend's wedding. i am quite excited about it. i won't be back till saturday or sunday or even monday. so, until then, i just wanted to say, "did you call your mommy and daddy yet???"

08|05|01 : due to eugene's recent aquisition of flash and dreamweaver, i have once again been motivated to start up my web page. i have always wanted to work on flash, although i hear it is tough to use. so we shall see how long this will last. hahaha... i am not even sure why i am posting this update...?? nobody visits my site. oh well...here goes nothing.

you can still check my previously unfinished site. i still like the stupid java effect. i have no idea how to write that script now. oh well.