Author's note:This is my own version of Cyril-chan's Just a dream


JUST A DREAM


As I cradled your head on my lap,I touched those soft blonde hair of
yours.I gently brushed some wisps from your gentle face.You look so
vulnerable sleeping like that.One could never guessed that you were able
to kill the Genei Ryodan.

I felt so peaceful when I'm with you.My heart swelled with my love for
you.There's nothing in the world that could ever come between us.

As I gently touched your face,you put your hand on top of mine.Your
eyes fluttered open as you softly kissed the palm of my hand.Those
aquamarine eyes of yours stared intently into mine.

"What are you thinking,love?"You asked me in a whisper.

"Nandemonai."I answered in the same tone.

You slowly rose up and sat down beside me and gathered me in those
strong arm of yours.I inhaled your scent.You smelled of wood and
musk,wonderfully masculine.

"You know,koi?"You whispered in my ear."I wish the flow of time would
stop.I could stay like this forever with you here in my bloodstained…"

I stopped your words with my finger tip."Hush,anata.The past is
past.What you've done means nothing to me now."

"How could you ever love someone like me?Someone who killed people
just to satisfy his thirst for revenge."

"I looked past that.Anata,I'm not that shallow.I know you hated
killing.I love you because of the gentle heart you have locked away in the
depths of your mind."

You gave me a tiny yet precious smile."I'm glad you saw past those
barriers.I lived my entire life in the darkness.I allowed myself not to
love anyone in fear of neglecting my mission.And yet here you are,the
beacon sent by the heavens to guide me back into the
light.Ureshii…Aishiteru with all my heart."

"Aishiteru,Kurapika….istumademo."

You slowly cupped my chin and stared lovingly into my eyes.Warmth
filled my heart and spread all over my body as I recalled those three
precious words you said to me.I would always treasure the times we were
alone like this.

You lowered your lips,just inches away from mine.I could feel your
sweet breathe.Your hand,the one with the chains,slowly caressed the side
of my face as you settled your lips on mine.It was a perfect fit.It was
like we were made for each other.

You gave me a kiss,a passionate yet gentle kiss.A kiss that sealed our
destiny.I kissed you back,returning with the amount of love you gave
me…perhaps even more.

You reluctantly pulled away and stared again into my eyes.I doubt I
could still see clearly for passion clouded my vision.I sighed and leaned
against your chest as I let time pass us by.

I started to close my eyes when everything started to fade.I looked up
to you in panic.Your eyes were filled with terror as you slowly fade
away.

"Kurapika!"I shouted as I try to hold you in my arms.But my efforts
were in vain,you had disappeared.Tears streamed down my face.

"Iyada!"I shouted in denial."This can't be hapenning.Kurapika!"

The peaceful scenery was replaced by total darkness.Voices…I started
hearing voices in my head.

"Of course,this isn't happening.it's all in your mind"

"You're such a dreamer,Lilin!"

"Do you think,if he's real,he'll love you?What a foolish dream."

"You're such a fool,a hopeless fool."

"Reality check,Lilin,reality check."

"He doesn't exist.He's just a character!"

"Iyada!Iyada!Iyada!"I started screaming,I was confused."Leave me
alone!"

The voices never ceased to stop.They kept on berating me,confusing
me.Telling me that it was one of my stupid fantasies to be in love with a
character.They were so cruel,those people whom I call my friends,my
relatives.

"Why can't you leave me alone?"I said."This is my own world not
yours."

I finally broke down.Tears sprang from my eyes as I sat and buried my
face in my knees.The voices still haven't left me alone.They haven't
left me alone to be in my own world.

"LEAVE ME ALOOOONE!!!!"

I woke up to the rays of the sun shining down on me.I expected to see
you smiling down on me,telling me it was a nightmare.I waited for your
voice but none came.

I sat up and realized I was still in my room.Tears started to spill
again as I touched my lips.Pain coursed through my heart to see that you
were not there.I hugged my knees and wept.

"It was a dream after all."I cried sadly."Just a dream…"



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Author's notes:HxH characters doesn't belong to me but to the great
Togashi-sensei.Arianna is my own character especially made to be
Kurapika's koi.You'll understand more about her when I've written my
Kurapika-Arianna fanfic but for now enjoy.Comments and flames are welcome but not
a lawsuit.I don't have that much money. :)

TEARS
*Arianna's POV *


It was a bright and sunny day for a picnic.We were walking down a hill
and we came across a beautiful pasture.The grass were green and the
wildflowers colorful.I let out a squeal of laughter as I ran downwards.I
look back just in time to see your golden blonde hair swept by the
wind.Your aquamarine eyes full of thoughts.

"Hayaku,koi!"I called out to you.I blushed as I said that.You gave me
a tiny smile and went after me.

I blushed again fiercely and giggled as the wind lifted up my skirt.I
looked back to you again.Your eyes revealed nothing,you were devoid of
emotions.It tugged my heart to see you in such a state.I want to
comfort you,to help in any way I can.To ease the pain you bear.

I gathered a bunch of wildflowers as you set up our picnic blanket
down.I came back afterwards,you have already finished it.I sat down beside
you.

As I made a crown out of the wildflowers,I remembered the day you were
about to kill the Genei Ryodan.I ran towards you, begging not to.I
recalled my cowardly words.

*Flashback*

"Dame,Kurapika!"I said."If you kill Kuroro you're no more than him,a
murderer.I don't want you to be one.Yamete…onegai!"

I cursed myself at the words I spoke.Why can't I be stronger?I was
childish,a coward.I could nothing but speak.I was weak,I cried.I was
helpless.

You walked towards me and gathered me in your strong arms as you
soothed me.You whispered honeyed words as you stroke my back.I want to say
that I should be the one comforting you.It hurts so much to see you
struggle.Instead you were the one comforting me.I'm not a child anymore but
when you hold me like that you make me feel one,you make me feel
safe…and maybe even loved.I shook my head
against that silly notion.You were like a warrior,incapable of loving.

I want to say I love you but I know you knew.It hurts so much that you
didn't return my feelings but I still held on wishing someday you'll be
able to come out of your jail…to be free.

*End of Flashback*

I looked across you and our gazes collided.I was somber and so were
you.I held my breathe as you gathered me in your arms and cupped my
chin.You slowly set your lips upon mine.You were excitingly hard and
thoroughly masculine.

When you pulled away,my eyes were cloudy with passion….and love.I
realized then that you also love me but was too afraid to put it in words.I
was ecstatic to come to that conclusion that my tears threaten to spill
again.

I know you think of me weak when tears sprang from my eyes that time.I
wish I was strong and capable of hiding my feelings just like you.Maybe
that's what made me love you.I needed someone to hold on to,to cry on
to.Tears…I cried a lot.Tears…tears of a weakling.






*Kurapika's POV *

It was a bright and sunny day,just like your smile.We were walking
down a hill and we came across a beautiful pasture.The grass were green
and the wildflowers colorful.You let a squeal of laughter as you ran
downwards.Your hair came loose as the wind toys with your long, glorious
ebony black hair.Your amethyst eyes glittered all the more with glee as
you enjoy the wonders of nature.

"Hayaku,koi!"You called out to me.Warmth filled my heart as you called
me your love.I gave you a tiny smile and went after you.This is
paradise….this is heaven.

I watched you giggled as the wind lift up your skirt.You were so
carefree.Your gentle nature,always surfacing.Watching you washes the
problems I have away.It cleanses my soul,enlightens my heart.

I watched you as you gathered wildflowers while I set up our picnic
blanket down.You came afterwards with a bunch of wildflowers and sat down
beside me.You look so innocent.

As I carefully studied you,I remembered the day I was about to kill
the leader of the Genei Ryodan.Then you ran towards me,begging not to.I
recalled your caring words.

*Flashback*

"Dame,Kurapika"You said."If you kill Kuroro,you're no more than him,a
murderer.I don't want you to be one.Yamete…onegai!"

Tears streamed down your lovely face.Pain coursed through my heart.I
reluctantly ceased to kill the bastard.I put on him the Judgment chain
instead and let him go.

I walked towards you and gathered you in my arms as I soothed you.I
tried to calm you down because it pained me to see you weep,especially
for me.I don't deserve your tears.I felt so guilty for making you cry.I
asked myself why does it hurt me more to see you cry than to see my
friends get hurt.Realization hit me hard…it's because I love you.

I was shocked to come to that conclusion.I never allowed my emotions
to get a hold of me and yet love did. I don't know when and how it
happened but all I know is you have captured my heart when I least expected
it.

I never admitted that to you because I don't deserve you.I was filled
with vengeance,full of hatred to deserve someone as innocent as
you,someone as pure.I'm not worthy of your love.

*End of Flashback*


I looked across you and our gazes collided.You were somber and so was
I.I couldn't resist so I gathered you in my arms and cupped your chin.I
slowly set my lips upon yours.You were so sweetly innocent and
wonderfully soft.

When I pulled away,I looked into your eyes again and saw no hint of
disgust or surprise…just full of love.I know you love me.When I saw you
cried for me that time,my frozen heart melted.It had set me free.You
taught me how to love.Your tears for me was a new beginning.Yes,your
tears…the tears of an innocent.

-----End-----



Kurapika:I fell in love with a weakling?!What the hell is this world
coming to?

Lilin:You have to admit it was a very nice and romantic fic.

Kurapika:Romantic?!You make the worst fic!(He gets clobbered by Lilin.)

Arianna:You kiss so well,koi…(She hugs Kurapika)*sigh* *sigh*

Kurapika:Ack!Get away from me!

Arianna: (went chibi and wails)Waaaah!Kurapika hates me!

Lilin:Look at what you've done to my character!You're such a meannie.

Kurapika: (looks somber and walks up to Arianna)Gomen,Arianna.
Yurushite kudasai.

Arianna:Wai!!!!Kurapika LOVES me.(hugs Kurapika again)Wai!Wai!Wai!

Kurapika:Oi,don't get carried away.

Lilin: (smiles mischievously)Now,I know what to do with my fanfic on
how you guys met.

Kurapika:Sonna!

Lilin:Maybe I should put a bit of yaoi in it.

Kurapika: (blushed fiercely)Oi,don't do that!

Lilin:Hahahaha!I'm the author and you're going to abide by it!And
besides,I know you'll enjoy it.

Kurapika:I'm not like Hisoka!

Lilin:Too bad but I have already made up my mind and ideas has started
flowing in.I'll enjoy writing this fic.Well,ja ne.I have to start
working on it.

Kurapika:Oi,matte!Lilin-sama,chotto matte!(too late….)


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