The Sad Fable

I sat across from you
At the small table
Built just for two
And we told all our fables.

I looked up
And saw you looking at me
So I glanced back to the bottom of my cup
Just so you wouldn’t have to see.

See; see the tears in my eyes.
You and I, so far apart.
Neither would know that my heart dies
My once bursting heart.

Our own little world
Yet so, so alone
The wind and rain swirled
The light from our love no longer shone.

A beacon in the night
For the whole world to see.
A bright shining light
That made me so happy.

I hid it from you
And you hid it all from me.
What else could I do?
I would never let you see.

See how you stole away my soul
All those dark stormy nights
I confess; not stole
I gave it to you by all rights.

But I wouldn’t tear down my walls
Or even install a door
I shut myself off from you calls
As if my heart was waging a war.

Against what, I don’t even know.
Just must raise the defenses
Let no emotion show
And make up some pretenses.

But where was I?
Oh yes, the small table
I would return home and cry
Over such a sad fable.

We sat in silence
We knew what it was we lacked.
I might as well be on the other side of a brick fence
My slow smile was just an act.

An angel raised my eyes
So I looked across to you
Forgotten were the lies
Suddenly a fresh wind blew

And I was in your arms
And you were in mine
Silent were the alarms
And the bliss was divine.

Soul in soul, and heart in heart
We left the small table
Knowing we wouldn’t be apart
Deserting our sad fable.




The Missing Lifeline
11.26.02

I wish I could bring you back
And hand you all that you lack.
Rise to the sky
Where we could fly.

In the depths below
Where the moonbeams never go
Lies a mere shell
Long ago, when it fell.

Down I gaze
And cry for days
Just to see you like that.
Spread flat.

I reached for you,
But the only thing you do
Is turn away.
Leave me with nothing to say.

There’s no oasis
Feeling hopeless
Surrounded by the fake,
How long till we break?

A missing lifeline.
The edge you walk is fine.
Between light and despair,
You forget I care.

I watched as you slipped
Down to a watery crypt.
Drowning, your last gasp
Beyond my grasp.

I begged you to return.
Rise from your ashy urn.
Your eyes have gone all cold.
And your soul, sold.

Don’t leave me here.
To brave the fear
That your slayer
Will cut my deepest layer.

Slice my core.
Caress the door
That slammed behind you
Bringing tears, sharp and new.

From beyond the end
I learned of what I cannot mend.
Try to stop your pain,
Scream in vain.

You finally broke.
On my tears, I choke.
What could I do?
I couldn’t fix you.
No matter how hard I tried.
In the end, you died.






You don’t care

You should be there
Even if you don’t care
I need your support
(The meaningful sort.)

You need to be behind me
To tell me what I see.
To guide me on my way
Not just send me off everyday.

I’m sick of your s**t
You’re body language and words don’t fit.
You say you love me,
While staring at the TV.

Who are you really talking to?
What you say isn’t true.
It hurts to the core
That you consider me a bore.

The way your eyes slide by
Like you aren’t seeing me cry.
How you would only sigh
Whether today I live or die.

But you only see this now,
And you wonder how
They could have made it better
As you read the last letter
I will ever write.
And your soul soars like a kite.






Burning Tears

As I floated far away
You looked up each day
I’m too far-gone
This will be my last dawn.

How far must you look?
To see what it is you took
Ripped from the void
Played and toyed.

I want you
More than the heavens do.
Don’t go.
To that fire far below.

Even with all I’m missing
And for what I’m wishing.
I’d be ok
If you were mine today.

I can’t decide
With who to confide
My darkest fears
And burning tears.

They roll down my face,
And on the table’s lace.
Forsaken yet desperately needed
I’m still unleaded.

Drifting alone
The pieces of my life sown
In all the wrong ways
For a thousand days.






One Day

What often causes the worst pain
Is the sweetest thing
The smile you bring

To my lips
Is not reflected in your face.
My heart ceases to race.

Back to the stone walkway
My eyes fall.
My feet stall.

I notice everything about you
You do not notice me
I stare, but you don’t see.

Perhaps you will see me too
One day
Till then, unnoticed I must stay.




Mirage

Where have you gone?
You left so fast.
I thought you’d never stop.
Leaving me in the past.

With the morning light you left
As soon as I opened my eyes.
But—aren’t you real?
My hope dies.

Just a fleeting image
A mirage of perfection
Appearing when my eyes close
An angel’s reflection.




The Angels Made You Say Good-Bye

Did you mean to die?
Did you know you’d make me cry?
I didn’t think you were fated
To die a death you created.

At twenty-eight
Someone had your ashes in a crate.
You only wanted to get high
But the angels made you say good-bye.

Why’d you have to go?
That’s what I want to know.
All alone, was that your choice?
Or did you silence your voice?

Maybe there was a point that needed to be proved.
But couldn’t you have done it without having your soul removed?
Now you’ll never see the sun.
And this can’t be undone.




It’s not my life

You say I’m insensitive.
But it’s not my life you’ve had to live.
Have you had your trust broken?
And not a word of true sympathy spoken?

Where no one could see me on the inside
I declared my fears and cried
But the façade others see,
Wasn’t the real me.

How can I care?
With all I’ve had to bear.
I kept myself locked
And my ships of emotion docked.

I want to open to you
But will you hurt me too?
And isn’t it wrong?
All day for acceptance I long.

Do you enjoy your misery?
Even with all the beauty there is to see?
I make light of a thing
And you say I’m uncaring.

I don’t know what to say,
Or how to go about my day.
I miss it when we weren’t so deep.
I’m afraid of that leap.




Still I Cry

Tears fill my eyes
She sits there and cries.
You’ll never be dead in my heart
But now you walk apart.

I miss you
What did you do?
Why did you go?
Did you feel that low?

You’ve all but disappeared.
It is what I feared.
I know you’re not really gone to me
But you might as well be.

It’s almost three years
You see it in my tears.
My pain I have confessed
Please just try your best

To tell my why
I refuse to say goodbye.
I want to believe you’re here
And oh-so near.

But you’re so far away.
I miss you every day.
The days pass me by
And yet still I cry.

The pain is bittersweet.
I’m no longer complete.
I want to see you, but I can’t tell
If it will be in heaven or in hell.




Ocean pulls me close
And whispers in my ear
The destiny I've chose
Is all becoming clear

The currents have their say
The time is drawing near
It washes me away
It makes me disapear

As I descend from grace
In arms of undertow
I will take my place
In the great below

-Nine Inch Nails "The Great Below"


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